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❝ George, I love you but you could shut up and sometimes I want to poison you, and kiss you as the poison infiltrates your lungs right into my mouth. Anyways, have a fun election against a rapist and me, your ex-wife! Our voters have no decisions here since you fucked your opponent! ❞
A NOTE THAT PIQUES... I get why I made George & Hailey together and why Ben & I played the two of them. Those two deserve together and doesn't deserve each other, everyone corrupt in this.
DAY IN THE LIFE OF A ENGLISH TEACHER IN ABBOTT ELEMENTARY
001... THE THEATER PLAY
Theater. Sunday night. 7:43 PM.
❝ Every year, Abbott does a play. I don't know who started this tradition. I don't know who keeps approving it. But every year, like clockwork, I am pulled into it because and I quote... 'Mrs. Cruz, you're the English teacher, you know words.' As if words are my exclusive property. ❞
The Abbott Elementary auditorium is... Not a theater. If you're being generous. If you're being honest, it's a cafeteria with a stage bolted onto one end and curtains that smell like the 1990s. The chairs are folded and stacked against the wall. The lights are those harsh fluorescent ones that make everyone look like they died three days ago. Me and Ben are sitting cross-legged on the stage with a whiteboard behind us that reads:
PLAY IDEAS
Romeo & Juliet (too much kissing, Barbara will complain)
The Importance of Being Earnest (kids don't get Wilde)
Our Town (too depressing, Janine cried last year)
???
Ben is lying flat on his back staring at the ceiling like it owes him something. I'm sitting with my knees pulled up, a pen in my hand, and a coffee that has been cold since 6:00 PM that I keep sipping anyway out of spite. "So you're the English teacher, right?" Ben says, not moving, just talking to the ceiling and barely having eye contact with me. "You want Shakespeare. Wilde. Something with iambic pentameter. Something where kids wear ruffles." I leaned back on my hands, exhausted. My back cracked in three places. I ignored it. "Well, we could do something original..." I suggested, picking up the pen and clicking it. Ben lifted his head just enough to look at me like I said we should rob a bank. "We barely have ideas," he responded, dropping his head back down. And more. More exhaustion. More nothing. I stared at the whiteboard. The question marks stared back right at us.
❝ Here's the thing about my wife. She is objectively, factually, one of the smartest people I have ever met. She reads The Stranger for fun. But when she's tired? She gets this look. This thousand-yard stare. And right now? On that stage? She looked like a Civil War photograph. ❞
Theater. 7:51 PM.
"What about The Outsiders?" I suggested again. "Already a movie." he remarked "so?" I remarked back. "So then the kids will just compare it to the movie the whole time. 'Mrs. Cruz, this doesn't look like the movie.' 'Mr. Schwartz, Ponyboy doesn't sound like that.' I can't do it." Ben retorted. "What about Animal Farm?" I suggested, the room was filled with silence and he let out a sigh in exhaustion. "You want eleven-year-olds to dress as pigs and horses and do a revolution on stage!" he shouted in disbelief through the school's auditorium, "when you say it like that—" "No." I clicked the pen again. Click. Click. Click. "What if," I started, "we wrote something. Together. Based on... I don't know. Something they'd actually care about." Ben sat up slowly. That was dangerous. When Ben sat up slowly, it meant he was about to say something either very smart or very stupid, and the margin between those two things was razor-thin and I either cared about it or didn't. "Go on," he said.
❝ This is the part where I should have said 'never mind' and gone home to my separate bathroom. ❞
Theater. 8:02 PM.
"What do kids at Abbott actually talk about?" I asked, mostly to myself. "Gregory's hair," Ben immediately answered. "Besides that." "Whether the cafeteria pizza is real cheese." "Besides that, Ben." He thought about it, tapping his finger on the stage floor. "Being underestimated." he answered. I stopped clicking the pen. He continued. "They're kids in Philly. People look at Abbott and they see a title one school and they think―whatever. They think the kids here can't do stuff. Can't read well. Can't perform well. Can't―" "I know what they think," I said quietly, he looked at me fondly with a soft smile "So what if the play," I said, writing on the whiteboard now, "is about that. About being seen as less than you are. And proving everyone wrong." "that's a theme." he noticed and was proud of the development. I wrote:
ORIGINAL PLAY... KIDS WHO ARE SEEN BUT NOT YET HEARD
"Terrible title," Ben said.
"I know."
"Love it. I love you"
"I know"
❝ This is why we work. She gives it bones. I give it... you know. Pizzazz. Wocka wocka. ❞ He paused and points at the camera. ❝ I'm not doing the wocka wocka in the actual play. I have some restraint. ❞
Theater. 8:34 PM.
