#mecfs

People don’t talk about how it can take weeks to months to recover from being admitted in the hospital. Sometimes it’s a stain you can never get rid of. And that stain has a memory.

hmm. a screenbreak today made me aware of how much in pain my body is. so it sucks that i'm in pain now, but it's good i'm not dissociating it anymore ig.

just got told I have me/cfs and prescribed a bunch of meds. life is not good this week.

me/cfs sucks why am i so sick just because i was feeling strong emotions. i wish i had a wheelchair. i want to go on my outing tomorrow but i feel so fucking ill. then im upset that im feeling sick which is making it worse. gods.

Sometimes I feel like im being dramatic but then I remember ive been in pain for 5years now. Ive had fatigue and brain fog and pain in my legs among other things for 5 YEARS!!!

any other cluster b people trigger crashes by means of really intense emotions? Also unrelated question but does anyone else kinda just constantly have to remind themselves that the friend they're known for years isn't a piece of cardboard with some superficial traits drawn on it when they aren't actively engaging with you, and even then they kinda just are still flat and one dimensional and are like, tools but you also really really care about them and beat yourself up for not feeling the same deep connection they probably feel until they're doing something for you and also I wonder if my bpd traits that look like NPD are actually just NPD