it is better to burn than to fade away

hello i am looking for the ME/CFS community if there is one. i was recently diagnosed and it sucks so bad i really want community especially since i can't leave my home anymore

i am so so so so so done i am sick of being alone always i can't stop crying is it really So much to ask that one person just love me for who i am? apparently it is too much bc everyone leaves and i'm always left more hurt than ever before. i am so so sick of this shit truly so sick like i cannot do this anymore i can't

i'm going to die very soon, it's too bad i don't have any friends and my "family" will use my death for their personal gain like oh poor me my daughter is dead. fuck you. i'm done with this earth. i'm 27. it's my time.