We spent the next thirty minutes outlining. Ben threw out structure doing acts, scenes, comedic beats, moments where the improv kids could actually improvise within the framework. I threw out language, monologues, and dialogue. It was messy. It was argumentative. At one point Ben said "that sentence is too long" and I said "that sentence is perfect" and he said "it has forty-seven words, Diane" and I said "forty-nine and every one of them is necessary."
By 9:00 PM, the whiteboard looked like a conspiracy theory.
ORIGINAL PLAY:
(Working Title: "LOUDER")
Act 1: The Setup - Kids in a school that doesn't listen
Act 2: The Fracture - They start fighting each other instead of the problem
Act 3: The Mic - They find their voice (literally and figuratively)
Improv moments: scattered throughout for theater kids
NO RUFFLES. NO PIGS. NO CIVIL WAR GHOSTS.
The two of us looked at the board in inspection. "This is either going to be really good or a disaster," he said. "Those aren't mutually exclusive at Abbott," I remarked. He laughed. I almost smiled. We packed up our things in silence because we were both too tired to speak and the fluorescent lights hummed like they were also tired of being here.
❝ We went home that night and I sat in my separate bathroom for forty-five minutes in complete silence. Ben made pasta. He makes good pasta. That's the only reason I stayed married to him after he called my forty-nine-word sentence 'too long. ❞ ❝ It was forty-nine words of precision, Ben. ❞
Theater. Monday morning. 7:15 AM.
I came in early to look at the whiteboard again before the kids arrived. The board was still there. LOUDER in big letters. Melissa walked past the theater door, coffee in hand, glanced in, and kept walking. Then she stopped. Backed up. "What's Louder?" she asked. "A play." "We're doin' a play?" "Every year." "Yeah, but what is it about?" "Kids who are underestimated." She looked at it and took a sip of coffee. "Good," she said. And walked away. That was the best review I got. I didn't need another one. I looked at the board and shrugged my shoulders with a soft smile upon my lips.
𓂃 𝓗ELLO? YOU'VE DIALED , PHANTOM BUSTERS DR HOTLINE
🉆 ㅤ “ TO UNDERSTAND IT, GUESS I'D HAVE TO BE A DEAD MAN ”
꩜ this post contains spoilers for phantoms busters , proceed with caution
I CAN HEAR A LONELY OPERATOR NIKO had moved to Aomori with her Aunt when she was young , but unfortunately , even as she grew, that feeling of being a new kid never faded. She felt the stares pricking at the back of her neck. Especially when she'd flinch or scream out of nowhere ( that particular conundrum caused her quite a lot of trouble ). She tried to fit in , honestly , though the effort felt more akin to shoving a square in a circular hole. Futile. So she stopped , stopped trying , stopped talking , stopped it all. She and her Aunt packed up , and settled down in Kanagawa instead. It was better this way. And eventually , it worked. She disappeared into the background. A fresh start and a new personality worked wonders.
ON THE PHONE! ON THE PHONE! ꕀ PHANTOM BUSTERS . . . ?
“ It's her! I'm taking a different route, guys... ” . . . “ Who are you talking about, Tamon? ”
𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗘𝗟𝗘𝗦𝗦 𝗚𝗛𝗢𝗦𝗧 𝗢𝗙 𝗥𝗬𝗨𝗢𝗛 ܓ 𝗞𝗔𝗠𝗔𝗞𝗨𝗥𝗔, 𝗝𝗔𝗣𝗔𝗡
Tamon avoided this girl a lot.
Average, unremarkable, ordinary ── those were just a few of the words that came to Tamon's mind when he thought about the faceless mobs present in the background of Kanzaki's favourite manga, at least that's what he had gathered. Nothing more than stand-ins and filler meant to support the storytelling, to supplement the empty spaces. Fodder at worst. Everything the protagonist wasn't. They took all the attention, saved the day, went beyond the measure and stood out everywhere they went.
Safe to say, this girl was the prior. She went out of her way to go unnoticed.
Dandelion-haired and blonde, moving around the halls as if she were unassuming. He only heard her speak on occasion, which was rare at all, considering she made a sharp turn in the other direction every time he crossed her path. Tamon had never heard her name; he could barely remember her face at all ( it probably didn't help that he'd never looked at it to begin with ); he almost convinced himself she was the wandering remnants of a student who'd passed. She was just so unnoteworthy. Though he could see her, and the other students of Ryuoh could definitely see her too. So that possibility was unfortunately scrapped. Besides his aversion towards people, there was another huge reason her didn't want to be near her.
She was a total ghost magnet.
Tamon was good at talking to ghosts; he'd like to think. Humans, on the other hand? Not so much. So there was no chance he'd ever question her about it. The rush of overlapping voices he heard when he happened to pass her by, all screaming and talking at the same time, laughing, whispering, singing on some occasions. It was overwhelming; he swore he could feel his eardrums splitting.
