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it is a big deal, Ella... i hurt you and your feelings matter so it's a big deal. well... if it makes it any better i was very drunk and it was not a planned marriage...in fact i don't really remember it at all. again you can start the conversation because you were hurt. Ollie-pop, i'm happy to see a nickname coming back. it is not an over step and i appreciate the thought, i have plenty of soup and i don't have the biggest appetite right now.

it really doesn't. i get that my feelings matter, i know they do, but they shouldn't matter that much. i think i was just throwing myself a bit of a pity party because it was just weird seeing you all happy, but it is nice at the same time. seeing you happy of course, not the pity party thing. i don't know, i guess i got a little jealous. of your happiness of all things. not that i didn't want you to be happy, because of course i did — of course i do! i'm rambling. sorry. long story short is that i am over it. i should've been over it a long time ago, not quite sure what got into me. i'm happy that you're happy. even if you don't remember the whole ordeal of getting married because you were right trashed. well, it is what i always used to call you. just because you were always so sweet. i really do hope you feel better soon. being sick is never fun, unless it's the kind of sick where people send you little gifts because they think you might not survive. wow, Ella, that was harsh, who says that?!.

maybe it's like some reverse psychology thing. you admit it to the world and then you subconsciously stop being clumsy in the future. you can just blame this instance on you being tired then. easy enough but nothing wrong with proofing your place so you don't end up having any future instances. plus it'll come in handy if you ever have yourself a drunken night out. wins all around.

ha! i only wish that it was like that! honestly. if i had a penny for every time i admitted i was clumsy — a penny, i would be a freaking zillionaire by now. and i'd still probably be clumsy. i wish i could blame it on just being tired but i am one of those people who trips over air and i religiously walk into countertops and the makeup team on set has a field day covering up bruises. it's a good thing that on Fallout i am in the wasteland and not every single bruise has to be covered but it still can come in handy when i do need them, gives them slightly less to do haha. i think i might need to just skip straight to wrapping myself in bubble pack so that when i bump into things, i just make a fun popping sound. and maybe i won't mess up my face anymore!

that type of thing happens to a lot more people than you might think. especially if you aren't paying attention to what you're doing or where you're going. i've run into sliding glass doors that i thought were open. once throw a football through a closed window that i also thought was open. glass was everywhere. it was not a good day for me or the window. things happen. we move on. are you alright, though? any bumps that you might need to have checked out?

oh good lord. you are a glutton for disaster, aren't you? i am just really clumsy a lot of the time honestly. so i don't think that anyone was really surprised that i decided suddenly that i could walk through doors. my last two braincells, however, might've been a little rattled. sounds like you've really got an arm on you though if you can throw a football through a glass door. i assume that you're speaking about an American football and not a football in the sense of what you would call soccer? i did have a goose egg on my forehead, like front and center. it took center stage of conversation when i showed up to work the next morning but the doctor says i'm fine besides having a little bit of embarrassment and my pride being a little bruised. other than that i think i'm alright. the two braincells might be a little peeved at me for that stunt but i think i'll survive. i appreciate the concern, that's sweet of you.

all the time. keeps life fun, doesn't it? maybe mine include less injuries but we've all got our stupid signature. be honest though - was that the first time that's happened to you or do you kiss the garage door every few weeks? on the plus side, at least you're not as short as you thought. that's got to be something.

i'm a whole lot more clumsy than i'd like to admit and yet here i am, admitting it to the world, the masses, the internet. was this the first time that i suddenly decided i could walk through doors? yes. i think my brain was just intent on falling into my bed instead of falling into the door which was not the idea. although i am thinking about adding some padding to the outside, around face and forehead height. just in case it happens again. it was definitely an eye opening experience to say the least. i wasn't sure if i was then ready for bed or wide awake.

oh, i have plenty of times. i try not to remember them but i will do so for you. also hope your head was okay after that hit. i can imagine the pain. i sprained my ankle once by running in the house to get to the microwave before it went off. i was like okay. that won't happen again. i learned my lesson. i was wrong. did the same thing a month later so i felt pretty dumb when i had to prop my leg up due to the same exact issue. haven't done it again since but i try not to remember me being dumb like that.

i gotta say i felt like i might've lost a few braincells but all in all i can still count to ten without thinking too hard about it so i feel like that's a win! i really think i was just looking forward to being in bed so much that i thought i could walk through doors. never have i ever been able to walk through doors and i'm not quite sure why i thought that but maybe i was just so darn tired. was the floor wet? or were you just re-living your super girl self and thinking that you could run faster than anyone else? do you now take slow, turtle-like steps to the microwave when it goes off?

