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cas is so funny bc his moral compass is entirely centered around dean so if he did something wrong but dean didnt yell at him abt it he just shrugs it off in like two episodes but if dean is mad at him it takes him abt four seasons to recover

Until death, all defeat is psychological.

destiel is like. what if the first time orpheus saw eurydice was when he saved her from hell. and he still doomed himself because he couldn’t stop looking at her after that

It makes one sick thinking about all the moments of affection and care Dean displays for cas. That Cas doesn’t know about

he doesn’t know dean was calling them friends after like. x amount of months. he doesn’t know about clutching the trenchcoat. he doesn’t know about i need you nee i love you. He doesn’t know about dean praying to him when he was human. He doesn’t know about dean clutching his face voice breaking when he calls out for cas. he doesn’t know about dean breaking down while wrapping his body. he doesn’t know about dead eyed widow stare at pyre. he doesn’t know about dean begging god to resurrect cas and destroying a door when he’s ignored. he doesn’t know about dean suicide attempt when he “accepts” cas is gone. he doesn’t know that dean straight up can’t get past cas’s name when he tries to talk about him being dead. he doesn’t know about all the times sam delicately tries to get Dean to talk about why he’s so upset when he knows the answer is cas. he doesn’t know about he got cas killed you may be able to forget that but I can’t. he doesn’t know about it’s not an it it’s Cas. he doesn’t know that tombstone was an insane about face showing from Dean who had previously been serving shipping merchant sipping whiskey while looking at the baby that killed his wife in childbirth with distaste. he doesn’t know about I have a family. oh my god he doesn’t know about I have a family. he doesn’t know about if cas was still here yeah well he’s not. He doesn’t know about I’ll kill myself and my brother if you bring back cas.

He DOESNT. know about. you haven’t warded this place against us. You’re hoping he’ll return to you I admire your loyalty I only wish he felt the same way. AAUAUAUAIAGH