He was just going to leave it, honestly. Find a different route to class that wouldn't interfere with hers. It's not like he could talk to the ghosts while she was with them. But... still. That day he took a shortcut home and saw her crying on the side of the empty road.
Maybe he couldn't help on his own... though, his new club, they might have a shot at it.
Niko really and truly, deeply wished that she could turn invisible sometimes. Though it seemed the shooting stars outside her window were ignoring her request. All her requests. Particularly her request to be normal.
Just one day, where she didn't have to feel hands tugging on her, crawling on her skin, and weighing down on her. Was that too much to ask for? That's all Niko wanted. A day of peace.
... Especially now that a loud-mouthed boy was spying on her from across the school, nearly every day for a week straight. She, unfortunately, had a pretty good idea of why. She'd seen their posters, hung up on the exterior of a club room she'd thought was unoccupied. Her heart had nearly plummeted to the depths seeing the description.
She'd tried steering clear of them after that. She couldn't risk anyone knowing her predicament and ruining all her hard work. As long as she lay low for a while, it would be fine, right?
Apparently not. He was following her home this time.
She knew she was screwed as soon as that green haired boy had found her like that. Still, what right did it give these guys to become amateur stalkers?!
“ Please leave me alone! I'm not causing any trouble! ” ࿓ “ Hah? What are you talking about? ” ࿓ “ Your club... listen, just please don't tell anyone! ” ࿓ “ What?! Just listen, okay?! ” ࿓ “ ....... ” ࿓ “ You can feel them, can't you? ” ࿓ “ What's your point?.. ”
“ So! How do you like the idea of joining the Phantom Busters! ” . . . “ Uh ... not at all? ”
( ᜊт . - )ᜊ “ WE CAN WRITE THE CHAPTERS OF EXISTENCE ”
𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗦 𝟭 𝗙𝗢𝗥 ꩜ SHISHIKUNO ꕀ NIKO ꒱ Shishikuno. He was certainly a lot to handle at first, with his brashness and all of his other unique traits. Out of everyone, though, Niko's glad it was him who convinced her. It's nice to have someone who understands what it's like to touch ghosts all the time. Plus, she brings him snacks on occasion from her Aunt's bar, so his favor was won over quickly.
𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗦 𝟮 𝗙𝗢𝗥 ꩜ KOREKISHI ꕀ NIKO ꒱ Korekishi and Niko are definitely the most level-headed of the bunch, even if she still ends up being irresponsible. At the very least, Niko calls him Korekishi and not Koreshiki. And she takes his studying advice... even if she doesn't use it. He has an easier time understanding her, though, since her abilities aren't very useful. She tries not to show bias, but he was definitely her favorite when she first joined.
𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗦 𝟯 𝗙𝗢𝗥 ꩜ KANZAKI ꕀ NIKO ꒱ Kanzaki and Niko didn't really talk at first, Niko being unused to socializing and Kanzaki being the same way. Though they both pretty quickly learned that when it came down to interests, they had more in common. Just don't ask them about it; you might rope yourself into listening to a multi-hour impassioned rant about their passions. Being a nerd crosses all barriers, somehow.
𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗦 𝟰 𝗙𝗢𝗥 ꩜ TAMON ꕀ NIKO ꒱ Tamon gets on well with her, even though it took him a while to look her in the eyes. Niko finds talking to him easy; still, sometimes she hopes that his... zeal for girls and women would tone down. Otherwise, they can always count on each other to lend a listening ear. He enjoys introducing her to music too, since she'd only really listened to game ost's prior and was interested in expanding her taste.
𝗻𝗶𝗸𝗼 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝘆𝗽𝗲 𝘁𝗼
σ( 、。)ྀིഒ fold all her gum wrappers into paper hearts 𖦹 love magikarp to death and own all its merch 𖦹 write reminders for absolutely everything 𖦹 take melatonin despite already sleeping a lot 𖦹 have stickers on everything she owns 𖦹 listen to phone-in shows when she's bored 𖦹 try and beat the highscore on every arcade machine 𖦹 run a million fan blogs 𖦹 keep candy in her pockets 𖦹 code games as a hobby 𖦹 and apparently make friends with every stray cat she sees
ib & cedits :: the amazing @/ohsxxnta for the corkboard
LIVE, SEASON FINALE... SHOT ON POLAROID, YOUR HOST WITH THE MOST & PROSE ACROSS THE UNIVERSE WITHIN THE RAINBOW CONNECTION
A natural brunette writer with hair that reflects black in some far distance, she reminds herself that's she's like lucy van pelt. But, where's her schroeder? Oh he's right there. She's quite a comedian with gratuitous love of some puppets or muppets. A cinephile and improviser in many ways, all throughout the days she wears glasses like she's reading some comic books. You're a good woman, dany.
