aren’t you tired of being nice?

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

i know i did a similar thing recently but my friends are having fun and i could truly still use the motivation/momentum so!!! tagged by lovelies @cheatghost @kkpwnall @monkleya @judasofsuburbia MWAH

rules: for every ask i get, i have to write 500 words, and i will share a 200 words snippet. this is required of me by law and if i don't complete it i will be sent to the gallows + the burning pit etc. send in a request for any of the WIPs below, you can do more than 1 but please no more than 2 <3

WIPs you can request snippets of:

ᯓ★ black cat!eddie diaz fic: in which eddie has felicia hardy-esque luck manipulation powers, a supreme guilt complex, and a healthy helping of on the nose repression metaphors. the fully-realized version of this post.

ᯓ★ maddieshannon fic: five times shannon finds a friend in maddie buckley +1 of something i haven't solidified! perhaps +nothing and it'll be six times who is to say but their tether is strong nevertheless

ᯓ★ runaways x mother's boy: sci-fi au sequel! buck's kidnapping/ dependency arc but twisted to fit the clone!buck lens of it all!

tagged by my beloveds @cheatghost @judasofsuburbia & @kkpwnall thank uuuu sm im so glad to see some tag wip games back!! unfortunately these are all star wars themed bc they compel me....sorry not sorry </3

rules: for every ask i get, i have to write 200-500 words, and i will share a 100 words snippet. this is required of me by law and if i don't complete it i will be sent to the gallows + the burning pit etc. send in a request for any of the WIPs below, you can do more than 1 but please no more than 2 <3

WIPs you can request snippets of:

ᯓ★ through your eyes chapter 2: kleya marki is adapting to echo base, and perhaps even making some unlikely friends. mon mothma, however, finds something she absolutely should not. (part 2 of a fic that was only supposed to be one big thing, and then somehow got away from me. oops.)

ᯓ★ from you the flowers grow: a hanahaki au. mon mothma's longing finally comes to back to bite her after having spent so much of her life ignoring it. everyone knows something is wrong with the senator, but how much longer can she hide it from everyone?

ᯓ★ untitled goddess au: a sort of fantasy au in which kleya marki is on the run and stumbles across the ruins of the goddess of truth. the goddess is intrigued by kleya, who is so bound by lies and secrecy, but she wants to help their cause nonetheless. also temple smut will ensue much later. that chapter is PLANNED trust and believe.

ᯓ★ untitled fwb au: a 6 + 1 multi-chapter, from the years of 5bby until 1bby/0aby, wherein mon mothma shows up at the gallery stressed and overwhelmed, and kleya marki makes her an offer she's not sure she can refuse... (also technically would be my very first smut fic lmfao. isn't that fun! and also a little nerve-wracking... oh well!)

tagged by my darlings @cheatghost and @judasofsuburbia loooove seeing wip games go around again! i've been in the [redacted] fic trenches (affectionate) but i'm craving writing something more canon-time period or modern era so!

rules: for every ask i get, i have to write 200-500 words, and i will share a 100 words snippet. this is required of me by law and if i don't complete it i will be sent to the gallows + the burning pit etc. send in a request for any of the WIPs below, you can do more than 1 but please no more than 2 <3

WIPs you can request snippets of:

ᯓ★ [grindr handyman] au: based on this post, this is just pwp i won't lie to y'all. this is an excuse to write smut. it's also been in my wips for literal years

ᯓ★ [hockey] au: minor league hockey player steve x small-town journalist eddie. so far this one's no plot just vibes. there is a plot hiding somewhere in there, but it refuses to be bullet pointed out, gotta write more before i find it

ᯓ★ [medieval times] au: eddie POV one shot, steve is a medieval times knight. this one is like. two sentences long atm (inspired by somewhat real events)

tagged by the ever lovely @cheatghost !! i'm gonna tweak your rules a lil bit, hope you don't mind<3

rules: for every ask i get, i have to write 300 words, and i will share a 100 words snippet. this is required of me by law and if i don't complete it i will be sent to the gallows + the burning pit etc. send in a request for any of the WIPs below, you can do more than 1 but please no more than 2 <3

WIPs you can request snippets of:

ᯓ★ untitled firstprince project hail mary au: scientist alex is determined to help astronaut henry have one really good last night on earth before the PHM mission but uh oh!! feelings ensue!!

ᯓ★ untitled vamp eddie au: based off the vampire lestat, kas! eddie (controlled by vecna) is a musician getting away with draining blood from fans as the finale of his concerts. steve shows up to one of his shows and ope!! does he snap him out of it!! who knows!!

ᯓ★ untitled firstprince college au: henry finds his arch nemesis alex drunk and helpless on the quad after being hazed by his fraternity and decides to rescue him!!

ᯓ★ another part of sweet pea apple of my eye series: alex, ellie, and henry go on a family vacation to texas and are confronted with how serious they're getting yay!!

tagging some friends with zero pressure and utmost love: @seths-rogens @incalamity @fragilecapric0rnn @kkpwnall @figthefruitfaeth

A tight, humorless grin crossed Poe’s face. “Someone on that ship called me the best pilot in the Resistance. I wouldn’t want to disappoint him. Don’t you worry. I’ll get us in position. Just stay sharp and follow my lead.”

✨️ PEDESTRIAN AFFIRMATIONS ✨️