lonely cripple

thinking about the scene in Buffy the Vampire Slayer where Angel is sleeping next to Buffy, then he wakes up, gets dressed, runs outside the house, then yells Buffy's name to the sky

I feel like we don't talk enough about how Spike didn't kill Cecily. Think about it. She, very harshly, rejected and insulted him. Then he became a vampire. A vampire so vicious that he became famous. And yet his first move wasn't to murder the woman who dismissed him like his existence was meaningless. It was to go turn his sick mother into a vampire so she could live forever with him. He loved his mother so deeply that it lingered even after he lost his human soul. I believe the same can be said of his feelings for Cecily, despite her rejection. I mean, he wrote poetry for her. That requires some pretty intense emotions. He could've gone and gotten revenge with his hot new girlfriend, who I am certain would have relished watching him violently kill the woman who caused the tears he was shedding when she met him. You could argue that it was because he fell in love with Drusilla and no longer cared about Cecily. And, if that's the case, it means that he loved her so powerfully that it completely erased his emotions about Cecily, even the negative ones. But I don't think that's it. I think the love he had for Cecily was so powerful that despite her rejection, and like with his mother, it lingered even when he became a vampire.

I feel like we don't talk enough about how Spike didn't kill Cecily. Think about it. She, very harshly, rejected and insulted him. Then he became a vampire. A vampire so vicious that he became famous. And yet his first move wasn't to murder the woman who dismissed him like his existence was meaningless. It was to go turn his sick mother into a vampire so she could live forever with him. He loved his mother so deeply that it lingered even after he lost his human soul. I believe the same can be said of his feelings for Cecily, despite her rejection. I mean, he wrote poetry for her. That requires some pretty intense emotions. He could've gone and gotten revenge with his hot new girlfriend, who I am certain would have relished watching him violently kill the woman who caused the tears he was shedding when she met him. You could argue that it was because he fell in love with Drusilla and no longer cared about Cecily. And, if that's the case, it means that he loved her so powerfully that it completely erased his emotions about Cecily, even the negative ones. But I don't think that's it. I think the love he had for Cecily was so powerful that despite her rejection, and like with his mother, it lingered even when he became a vampire.

no! "sapphic yearning" will kill the patient