A NOTE THAT PIQUES... Two (or three) Peanuts references in one post especially the last one. I was too lazy for some gradient text, go primary colors! Also, that hair thing in the beginning is true and I don't know why. That's all, folks!
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AN INTERVIEW WITH MAHI... ALSO KNOWN AS @yuzuj3lly
A long time ago, this little talk show bit was just me talking by myself but I ranted so hard, and shockingly I actually did some hard-earned journalism than some old gossip. So, the interview thing basically won cause I had enough of waiting so anonymous voters, you won... And wait a minute who's on the line?
CALLING MAHI... ❝ DANYY you mentioned before that you wanted to interview people PLEASE INTERVIEW ME. i promise im interesting 🥺🥺 ❞ and they were interesting. Introducing our guest for tonight... Mahi!! Also known as user @yuzuj3lly.
First... How did you get into shifting and why?
Funnily enough, not through shifttok! one of my irl friends was a shifter and described to me how she shifted to danganronpa. i grew up hindu (not practising anymore, i converted to a different religion) and so i was pretty open to spiritual stuff like that. she told me about the pillow method and i decided to try out. not even because i wanted to see my comfort characters, but yk, just to see if i could. it didn't work, but i googled shifting and discovered the raven method, and i ended up shifting with it!
What kind of reality did you shift to? If you remember it.
Years ago now, but it was percy jackson. i had no script, so it was an...experience. i was a child of hades, half-sibling to nico, and a side character in the first few jackson books. i remember really disliking annabeth for some reason, and also having beef with the apollo and aphrodite cabin. i really just hated everybody, huh? but it was very fun until things started getting real, which is when i shifted back. i remember being very disoriented, confused and frightened and thinking it was a dream at first until i started getting scared at loud noises and what-not. that's when i realised it was definitely real.
And growing up spiritual, how did it connect to your shifting life and how it helped?
I was a born hindu, and honestly i do have some religious trauma with it. i heavily disagree with the religion of hinduism and the way it is practiced. HOWEVER, the spirituality i learned from a young age definitely influenced me in the sense that i learned how important my inner self was. my parents really emphasised knowledge and calmness. i grew up meditating, praying, doing poojas, participating in rites. my grandmother is a hardcore hindu and she always used to say to me "if you pray to the gods and just let yourself go, you will get what you desire."
of course, i disagree with a lot of that doctrine now, but what she said really stuck with me. in a way, i think i was practicing LOA without even realising it. i was always disciplining my thoughts, reminding myself to stay positive and correcting negative self-talk because respecting yourself was respecting the gods, and the gods gave you boons if you respected and devoted yourself to them (e.g. ravana and shiva, a commonly taught story of hinduism about how the warlord ravana recieved protection from the god shiva due to his devotion to shiva)
Now to the fun ones... One dr I was intrigued with was your 60s cuba dr, and you said you're a journalist. How do you handle the revolution and the history unfolding in your eyes?
YESS I GET TO RANT ABOUT 60s CUBA!!! So i am a dweeb, and a marxist dweeb to be specific, so when i am in the midst of that revolution, i have to admit i'm very excited. as a marxist we often emphasise "praxis" or putting into practice the theory we learn, and for me the cuban revolution which heavily emphasised social work for the peasant class is an excellent historical example of that. i want to interrogate the revolution and sort of examine the social conditions that surrounded the revolution, and how the M-26-7 guerrillas worked within the historical moment they were in to create such a successful movement. jon lee anderson in "che guevara: a life" also talks about how many guerillas were poor and downtrodden, and how che himself emphasised literacy and theory in his works. so obviously you have this blend of praxis and theory, and seeing it visibly come into action and how it mobilised the peasant class, who worshipped castro (as described in JLA's book and further in castro a biography) and encouraged uprising. fascinating stuff...and of course documenting it and analysing it as it happened is just brilliant.
Fame dr. I heard you're in the Bollywood film Industry and it's crazy from what I heard. How do you handle controversy especially in one that's harsh?
Well part of it is scripting, like most people. but the other thing is that you sort of have to learn that no matter what you do, people are going to hate you. and i'd rather be known as the person i am— a socialist feminist who speaks their mind— rather than a persona i put up. personas are exhausting, and i already put up enough of them in this reality. we shift to let go, correct? it's part of the process; letting go of doubts, frustrations, negative assumptions. if someone hates me for me, so be it! and if there is a campaign, boycott, whatever against me, i'll accept it, because that boycott is for who i am.
That's not to say it isn't exhausting. but it's also liberating, if it makes sense. because when you stop caring, that's when you can be true to yourself, and create better art too while you're at it.
