When I was younger I used to be part of the “only-reads-complete-fics crowd” but as I’m getting older I’m realizing how powerful it can be to have consistent things to look forward to…

All the ppl in the tags laughing abt how fic updates aren’t consistent are cowards. I aim to be subbed to at least 365 fics. One for each day of the year. And that’s just my starting point. Your inbox? Empty. Barren. Fallow. Mine? Bountiful. Overflowing. A cornucopia of ripe treats awaiting my tender consumption. I wade through honey-rich excess while you starve of your own volition.

watching this show is absolutely hysterical because ava literally has 0 game and says shit like "like toy story?" when a hot woman tells her to her face she wants to fuck her and she gets it ANYWAY. truly a masterpiece. ava gives hope to all losers out there.

should i eat first or shower first *has phone in couch time for another 3 hours due to choice procrastination, a behavioral phenomenon observed in pigeons and rats as well*

i' m something of a pigeons and rats myself

thank you to weird girls for being online

every time i start to feel cringe for being too deep in the hyperfixation i remember the intense depression i have waded through and have to remind myself that enjoyment is fleeting (so grab it with both hands), and life is for loving (so hold that love close), and if anyone thinks i’m cringe they must not be having a very good time (and i hope they can find a good time soon).

God just the fact that Carol is a full grown independent adult who’s been an adult for decades with enough money to be completely independent from her homophobic family and who’s been in a relationship with a woman for at least over a decade if not longer and yet she’s just still SO fuckin TERRIFIED of coming out because she’s just so incredibly traumatized by her homophobic upbringing and her experience in that conversion camp. She has built an entire career on writing heterosexual books that she wanted to make sapphic but she was too afraid to, she lies about which man she is attracted to online when her fans ask cause it’s safer, she wears more feminine clothing at her book signings than she normally would in normal life so that no one will suspect that she’s gay and her agent is her wife. It’s just so sad. Can you imagine knowing you were gay when you were sixteen years old and then still being closeted in your fifties? Can you imagine how scared and traumatized you have to be of your own identity to remain closeted for that many decades? How trapped she must feel within her own identity? How she’s built a career that in her head rests on her continuing to be trapped within it never letting anyone know? It’s so sad. And I bet it was just so incredibly hard for Helen to watch Carol go through for so many years. How hard it would be to watch someone you love so much subject themselves to so much pain no matter how many times you try to tell them that they’re safe they’re not sixteen anymore it’s safe it’s okay and they’re too traumatized to hear you? And then at the end of all of this after decades of the incredible pain of being closeted for so many years….your wife the only person you could be your authentic self with. Dies in a pretty horrific manner right in front of you. And then the next day you’re informed that the entire world now knows you’re gay and knows how you were originally going to make your books gay before you got too scared and talked yourself out of it. Even sent you a woman who looked like a female version of the character you forced yourself to make male. So what was the point in the end? What was the point of subjecting yourself to so much pain for decades only for none of it to matter anymore in the span of 24 hours? Only for it to never matter again? What was the point?

tbh i love hear me outs but i also love the opposite of hear me outs where it’s like nearly everyone thinks they’re fuckable except you

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to put no effort into my appearance

a one season television show is also a dead wife if you think about it

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry