a little sacrifice

it's that simple sometimes and yet people still assume there has to be some big deeper thing. it's crazy. agreed, it's needed now more than ever really. and that's all you can ask for. even if you don't have the best day, there's still positives to take out of it and ways to improve the next day. you see some people stepping back from screens a little more these days which might be the key to bringing back that way of creating.

enjoyment is a perfectly good reason on its own, definitely. i really hope so too. i think we'd all be a bit kinder to ourselves and each other if we slowed down every now and then. and i love that way of looking at it, there's almost always something worth taking from a day, even if it didn't go the way you hoped. right, it feels like more people are starting to protect their attention instead of giving it away so freely, and maybe that's exactly what creativity has been missing.

got to be to keep you interested in me. it was so insane, i still don't think that it is real. the past year has just been so good to me in so many ways. i am so lucky. we are the cutest. how do you feel about a couple days in spain? i know it's not too far. milo is filming out here and we could run away to have a few girly days on the beach? it has been too long and i can't wait to squeeze you right back. the sooner it can happen, the better.

i could never not be interested in you, love. well, that's because you're a precious human being, and good things tend to happen to good people. i'd love to go to spain! i'm filming a movie with this spanish actress and i've already bragged about getting to learn some of the language. i know i'd only be a tourist, but i'd absolutely make an effort to chat to the locals, even if i completely butcher the pronunciation. where are you guys in spain? i'd love nothing more than girly days at the beach! wandering around little seaside towns, eating far too much good food. plus i'm going to love having you close for a change.

the best way to learn is through casual conversation, and i can't see a costar not being game for that and helping! i'd honestly rather look pale than get a fake tan, so i hear you. besides, the method of getting a real one is so much better anyway. literally just head outside, apply sunscreen, set up camp to read a book, and you're tan! even better if on a beach, though. it's definitely a good sign on familiarity with a place when you have complaints just like the regulars. are you sure, though? maybe seeing me laughing will bring you as much joy as it does seeing you wipe out. i just like being surprised, and it was worth keeping the set list from ourselves when the concert itself was amazing and i feel like i'm still buzzing from it. and i'm all for making it a tradition to head to a concert together, schedules allowing. though you have to choose the next artist. in case i didn't say it enough, thank you again for coming with since i've wanted to see nick cave live forever and finally got to. plus you didn't judge me too much for being emotional, which i appreciate. me, busy? no idea what you mean, i say i'm heading to vancouver soon to start filming. when do you start filming, if you haven't already? and yeah, it was nice filming in california and outside basically every day, so i do have a decent tan. i agree, so we have to plan another as a break from work, since we're turning it into a tradition!

you're probably right, and i suppose the best way to learn is by actually using it rather than sitting with an app for hours. duolingo, i'm looking at you. i'll pester her until i'm fluent in it. i'd honestly rather look pale than get a fake tan too, well, after the horrible tan that i got last year. give me a beach, a good book, some sunscreen and a few hours in the sun over standing in a spray tan booth any day. don't try and rewrite history, you laughing at me falling over is never going to qualify as encouragement! maybe i'd get a laugh out of seeing you crack up afterwards... once i'd recovered my dignity. and thank you for inviting me to the concert. seeing you finally get to watch nick cave after wanting to for so long made the whole evening even better, and how would i judge you for getting emotional? never, in the slightest. i actually thought it was rather lovely. we'll absolutely make it a tradition, and now the pressure's on me to pick the next artist. i've started filming too, but for a completely different project than the one i told you about before, so it looks like we're both going to be very busy bees for a while. at least you'll have your california tan to remember the sunshine by while you're off in vancouver, and when we both come up for air, another concert is definitely in order.

❛ I can believe we are filming Sidelined 3. This whole year has been amazing. I can't believe I got to be blessed with such an amazing cast alongside the handsome Noah Beck . ❜ @limelightblvdstarters

it's such a nice feeling getting to come back to a project you already know and love. i know the feeling all too well, stepping back onto a set where everyone already speaks the same language and you can just get on with having fun. simply amazing. congratulations on sidelined 3!

i was hoping that if i got in bed that early that my body would finally decide to shut down and let me go to sleep but noooo, of course not. i had the innate urge to start binge watching both seasons of Beef and reach a new level of a game on my phone. it is cruel! and i totally did wonder what the heck the point was of me getting into bed that early trying to be responsible and a good person so that i wasn't crabby in the morning failed me miserably. i think i survived that day on coffee alone. i'm also pretty sure that most people tiptoed around my feelings because i may have been a wee bit on the rude side a few times. it wasn't on purpose, i just hadn't slept worth a darn in a few days and it didn't seem to be getting better. i had a few days to myself this week so i got to get some decent sleep thank goodness. oh gosh, that is probably the most hilariously painful thing that i have envisioned in so long. i am trying my best to be sure that nobody besides me, myself and the people who run the ring company get the ability to see that video haha. exactly, that is one hundred percent what would happen in the matter of minutes, if it even took them that long! i am doing my very best but unless i cut off my own two feet and stop walking places in general then i don't see that happening any time soon. i'm just doomed to be a complete clumsy mess until further notice i'm afraid.