Love the advice, I think me and you in my main fame dr have some similarities. We're both of colors and you're mayali to the hindi-speaking industry. I'm trying to word this better, as a socialist feminist that even the government stepped out saying like "Hey, English is the language and not hindi?"... Like the same question, handling the press hell even censorship. How often do you handle the industry's censorship that tends to be oppressive even when it's scripted out?
Hmm... Political censorship is a problem in the sense of getting a film distributed. in the indian market, its not as hard, as the censor is way looser and there is more of a "liberal" film culture so to speak. this is the india of "pyaasa," or "mother india," or "mera naam joker," after all. social commentary is very accepted in film, and kissing and what-not is slowly becoming more normal, even if uncles and aunties still gasp when a hero and heroine hold hands.
The press can be cruel, yes but typically that doesn't always correlate to audience or critics. which is the big thing for me; i know for other actors and creatives that's not the case. for example, my friend darshana is very sensitive and tends to get upset at cruel comments from the press.
Overseas its not always the same. indian cinema is pretty easily distributed in the soviet union, not super edited with only a few scenes cut out here and there. my film "what's up tomcat" was pretty big there. china is a different story; indian films don't do very well there as they prefer far more traditional socialist narratives about proletarian struggle versus the more modern narratives we produce. censors are also way stricter.
Now, once we go to america, it is almost impossible. barely anyone knows me there and for good reason; a whole market is basically chopped up for us. the films are censored to hell and back. its very frustrating as a filmmaker and actor, because its like, what the fuck? i put my blood, sweat, and tears into this film only to have it cut out because american audiences cant handle a philosophical monologue or something?? the same happened to once upon a time in america, and it just frustrates me. indian market has its problems especially when it comes to adivasi representation but it is nothing compared to the shit there.
The american press is also uniquely cruel and racist. indian press spread rumors like crazy, which is our main complaint, but american journalists will insult you to your face and play dumb when you call them out on it. ugh. i get annoyed just thinking about it. Political documentaries also just straight up don't show outside of india, and even that's an uphill battle.
Overall, i'd say censorship is bad. not the worst, but not an ideal situation as a filmmaker either.
Quick drabble... That I will ask the same thing to any guest of mine.
1. Fav drs of yours whether it's main or not?
2. Any sweet memories in any drs of yours?
3. Favorite thing(s) about your s/o?
4. And lastly... What's your motivation to shift?
RIGHT FROM THE LINE...
1. ughhh you're asking some hard questions. my bollywood dr has a sentimentality attached to it so i'd probably have to say it.
2. my favourite sweet memory is probably in my fashion designer dr, when i was having a panic attack in pattern-cutting class and a random girl just starts to help me...she ended up becoming my business partner!
3. just how brutally honest he is. he will say everything he thinks with a straight face and his full chest. it never fails to awe me and make me fall in love a little a bit more.
4. honestly i just think i was supposed to. i'm one of those people that think everything has a purpose. i would've never discovered shifting if i wasn't supposed to do it; it's a gift! i'm so grateful, every single day, that i have the knowledge i do about it, because now my options are truly limitless.
@shiftblrteas you are a mouth piece to spread hate && a plague spreading on shiftblr that cause users to leave. i’ve seen some of my moots being hated on for no apparent reason by your anons && i’ve already replied to one of your posts in which a anon calls my friend @vanillebirkin // helene “desperate for moots” and said it’s “hard to watch” which is such a nothing burger complaint my goddddd !!!!! just say you’re jealous that she actually tries to make friends in the community and not go to a fucking “tea” page to complain. next time man up and say it in her inbox without anon. i promise you if shiftblrteas didn’t exist then your ass wouldn’t have even made the anonymous comment. plus helene actually gives advice to people on shiftblr willingly, she does something positive, idk about you tho anon, all you do is bitch from what i can tell.
back to the tea page tho; you claim that you do not allow bigotry and kluklutzklan members on your asks but you literally called someone the “princess of a ice detention centre” …you are no better than the people in your ask box. you enable these people to have a place to openly be toxic which causes a further divide in the community.
you also allow anti black rhetoric by your anons which is so stupid as black people already have a lot to deal with in life and other communities online. i seen you call another black user sister on here but you’re not anyone’s “sister” you’re like uncle ruckus, a stain on the black community just so you can seek just the smallest amount of validation which you’re never gonna get. bc guess what? them niggas are never gonna chose you, they only like you because you allow them to say whatever they want. && just like ruckus’ bitch ass you are also a damn joke and would most likely never be taken seriously by anyone. and if you aren’t black, stop calling black people on here sister, we are not your sister.
i also wanna call out some weirdo in your likes under the ice detention comment you made. @sweetshifter // elara you are a bitch too. you are literally transphobic yet call yourself sweet? you are anything but sweet if you cannot be kind to people who have don’t nothing to you. prime example is your ethel cain post where you misgender her and disrespect her by calling her a man && not oppressed — as if trans people are not targeted for assault and have laws in the united states being pushed against them. now before you jump me for defending ethel cain, i do not support anything she’s done, i think it’s disgusting to support incest & be racist (that’s why i’m making this post is because of the racism i am noticing in shiftblr). you should be able to critique someone with invalidating their gender identity. it is not that hard to do.