how exciting! that's really cool i'm actually really excited to see it. i think that it is super awesome that they are bringing it back. it was one American show that i loved watching reruns of with my mom when i was younger. i can't say i feel like a princess all the time. but sometimes, in the right dress or when i'm reading the right book and i'm being sucked into it, then i feel like a princess. i have high hopes for it, if only because you're gonna get all of the people who loved the originals at bare minimum checking it out and giving it a try and a lot of newbies that have heard of Baywatch but not necessarily seen it who wanna know what all the hype their parents talked about was for. you have to be hopeful!

it's really bittersweet because fox just released a show just like baywatch and it was doing really well and then they had to cancel because they signed baywacth. you had to think at the end of the day what would surive. it's also very different too because you can't get away with half of the stuff they did back then to, so they had to really think and put it together gracefully. i have to amdit i feel like a superhero everytime i put on my red suit, so maybe we have the same energy. people love nostalgia, but you can do everything right an some people are still going to bring it down. i love that they brought ogs back right away. david who plays cody is the one who got this all rolling he said he wished it happened ten years ago so it would of been easier for the holf to come. i understand if he doesent, but i would just love to meet him.

wasn't that like that hi-surf show thing? i watched a little bit of it but it did seem really Baywatch-esq. i have to say that was the thought i had was that it was supposed to be the revival of Baywatch but for a different generation. that's true, i'm sure that the writers are going to have to rack their brains for some good story lines. i really do hope that it isn't all lovesick relationship dramas and things like that because, not that those shows aren't good for a little while but they do eventually get boring. it's almost like watching a soap opera but on late night television. nobody wants to watch their soaps at that time of night. i can imagine how you'd feel like a real superhero! i thought about picking up a cute red one piece for the summer just to see if i felt like one too. i find that is the theory about most things in life. you can't please everyone at the same time. that's so awesome! i hope that you do get to meet him! i'm sure he'll try to make an appearance.

it was super recent... like, Monday night kind of recent. again, not my finest moment. but i definitely did learn something from it. wait until the darn door is completely up before beginning your trudge to my bed. the bed isn't going anywhere and you simply cannot afford to whack your head again that hard on a door that has little give to it. next time i'm gonna have to hire someone to fix it. i also learned that i have a very hard head haha.

yeah, my ego is a little more bruised than my forehead i think.

i'm sure i'm not the first but i did feel like i was the most dumb, at least in that moment. i had a doctor look at my head, he said i was fine. that i might've had a few braincells shaken loose but i'm alright all things considered. that's always a good thing. i think the most embarrassing part of it all was having to explain to everyone what happened... over and over and over again.

putting aside that i feel a little bad for laughing, are you okay? tell me you walked away from that without any bruises or a potential concussion, please. i think my wirework on films can put any embarrassing moments to shame, since i always end up getting tangled up and needing help, or flipping whichever way that's definitely not the right way. can't even pretend it doesn't happen thanks to the cameras. though if it makes you feel better, i've lost count on how many times i've grazed or hit my head on anything for just being tall. walking into low hanging branches has to be more stupid than a garage door.

wish i could say that i didn't have any bruises but i did have quite the goose egg on my forehead that i had to explain to the makeup department and don't you worry about laughing because they spent a good while making me the butt of their jokes. this was on Monday so i have a feeling i'll be being made fun of for at least the next week. but it's not totally unusual, i am super clumsy so i have been known to trip over my own two feet. i shouldn't have been surprised but then again when a door whacks you in the forehead — or rather you whacked with your forehead, you tend to lose your knowledge of most things in the world haha. oh my gosh! highwire things are always a total pain so i can see how that could be a lot more difficult. not necessarily embarrassing, though, but more like it should be commonplace? i'm really not even all that tall. i'm only 165 centimeters tall. i can't see how walking into branches outranks walking into a garage door where all i had to do was have the patience to wait for it to fully open. instead of barreling into it like a raging bull in a China shop haha.

it was super recent... like, Monday night kind of recent. again, not my finest moment. but i definitely did learn something from it. wait until the darn door is completely up before beginning your trudge to my bed. the bed isn't going anywhere and you simply cannot afford to whack your head again that hard on a door that has little give to it. next time i'm gonna have to hire someone to fix it. i also learned that i have a very hard head haha.

i hate that, that has to be my excuse but it really is the only excuse i have besides the fact that i might just be a buffoon that walked head first into an inanimate object that, while it was moving, wasn't apparently moving fast enough for my liking. my bed was just beckoning to me and i didn't want to keep it waiting, honestly. then, when i got there i just kinda fell into it like i had just made a great gymnastic move and earned the right to fall out from a job well done. that, and i think i might've been a bit concussed. i did whack my head a little hard, something might've shaken loose up there haha. oh my! i would hope so! i think i'd also be concerned if it hadn't healed by now.