i'm exhausted just reading that. i don't blame you for surviving on coffee or for being a little grumpy either. a few nights without proper sleep is enough to make anyone feel like they're operating on about three brain cells. i'm just glad you've finally managed to catch up on some proper rest. hopefully your brain got the memo and decides to be a little kinder to you from now on. but let's not jump straight to amputating your feet, love. i was thinking something a little less drastic: bubble wrap, maybe? a personal stunt coordinator? one of those people whose sole job is to walk two steps ahead of you and point out potential hazards. i refuse to believe you're doomed forever.

are we not making you proud enough to show up to one of england's matches or do you simply not care about football at all? i'm not asking you to paint your face, learn all the chants and start arguing with strangers about tactics online. i'm just asking for one appearance, one match, 90 minutes of support.

listen, i would, but i'm filming in the uk. otherwise, i'd genuinely be there. trust me, i'd love nothing more than to spend ninety minutes shouting at a football match instead of learning lines. i'm very happy to support without having to paint my face or start debating formations with strangers, though. i know my limits. i was very proud of you lot for beating mexico, thank you very much. you can't accuse me of not keeping up!

what's your biggest pet peeve when it comes to others. like i know we all watch other when just doing our own thing. it's subconscious. like it could be something simple that you dislike but can ignore or something bigger that you wish stopped happening immediately. @freyaallcn

i'm usually pretty patient, so it takes a lot to genuinely annoy me, but one thing that gets me every time is when people are constantly interrupting others without even realising they're doing it. i don't think most people mean anything by it, but i always feel bad for the person who keeps getting talked over. i tend to be the one who'll stop and go, "no, no, what were you saying?" because i'd hate for someone to feel like their thoughts weren't worth hearing. on a much less noble note... people who leave one sip of water in the bottle and put it back in the fridge. either finish it or refill it. don't make me open the fridge just to be met with disappointment. what about you?

I deeply appreciate everyone loves to talk about the 'Summer I Turned Pretty' movie. And Im glad it's so popular, people are spotting every little chance we get to film reshoots.... great for the interest to keep going till it actually releases. But maybe I have been living in that world for so long and maybe Im too excited about what I shoot next but when are the Ripe! fans going to show up? Come on she goes to Spain to play soccer and falls in hate and then love for a fellow player over there. I know spicy. I learned everything I could about soccer before this one so I hope I impress on that front as well as being I think the sexiest piece of work I have done and that's saying something after 'Forbidden'. Just call me Lola the girl next door who just has a knack for making all your spicy dreams coming true on screen.

I'm afraid the Ripe! fans are about to become very loud, because you had me at Spain and somehow managed to make it even better with football and enemies to lovers. Ticking every box imaginable right there! You can always tell when someone throws themselves into a role instead of just faking their way through it. Wait, 'Lola, the girl next door who somehow keeps starring in everyone's spicy dreams' is a pretty convincing brand. You've clearly found your niche. Give me The Summer I Turned Pretty when I want to cry and Ripe! when I want to watch you fall in hate, then in love, while speaking Spanish (wait, do you speak it?) and kicking a football around. Sounds like a very good deal to me.

couldn't agree more. things have shifted so much these days and people want immediate results and to be perfect at it all right away. it's rare you get to just go with the flow and leave yourself up to the potential. i think you doing something that makes you happy and that you're proud of at the end of the day is all that really matters. but like you said, it's all a lost art. maybe there will be a shift in energy soon. i know we could definitely use it.

Exactly. Sometimes the point of doing something is simply that you enjoyed doing it, not that it turned into your next big achievement. I really hope we find our way back to that a little, because I think we'd all be a lot happier for it. I think you're right, if you finish the day feeling proud of what you've done or happier than when you started, that's a success in itself. Maybe there will be a shift eventually. I'd like to think people are slowly starting to crave that slower, more intentional way of creating again. It certainly feels like we could all use a bit more of it.

It is so incredibly easy to get caught up in the "What's next?" mindset, I have done it so many times. But seriously, give yourself massive credit here. You built something whole and beautiful, steeped in depth here. Definitely take that moment to stand on the peak and look at all you have done, you earned it! As for me? I have the little one keeping me up at 2:00 AM but there is not another human on this earth more worth it. She's freaking walking now and it's insane to remember little her and where she is right now. She will be in kindergarden before I know it. I’ve been doing a lot of visual storytelling work, for books we have bought the writes to, nothing really peaking me to make it a movie but we will see the more I play around with it.