elara, you were banned on two different accounts before, i’m guessing it’s because of the harmful rhetoric you repost and spew on your account. that should be a hint that what you are doing is wrong and stupid. if you care about women (since you are a feminist) then you should care about ALL women, as trans women are still women.
when I pictured charlie's house, i never pictured another person living there.
even though i knew he had remarried years after mom left. briefly. same with my mother, they had gotten a child out of it: genevieve magdaline swan.
or just gwen. in that way we are alike, why couldn't our parents be more simple, bella and gwen are simple. isabella, genevieve, complicated names for complicated people.
charlie always existed alone, his tiny house on the end of the street had been built for exactly one person, enough room for his tiny monotonous dreams. i should've known better.
charlie got custody when gwen was little, she'd been in forks ever since. between the phoenix birthdays and christmas phone calls, and summers that never seemed to last long enough, she'd grown into a person i barely knew.
which made me feel guiltier than i'd like to admit.
when charlie opened the front door, she was standing behind him with her shoulder leaning lazily against the hallway wall. her clothes more modern and colourful compared to my own, for a second i didn't recognise her.
it wasn't fair. that was the first coherent thought I managed to scrounge up. forks had somehow manage to birth a person who looked like she belonged anywhere but forks.
she was gorgeous. the gloomy surroundings that was forks didn't do her cooper skin any justice..it was effortless the way she looked; in a sort of irritating way.
she was tall, maybe a little taller than charlie depending on the shoes she wore. her standing beside me made my posture look sloppy.
forks had a way of draining color out of everything, the mountains, the roads, the people.
not genevieve...or gwen, which she reiterated to me several times.
against all the grey, she looked warmer.
brighter.
her curls framed her face in every direction, thick, and soft looking. charlie once joked that her hair fought against the forks' humidity and it surrounded years ago.
her face was...
annoying.
i couldn't decide what bothered me more
then she looked at me, the resemblance caught me off guard:
we had the same eyes. the exact same dark brown, almost black until the light hit them. the same slight tilt of her head looked familiar. the same thoughtful expression whenever we were trying to figure someone out.
it was strange,
like charlie's face had split between us and rearranged and rebuilt differently
at first glance, i doubt anyone would guess we were sisters
at second glance, they probably wouldn't question it
"the swan face," whispered charlie only loud enough for both me to question. gwen continued to smile at me, almost beckoning for me to come in..sly like a fox, yet it felt slightly comforting. for her, better a fox than a swan..it seemed like swan's were cursed.
𓏼 entry 012 ▬▬▬ bella swan ,, circa 2007
i'd expected it to be awkward forever
maybe not forever, exactly but long enough that every conversation would feel forced
it started with books. i had been looking for a book that went missing from my bookcase for a while now, found it lying on the coffee table folded open with a sticky note poking out of the top
sorry. i borrowed it
no signature
there didn't need to be one
when she got home from practice (yes, athletic..crazy she didn't get the clumsy gene), I asked if she'd liked it
she shrugged,
"it was okay..it was no greys anatomy"
i stared at her
"okay?"
she smiled, just enough to tell me she was teasing.
"i cried for like...twenty minutes..why do you read so many tragedies, bells?"
that made me laugh..she hadn't called me 'bells' since i don't know...forever
the next week she left another book on my bed
no note this time
just the book
it became our system.
neither of us asked first, we simply stole books from each other and pretended we hadn't
charlie eventually gave up trying to remember whose was whose
we ignored him.
she was easier to be around than almost anyone i'd ever known
there wasn't any pressure to keep a conversation going
it felt...comfortable
it felt like home
without trying very hard, gwen stopped feeling like this girl my dad found on the doorstep and decided to keep one day
this is not an shifting related post but this also goes out to that chopped ass loser shiftblr tea account, BUT anyone who decides that it is OKAY to platform hate to users of the community i absolutely WISH YOU THE FUCKING WORST. how you would be okay with creating an account meant to spill tea and then u PLATFORM literally anonymous ugly ass users who have a reason to hide behind the send anonymous button because i bet you my bottom dollar they look like a product of incest and SEND HATE to people you don’t even fucking know ON THIS APP. ARE YOU CRAZY??????? ARE U DEMENTED. last time i checked idgaf about what other people are doing, idc and i genuinely mind my business but this account and the users sending “asks” actually piss me the fuck off because how UNEMPLOYED ARE YOU? or better yet you’re probably still failing school, this is giving childish loser behavior and i genuinely hope you never shift.
