I'm a literal fucking mess

what if I was a sentient homesick alien who was older than anyone could ever comprehend and I got here by accident and all I want to do is go home and all I want to go is protect my friends and I do nothing but protect my friends and I get beat up because of it and I get split in half because of it but I can feel the way that everyone feels and I sent out a massive distress signal because I was scared for them and the whole time, the whole entire fucking time, EVERYONE THOUGHT I WAS A GODDAMN CAR

I was going through old diaries and my heart skipped a beat finding an entry from when I finished reading The Secret History for the first time: “I wonder if you've ever wandered through the house until first light, waiting for the impossible.” I literally waited for Henry Winter all night.

sometimes i feel ive got to

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run away

i probably won't be able to succinctly connect all the points and i'm sure it's been said before but there is just So Much biblical allegory in adam and ronan's relationship like. the way that ronan (though believing in his own god) Is a sort of god and cabeswaren is simultaneously the nothing he came from and the eden he creates. tangentially the whole parallel of genesis with the lynch brothers losing their father and their eventual becoming a family again (on the seventh day the lynch brothers discovered they were friends once more). adam being the first man, adam being his first kiss. adam always described as coming from dust, like he was the first of his kind. the way that adam never knew who he was until he found himself tangled up with cabeswaren and ronan, like coming into your own when you find the faith that works for you. adam's hands being cabeswaren's hands, which are also ronan's hands because they're cabeswaren's, this sort of father-son-holy spirit everything is everything and still they're all independent of one another. and even just the way that ronan, this god of creation, is obsessed with adam's hands, this common symbol for creation itself. the pivotal moment of adam losing the use of his left ear, which coincides with the instant he starts seeing ronan as someone who deeply cares for him (left commonly meaning temptation, right referring to righteousness). there is probably so much more i could add but i'm only a third through bllb on this reread and i have the whole dreamer trilogy to sort through god Help Me

does anyone wanna hold hands until we feel a little braver

the reblog map is all of us holding hands btw

Ava and Caspar are both absolute menaces when kidnapped I think they should be kidnapped together for extra damage

I loooooooove that "we run a diner" has become the tag line for every situation. is it ever applicable? no. does it ever clear anything up? also no. but is it technically correct enough to make me giggle each time? hell yeah