‘i wonder how jacob is going to adapt the boxing day fight… i really hope he takes all the toxicity out and especially the part where ilya backs shane into the wall :(’ okay well i actually love that ilya’s been bottling up all his anger and resentment and fear and communicating in passive aggressive eyerolls for months and blows up out of nowhere during a nice boxing day afternoon and then shane responds by saying the nastiest most hurtful most breathtakingly clueless thing he can think of like a cornered animal and then ilya pulls his usual emotional cutoff and tells him to get the fuck out of his house because he’s done with the fight he started now and then shane refuses to leave and keeps repeating the same question over and over again and then ilya straight up has a cptsd rage blackout and realizes in a very visceral and horrifying way how deeply maladaptive his coping mechanisms are because by refusing to acknowledge that he has any needs at all in order not to hurt shane he is now HURTING SHANE <3 like i know it makes both of them cry and have to take a very hard look at how they’ve been acting as partners and people but it makes me happy to get all that catharsis so :)

Headcanon but I also don’t think either of them are GOOD singers but I think Ilya CAN SING and the difference is purely that he likes to drive and will sing along with his music in the car and will gradually get better about matching pitch, increasing range, and accessing his falsetto when singing along to the Michael Jackson songs his mom used to like. Shane, who never sang along to anything and never did like school choir or anything, has premium access to one note. The same one. He uses that note for every song. Ilya tears the house down at Cens karaoke through sheer charisma and because he knows all the words to Bon Jovi’s It’s My Life, and Shane also tears the house down because everyone loves His One Note.

thing I am proud of: when the doctor started going on a weird rant about long covid not being real I paused and listened to his nonsense for a bit and then very calmly said, in a polite and curious tone, "you don't believe in post-viral illness?" and he like. stammered a bunch and was like OH WELL I'M NOT SAYING -- I DON'T...I just think ..! and backpedaled awkwardly while I just sat there like :3c interesting :3c thank you so much for clarifying your stance on this :3c

an important skill for chronically ill people to develop is the ability to treat the doctor as though they are simply a person you are interviewing to find out how much they know about your condition.

HMMM interesting!! will have to check this out

getting kicked off love island for just swimming in the pool and not talking to anyone

i am actually living for marly as dave bautista like he is absolutely in a bunch of stupidass action movies post retirement. and one or two sensitive dramas where he gives a surprisingly nuanced performance.

heated rivalry is about the fantasy that your dad will die while you still have enough youth to appreciate how this frees you from familial obligation