i also reported that fuck ass account— they probably dont get enough attention at home so tumblr can give them as much attention as they need 😙
didn't think it would require second post but... what is actually wrong with @shiftblrteas ??? as i said previously, the problem with this account is mostly that it gives platform for cyberbullying and hate speech. it's evil itself, but after my post and me spamming comments on her answered asks she went feral. now, it's just straight hate.
it promotes hate for other shifters, more popular blogs, but mostly for @withluvvenus , @99oscarss , @laylasverse and @noahblr . those poor souls didn't do anything wrong. they just simply post consistently and make their blogs aesthetic what gives them recognition and engagement.
what i also noticed, alongside with @miiholic , that it started exploding more after venus and élise posted about their discord server situation with other blogs here. i personally am not involved in this, haven't been a part of the server, all i know is from now public information. and ironically, only posts praising other shifters are about people from the other side of that drama. i won't say anything out loud but the conclusion is obvious, you can deduct it yourself.
also the shiftblrteas claims she's not holding anyone 'in check' in one of her recent posts. funny, i thought your intro said differently? that people need a space to vent frustrations over huge creators? that you need to hold us in check? make up your mind, you're a fucking hypocrite.
repeating myself: huge creator's so called entitlement is simply made up by bitter people and their view on us. we are not putting ourselves ahead of anyone, it's them doing that. i'm genuinely asking, when have i ever made myself look superior because of my following amount? because from what i'm seeing, i always reply to asks if i have ones, i always reply to every comment, every dm asking for advice or just simply trying to interact with me. in my shifting methods related content i always try to make the point that i'm the same as everyone else on shiftblr. that i'm not better than them because i'm more experienced. i openly voice that i have doubts while manifesting. does that scream entitlement?
the fake shifting thing, don't get me started. not gonna repeat what i said in my last post on the subject but i manifested more things that i can count (loa/manifesting = shifting to a parallel reality with manifested change), including weight loss, text from someone that i had no contact with and getting into my dream uni (i gave you literal proof for that). sorry, that i don't post proof every single time. i simply can divide my personal life and my blog AND i value my privacy that i'm fearing if i started posting other stuff would be endangered.
@shiftblrteas your blog is a place for hatered. i went on other confessions blog and i didn't see them posting this type of shit. you also agree with monsterous opinions such as: reducing noah to a 'fruity twink' that was used in context of hate speech, posting ask about questioning his 'real' gender, which newsflash, he don't owe an explanation for; you agree that you don't care if someone shifts for an incest (which is self explanatory why it's wrong); self diagnosed @99oscarss with victim complex. this is simply cyberbullying you promote and do. and as i also mentioned, nhi (national health institute) states in their research that suicide rates are from 2 to 4 times higher out of cause of cyberbullying thank from other causes. you're adding to the problem.
you avoid taking accountability and reply to asks that don't put you in position where you need to explain yourself. i myself sent two asks asking when will you take that accountability, as well as layla did something similar, but you decided to ignore that giving shit arguments why you did that.
we're not fighting with you because it makes us look bad, we're fighting with you because you are evil being and give platform for such beings. my first post regarding you had 50 likes last time i checked and it's more than all of your posts combined. stop embarrassing yourself. also comparing leftist women and men fighting with conservatives takes you have is the same as right winged men but shifting? be so fucking frrr.
p. s. i'll post rest of the screenshots in reposts because i can't fit all of that in one posts, i'm on mobile rn and i'll advise you to look at it 'cause it'll make more sense and won't make me look like a schizophrenic without proof (i'm not the anons throwing false accusations after all).
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let me say it out loud: @shiftblrteas is one of the most harmful blogs out here on shiftblr. while majority of users are out there to seek advice, seek motivation and simply have fun, that account brings the division in the community and unnecessary dramas, giving space for harmful, wrong opinions.
the thing that screams to me when i look at the new blog, as well as it did on the previous one, is jelousy towards more popular blogs out there. i'm not a cunt and won't hide behind anon, also i don't have a problem with writing this on my main and maybe suffer consequences.
it screams bitterness for not achieving anything positive on your account. also, is seeking popularity on shiftblr something wrong? NO. i don't see y'all hating on people with influencer realities, so what's your problem when some of us live that life in this one? i'm not calling anyone, especially myself, an influencer, but you get the idea: some of blogs have more followers and engagement than others and it's okay! and guess what? it's simply nice and enjoyable when people like interact positively with you, but what would you know about that...
and the moodboard part? are you fucking serious? you're not superior over people because you don't post reality content. you're not some kind of lawmaker, saying what we can't and cannot post. making moodboards ISN'T treating shifting as fandom. it's simply having fun and sharing your experiences in other realities. some people use this as a scripting method, some just want to have this type of content. like, what's wrong with that? shiftblr isn't lacking advice, we already have most of the information we need there. simultaneously, i'm not saying that posting advice/information is stupid, i do this myself and i would be very hypocritical if i suddenly started condemning it, but guess what? everyone can post whatever they want and it doesn't make them fake shifters!!!!
