kiara

i used to say that i hate my phone so much but then i realized that technology is a neutral resource exactly like sugar or money. and the more i think about it the more it makes sense. even the way people talk about a carb detox is the same way people do a dopamine detox from social media. but carbs are not bad! for example if you’re a runner you know how useful sugar is, even some candy before a sprint can have its place. and carbs are not all the same like tumblr is not the same as instagram, and quantity matters! but also money. so many people think money is bad but money is not intrinsically evil it’s a neutral resource. i can use it to help someone in need, or it can bring a sense of safety or be a resource for art-making. but the more one thinks in scarcity the more they overspend, the more one cuts sugar out the more they crave it. i think it’s the same with technology - once i stopped saying that i hated my phone i forgot about it and it started to become a tool for creativity rather than something i was feeding some undefined hunger with. sometimes i still catch myself saying i hate my phone and i take a second to pause.

constannnttttllyyyy having to remind myself i am learning. relentless mistake maker. i am learning and this experience is information. i say to myself over and over and over

I study till 11 then sleep till 3.I study till 5 then leave to learn at school till 3:30.I come back home at 4:00 and start studying at 4:45.ill sleep when im forced to and ill study while I willingly and physically can.