Cosmo

So I've had meetings in my school to prepare me for the school year coming up with accommodations and everything, and I recently got put under the special education label, witch at least means teachers might finally notice the accommodations this year, I just get really frustrated when teachers don't look through the accommodations, or at least skim through it a little, especially if the kid seems like they might have something, it just frustrates me when I do a project on autism or ADHD, and suddenly there surprised about it, and they still don't realize I need more help and have accommodations.

I mean today's my birthday, it's nice and I'm going to ask if I can see some friends that I normally only see on my birthday in a week or two, but my favorite joke to make is that my homophobic parents expect me to be straight, and I was born in the middle of June, so of course I turned out Pansexual and Nonbinary. Doesn't mean you can't be straight and born in June I just think it's funny.

I thought being out of school for a few months might fix my sleep schedule, but it's been a few days and it's only gotten worse honestly, at this point I should apply to the ministry because I practically have the cardinal look down with how tired I am.

Annoyed at my math teacher because I had to do the diagnostic thing yesterday I had homework I did like half, and even today, the last day of school, she made me do work, me and my friend just goofed off and guessed because it's online. But so glad school is over for a few months.

It's the last week of school next week for me, and I don't even have to go on Friday, and really I'm just going to go the the library to get books to read, because I don't really have to much to do over the summer yet. Also excited that I might get to play Mario kart tomorrow because my English teacher is going to bring it in.

We've been playing softball in gym today and Friday, and somehow I'm successful when hitting the ball with a bat. Not that I'm going to do it as a sport, just normally I suck, so I'm happy about that.

So in my school we have the GSA (gender spectrum alliance, it's been called many different things though) and another group the hope squad, a peer to peer support things but also does spirit days I think we call them, and they asked us to do something for pride month. Witch made me happy that the school is doing that, even when people are fairly inclusive, so Friday I believe it is, or some time this week, were wearing our pride flags, or in support for the allies and I'm really excited for it!

I was writing my Ghost fanfic for English earlier, (my sleep schedule is horrible), and just threw in there how it's pride month along with Omega and Terzo being gay, it's a good start to the month.

Honestly teachers need to stop asking to show your work, especially when your correct, and it's just an assignment. It's happened mostly in Science this year, and were having out last test of the year next week, I just don't show ALL the work she wants me to show now, not none, so we will see.

I still have a complicated relationship with the ropes course at my school. We went on different low elements this week and people have to help you because team building, but I kept going at the end of class witch didn't leave me the time I need because of my autism complicating things, and other coordination issues I'm soon to get tested for. But next week we might try it again and I think I figured it out because I don't have the upper body strength other people do.

Well this week has been an absolute shit-show, but today should be good because I see the dog I can pet at lunch today, it's a block say so I only have half my classes to worry about, and I miss gym class to practice for my concert tonight, where the band and orchestra are performing as well then one song all together and I have friends in band, so optimistic for today.

My therapist has known I have ADHD, and now with my official diagnosis she's wondering why the person who tested me didn't say I should get medicated. I feel like I should, especially with school and stuff, but I don't know how I'll be able to.

I know it's metal health awareness month, and that's great, except no one genuinely cares. Like my school is putting so much work on us, but also come pet a therapy dog at lunch? It's not doing to much and it's in two weeks, but I do want to pet the dog at least, but I'm stressed and tired, and the school isn't doing anything about it in reality.