don't get me started on the superiority part... JUST. BECAUSE. WE. WANT. TO. SHARE. OUR. EXPERCENCE. OR. OBSERVATION. DOESN'T. MEAN. WE. CONSIDER. OURSELVES. SUPERIOR. it's others that see bigger blogs that way. first you shit talk about people not posting shifting stuff and when people do, you hate them for it? you bully them because of that? it's fucking insane and your actions on that account are pathetic. you shouldn't even consider giving that kind of people platform.
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⭒ ׁ ᛝ alys' nepo baby dr (aka 2nd fs dr x slam dunk)
ㅤㅤin the nba, one of the saddest years for them was 2007, sebastián giacobone announced his temporary retirement from league in order to return to his home country. two years later, 2009, it was leaked that he had gotten married in 2007 to the two times oscar winner actress, victoria carreño, who's two-years absence from cinema had made some eyebrows rise.
ㅤㅤlater, in 2013, both of them had returned to the us and resumed their normal activities, to the relief of the basketball and acting worlds. the return of sebastián brought nothing but happiness, crowning the spurs winners of the 13-14 season, but, what brought confusion to the fanbase was the child who was attaching to the mvp's leg; turns out vicky and sebas had become parents without letting anyone but their families and friends now. the next time the public that kid again, now in late 2022, she was making her debut as an international junior figure skater, with the iconic program, " pride and prejudice ", which got her the first junior world champion title in her career (she won three, consecutive...)
ㅤㅤ" YOUR PARENTS HAVE A WHOLE WIKI PAGE !? "ㅤ" YOU'VE GOT ONE TOO !? "
sebastián giacobone (april, 1980)
ㅤㅤ is a venezuelan former basketball player, he played 15 season in the nba between 1998 and 2017, winning four nba championships with the san antonio spurs. he played as shooting guard for both the chicago bulls (1998) and san antonio spurs (1999-2007; 2013-2017).
victoria carreño (february, 1982)
ㅤㅤis a venezuelan actress and director, better known for her starring roles in el país de las mujeres (1998), pride and prejudice (2005), the devil wears prada (2006), and the bear (2022). during her career, she has won 6 emmys, 3 oscars and 12 tonys. she directed the movie valentine girl (2016) and birth (2020) which got her the first oscar as a director.
alysanne giacobone (june, 2009)
ㅤㅤis a venezuelan figure skater known for being an all-rounder and one of the few skaters to land a 3-3-3 jump combination. she is the 2024 youth olympic champion, three-time junior world champion (2023, 2024, 2025), two-time grand prix final champion (2023-24, 2024-25) and a five-time ISU grand prix gold medalist.
❤︎ ˚̣̣̣ mitsui " mitchi " hisashi started his exchanging program during his last year of high school; his school, shohoku had won the nationals that year and the nba offered seven different contracts for the stars of the season (five for the main team of shohoku, two for a substitute and one for a standout player from another school.)
two days after their arrival to texas, they visited the spurs facility for the first time. mitsui gathered his courage (with the support of ryota and hanamichi) asked a girl for her ig. two hours later he realized he had flirted with the daughter of one of his favorite players.
ㅤㅤ ೯⠀⁺ alys says ! ; PLEASEEEEE GO WATCH (or read, I recommend both) slam dunk if you like sport animes is so good and funny omg. also, can y'all tell I'm specially excited abt this dr ??? I love sd sooo freaking much!!!! uuuugh.
i promise i’m not trying to start anything, but why is subtle racism suddenly getting popular in the shiftblr community ?? saying poc, specifically black people, don’t have voices in any context is so horrible omg 😭 just because we can shift to anywhere we want as whatever race we want, doesn’t mean you have to say it so disgustingly to the point it sounds borderline racist.
in this reality, people are still racist and racism will unfortunately probably still exist for a lot longer. people of color in this reality are still people of color. just because we can shift to different realities, doesn’t change the fact that in this reality, our race is still apart of our identity which can (and does) unfortunately shape many aspects of our lives.
this post isn’t meant to call anybody out in specific, but i literally have seen too many posts and anon asks about that, so i just want to state that i’m not comfortable with people who believe this specific ideology about race changing following or interacting with me.
i’m not too sure about race changing as a whole, but i think i’m leaning negatively towards it. just because i don’t think it’s necessarily right, doesn’t effect your view or beliefs about it. i’m trying not to sound too limiting at all, so i’m really sorry if it came off that way !! i’m primarily posting this to state my boundaries, so please respect them 🥹🫶