You know, those moments tend to get deleted from my memory pretty quickly. But you know when they come back? Those random sleepless nights when your brain decides to replay the director's cut of every embarrassing thing you've ever done. I'd say your garage door story isn't even that bad. If anything, it's the kind of thing that's hilarious five minutes later. I refuse to believe nobody else has done something that dumb, people walk into glass doors (me), wave back at people who weren't waving at them (me again), trip over absolutely nothing (probably me, as well), send texts to the wrong person (not me, 'cause I double-check everytime)... humanity is basically held together by moments we'd rather not remember. The only difference is that most of us are lucky enough not to have an audience when it happens.

i have never heard it described like that but you are absolutely right! that is the worst time for it to come back too! when you're already having a night of insomnia and you simply cannot get your eyes to close long enough to actually catch a few zzz's and then, just as you're about to fall asleep... BAM, that one awkward thing you did in a grade three class comes back with a vendetta against you as if you weren't already having a problem. tell that to the splitting headache that i woke up with the next morning and the, what i feel like was a not so small bump on my forehead that i had to not only explain to the makeup team but then had to have them laugh at me about it the entire time they were covering it up. i've walked into glass doors, i trip going up stairs, that whole tripping over nothing is like a whole part of my daily life and i am positive that everyone has waved at someone who they thought was waving at them but really was not. i just feel like nobody has ever down right walked head first into their own garage door! thank goodness i didn't have anyone around to see it because then i would've had to explain it to them, too! i'm just kinda glad to know that i'm not the only one because that one... made me feel like a total imbecile.

have you ever done something so stupid but you then have to stand there and just pretend like it never even happened? i know i can't be the only one. my major malfunction today? i was walking into my garage and... well, i hit my head on the still opening garage door. i wish i was lying and i wish this was an untrue story but this actually happened. i guess i'm not as short as i thought i was... or as smart. i honestly want someone to tell me that they've done something this dumb but i am pretty sure that nobody has ever done anything this stupid.

oh wow! that so doesn't sound like it was your fault! mine was completely and utterly my fault. i have to say that i feel like the glasses of wine that i had and my innate ability to have more than one thought at a time that had a lot to do with my whacking my noggin on the garage door. there was a pillow and extremely comfortable bedsheets that were calling my name like one of those steamy pies that you're not supposed to eat on the windowsill of a little old ladies home.

Ella...i'm really sorry that i hurt you like that. i really wish we could have talked this out sooner...i um i'm brain isn't really the sharpest right now, i have a really bad cold at the moment and my brain is all fuzzy... can we can we talk more about this when i'm feeling better? i want you to be okay and i don't want you to feel like i ran you over or i didn't care about you. I do, i did. just not in a relationship kind of way...fuck i don't know if that is better or worse. I have a high fever

it's really not that big of a deal. if i'm being honest i think just seeing that you got married brought up some feelings that i hadn't really thought about since i saw you last. i probably shouldn't have started this conversation like a total twat to being with. oh, Ollie-pop. no! of course. i had no idea that you were really that sick. i know this is gonna sound like a total over-step and like a total one eighty suggestion, and i'm sure you're being well taken care of. but, would you like for me to Door-Dash you some soup?

that is pretty darn close to my running straight into the garage door. i am not proud of that. but a few glasses of wine and a one track mind that was determined to get inside of my house might've had something to do with it. i do hope that you're shoulder has healed well!

the show takes place twenty three years after the hawaiian wedding, but the hawaiian seasons are not in the story, so it is a continution of the original show. which is weird because the movie was apart of the hawaiian era. it is important because it can get all the fans ready for janaury. nice to meet you ella, do you feel like princess sometimes? i would with the name ella. thank you, that means a lot. i miss both shows, i hope baywatch gets a long life like pretty little liars. it makes me sad they say we wont last a season.

how exciting! that's really cool i'm actually really excited to see it. i think that it is super awesome that they are bringing it back. it was one American show that i loved watching reruns of with my mom when i was younger. i can't say i feel like a princess all the time. but sometimes, in the right dress or when i'm reading the right book and i'm being sucked into it, then i feel like a princess. i have high hopes for it, if only because you're gonna get all of the people who loved the originals at bare minimum checking it out and giving it a try and a lot of newbies that have heard of Baywatch but not necessarily seen it who wanna know what all the hype their parents talked about was for. you have to be hopeful!