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LETS GO BISEXUAL VNC SQUARE POLYCULE THESE FUCKERS NEED THERAPY SO SO SO BAD

it's more than understandable people will focus primarily on the objectification and physical aspects of her trauma; at the same time though there are so many other elements to discuss alongside them too:

Let's not forget that Inej herself claims perhaps the worse part of her time at the Menagerie wasn't the physical part of it, rather it was was Heleen's capacity for kindness and consequent benefit of the doubt that she'd use for emotional abuse.

Let's not forget that Inej was sold as a sex slave in a country she didn't know, with a language she didn't speak and a religion she did not practice to a brothel that specialized in cultural fetish, where she couldn't use her own fucking name for a whole year and was referred to with the name of a literal animal and one that didn't make sense to associate with her Suli origins at that.

Let's not forget that Inej's natural defense mechanism isn't fight (which she had to learn) but freeze, that dissociation was what got her through her work and the one time she couldn't manage to separate herself from what was being done to her was with a man that recognized her from her prior happier life.

Let's not forget that her freeze response carried through time even after she left and it was so bad she couldn't walk the street in front of The House Of Exotics and the one time she succeeds she runs into Heleen who taunts her and she freezes again.

Let's not forget that on that day and on the one she first arrived on Ketterdam at age 14, Inej thought of killing herself.

Let's not forget that to Suli people have no land and the capacity to rely on others and find shelter in community is how you survive, and Inej was blocked in Ketterdam of all fucking places, where everyone operates for their own interest and on their own if not for family or gangs and not even these could be trusted- and Inej had to learn that with the Dregs, to be ready to defend herself even from those she thinks are her friends. In fact-

Let's not forget that when she was being hostage by Van Heck the only person she trusted would've come for her is the only unapologetically openly devoted member of the crew (i.e. Nina) and literally everyone else was some variation of 'I don't know if they'd come for me', not just Kaz (she assumes Matthias might out of honor more than anything, Wylan doesn't seem to register as an option and she didn't trust Jesper would prioritize her over the needed money).

Let's not forget that Inej called every single one of her knives after the Saints she'd pray to after using them, that her faith isn't just an anchor of hope but also near the only bit of her identity she had left to clung onto.

Agamemnon: you’re so lucky your wife doesn’t hate you, I was so unlucky in that department, such dumb luck!

I might translate this article later today. This one was the most complete one, even in Italian news it's not talked about that much.

The man does not know from cheese. The man "ain't never seen no cheese but orange before" and "I showed ya list to the cheese lady so if it's wrong it's her fault ok?"

I am 80% sure she sent him there for a really specific bleu cheese, 40% sure he does not have the very specific bleu cheese, and 100% sure he's done with her shit.

Our flight is delayed.

Cheese man has been demanding payment because apparently he went like six hours out of his way and paid with his own money and between the cheese and price of gas, he is pretty sure he does not have enough money in his account for an Uber home.

The lady is FLABBERGASTED that he is demanding payment at all, as she was under the impression he was doing this for her out of the goodness of his heart.

"OR ELSE WHAT?"

"I'm gonna-? THE BABY SHOWER? MONICA CAN'T EVEN HAVE THIS CHEESE SHE'S PREGNANT!"

"The cheese lady asked if it was for someone because the mushrooms or whatever in the cheese are dangerous for the baby or something?? You wanna poison Monica?"

"WHY WOULD I LIE ABOUT THAT?"

"YEAH OF COURSE I GOT THE CHEESE, THATS WHY I DON'T GOT MONEY FOR UBER!"

"YEAH, GO TELL! GO TELL MOMMA I STOPPED YOUR STUPID ASS FROM KILLING MONICA OR THE BABY! FUCK!"

*hangs up phone*

*head in hands, borderline hyperventilating*

The man in the three piece suit is in the chair next to him. He waits a moment, then reaches into his carryon and pulls out an entire bottle of wine with the TSA pre check sticker on it, and taps cheese guy on the shoulder.

2. Cheese guy is crying a little about the cash and opening up about his problems. The cheese lady is his younger sister. Suit guy is being very generous with his Pinot Blanc. We are having a picnic/improv family therapy session.

3. This is apparently the latest in a long string of his sister asking for something and then flaking when he asks to be paid back. Started with paying him back only some of what he was owed, then claiming something she paid for him was of equal value when it was not, then recently telling him his memory is wrong and he said it was a gift or that he'd do it for free.

"Yeah, the specific thing of trying to convince you your memory is unreliable is called gaslighting and it's really fucked up." I say

"yeeeeah. The other stuff I forgave because she's never really had a good job so she can't pay me back all the time but at least she was making an effort y'know? But that was. That was over the line."

"If you haven't already, check on the rest of your family's finances. My brother started trying to gaslight everyone when he started stealing from our parents." Says Pinot Blanc.

4. Shiba Inu Lady has purchased a cheddar. Apparently, the dog's name is Donut, and he's her service dog because she's severely visually impaired.

"Oh, he's a guide dog?" Asks cheese guy.

"oh, no." She laughs. "He's too short, and the way my eyes are, it's easier for me to navigate with a cane. No, the problem I have is that some morally impaired people see the cane and think they can get away with stealing my bag or assaulting me because I wouldn't be able to give a description- which is wrong, but rather than deal with that I got Donut, and he helps me by howling at anyone who gets in my personal space and biting anyone who grabs me!"

"Uh." Says Kirigumi. "He's been staring at me do I need to back up or..?"

"Ohdear! No, no- He wasn't looking at you! He loves cheese but he knows he's not supposed to beg so he decided the way to deal with something he wants but can't have is to stare in the other direction."

"OKAY!" Says Kirigumi. "I'm wearing fox pajamas and thought like. He thought I was another dog or something."

"No, no- he doesn't care about dogs, and you get a warning before he goes for the calves. Very helpful, when I was living in Italy!"

"Oh what part? I have family in Tuscany." Says Pinot.

2. I know they're planning to continue because Pinot talked to the gate agent so he and cheese guy can sit together and talk about family drama and cheese.

3. Pinot has been teaching him about different types of cheese and how to enjoy them.

4. Cheese guy apparently repairs computers and other technology devices for a living and is currently doing the software version of scraping barnacles and other crap off Pinot'macbook.

Now that I've heard the word aloud, and they are an astrophysicist. Who correctly believes in being comfy as fuck on planes. They are also familar with the concept of a meet-cute and is rooting for them too.

Got to walk the nice lady and her Tactical Assault Shiba to her next gate because it was on the way out and talk for a bit. Donut is called that not because he is the color of a Donut (which he is) but because he likes to sleep curled up in a perfect circle. He has a sister who does the same thing named Bagel.

Lost track of Pinot and Cheeseguy for a bit but when I saw them again at Baggage claim, Cheeseguy was holding both their jackets, and Pinot was on the phone to his hotel about "Well do you have any rooms with TWO beds?". The rest of the call indicated that yes, there were rooms with two beds, but Readers, I Had A Moment.

:)

So they do things that let them justify ending the relationship or that give their partner a reason to leave them, often completely ruining any chance at a healthy platonic relationship with that person in the process, but society makes them feel like they aren't allowed to be happy and fulfilled as a single person so they get into another romantic relationship and repeat the process.

It's painful and frustrating and makes you feel like a fucking monster but amatonormativity pushes us to these points, where we feel like we HAVE to be with someone but then we feel trapped and miserable even when the relationship is perfect on paper.