Thank you, love! I'm already onto the next project now, so I don't spend as much time thinking about it anymore, but I had a good few months to really sit with everything and appreciate what we'd done before moving on. Ahh, your little one sounds absolutely adorable. They go from these tiny humans, enough to fit in your arms to running around, and before you can realise they will be arriving home from school telling you full stories about their day. I can already tell she's got you completely wrapped around her finger, and who could blame you? That sounds really exciting. I love that you're giving yourself the freedom to play around with those stories instead of forcing them into films before they're ready. You're getting to immerse yourself in all these different worlds, which sounds like a pretty lovely way to spend your time. I wouldn't be surprised if one of them suddenly clicked and you thought, "Right... this is the one."

it somehow wouldn't have shocked me since i couldn't blame you for wanting to forget. though it means a whole lot you're not holding a grudge, and clearly being a little easier on than i've been on myself. i feel a bit silly for going back and forth on reaching out as long as i did. i'm going to assume that's not an old man, you forget everything easily joke, though it's hilarious if it is. well, the one night i was scrolling through netflix, couldn't make a decision, pressed the random button, and what do you know, the witcher popped up. figured that was as much a sign as there could be. i'm glad i reached out. should i take a baby step and ask how life's been lately, what you've been up to?

It takes much more than some disappearing act for me to want to forget about someone. I was no longer sitting around replaying any of it in my head so it's good. It wasn't, but now that you've put it in my head, I'm annoyed I didn't think of it first… it really looks like I'm messing with your age. Of all the things Netflix could've thrown atyou, it picked the one show guaranteed to remind you of me. Either way I suppose I can't argue with the result. Life's been good, actually. I can't complain because I've had enough breathing room this past year. I've been in cast in two different projects as main lady, so I'm gonna be busy. What about you, though? How have you actually been? What's life looked like for you all this time, beside the superhero movie and all that.

that is all that i have been hoping for. and the fact it is coming from you? even better. i didn't believe it when they told me. still don't beleive it actually. pretty sure i blacked out for most of it. but i am sure there are videos of me ugly crying at it. you are? well now you got me out here blushing, i love us. you will always make the cut. and you will get the biggest squeeze. where in the world are you and i will make it happen.

Oh, you're adorable. This is definitely one of the reasons I think you're entitled to cry however you want. I'd probably have blacked out too. A moment like that doesn't really sink in until much later, if ever, and you should be ridiculously proud of it. Aren't we cute? You willing to squeeze me into your calendar at all is everything to me. I'm currently in London, but if you're somewhere else now, I can come to you. I don't particularly care where the reunion happens, I just know I'm owed this legendary squeeze you've been promising me, and I intend to collect. It's been far too long, and I miss your face.

it's scary so i don't blame you at all. i would never do so on my own terms but it's it's for my group, i'd do anything. it was nice. plus i'm always up for little vacations from work since i know we're gonna get super busy again. we did perform in new york which was a lot of fun. i always wanna be on vacation, haha. especially lately with how much the company has me doing. i'll be sure to. i never know when they'll decide to throw me out there to work my super hard again. crossing my fingers it doesn't happen for a bit and i can at least just do things with the group.

It's nice that you're willing to do anything when it's for your group, though! I don't blame you. If I got even a tiny break from ongoing work, I'd immediately start planning the next one. New York must've been so much fun, though! There's always something exciting about performing there, and I can see why you'd happily trade work for a permanent vacation if given the choice. I'm crossing my fingers for you too! Hopefully they leave you alone for a little while and let you enjoy just being with the group before they start throwing a hundred new things at you again. You deserve at least a brief period of peace before the chaos resumes.

I have been watching these videos on instagram of this guy that makes it easier to pronounce certain English sentences and the way he writes it out, it just makes you say it in an English accent immediately. They're so fun. I haven't seen that yet but now I'm going to because you got me all curious. Friends is very iconic so I get it. Tell me, have you ever used the "how you doin'?" line on anyone? Harry Potter is just something you think about when someone mentions England. It kind of did, yeah. How did you know? They would actually go for you? Not the food? For real? Now I'm not so sure if I want to visit the British coast. I don't want to get attacked by a seagull or pooped on for that matter. It's been pretty fun. Spain is such a beautiful country and I've visited the places we'll be filming at and it's so overwhelming. I will gladly be of service.

I need to see that. I can't say I've ever used it seriously. If I did, it was definitely as a joke. But I have caught myself using "We were on a break!" more times than I'd like to admit whenever I need to defend myself from something. The entire scene dialogue is etched to my brain. That's true. Whenever I tell someone I wore a school uniform growing up, the first question is always, "Wait, like a robe and tie?" Everything about England is Harry Potter-esque to other people's eyes. The food is their first choice, but if they decide you're standing between them and the food, you're fair game too. I've seen people attempting English accents morph into Hagrid before, that's how. I'm glad you're enjoying Spain. It sounds like a pretty brilliant place to be filming, plus nightlife there is really nice, have you went out yet?