Healthy and Happy

My first day at work. My first day feeling like crap. My first day repeating “never again!” My first day tired as fck**

BUT it was also......

A day I woke up so early (to achieve a mission) A day I was bold  A day I chose to walk rather than use a vehicle A day I made healthier choices A day I learnt new things A day I was comfortable in a workplace

Everyone is getting “shreddy for summer,” which is great as I also have my own goals for “summer.” So I started today but initially I was supposed to start 2 weeks ago, guess what happened? I lost the motivation. Me coming back on tumblr about a week/2 weeks ago I was supposed to keep my profile updated with my fitness but oops ^^. 

So anywho, today I started and I am super happy! I did so much better than I did 2 weeks ago. Reason I gave up 2 weeks ago was because I literally felt like I was going to die. I push myself way too hard, but cardio today I smashed it! I figured eating before my workout would help and also not drinking a lot of water during my workout. 

I AM BACK <3! 

HEYYY.  Been a darn long time since I wrote anything on here, but a little birdie came and stopped by to stalk on my profile so I remembered that I actually had Tumblr! At first I was so mad, never felt so much anger in my life honestly. I felt like deleting my profile on here but after <3 talked me out of it and I realized I would be losing so many memories, I kept it, and I will be using it more regularly just to keep some people entertained as digging up the past isn’t so smart right...? Well it is as I have nothing to hide, but I don’t like twisting of stories, everything is in black and white and should be kept like that :). 

I have to say, this journey hasn’t been easy at all. I know who I am as a person, I know that I am kind, well mannered, and groomed myself well as a unique individual but get people who always want to see the worst in me. My account shared many emotional messages, losing my aunt and my grandpa being sick etc, and I get such sick individuals who show lack of remorse throughout looking at my page. 

Anyways I wont make this about them, as it never is. I could say more, write more, but I won’t :). Got to keep smiling and keep a positive attitude but be aware of certain individuals x. 

I created this profile long time ago to create my own little world where I can post about fitness, be motivated about life my career, studies etc. Its where I felt like I wasn’t judged and can post whatever. 

10 WEEK CHALLENGE & ABOUT ME

Ok hello, been a while but getting this to track my journey to a better fitter me. I just named it 10 Week Challenge just to get me hyped, but in all I am more excited about how I will look in June as that will be 6 months, and so much can happen in just 6 months!

Ok about me, 

Name: Mbali

Age: 22 - turning 23 on the 31st of January 

Weight: 65.4 kgs/143.8 lbs

Height: 150 cm/4′11

Career: BCom Financial Management

I think that is about it. I do not have much of a life besides school and work. 

Ok so why I wanna get fit. I have always been the bigger girl. Never been bullied or what not (it’s actually seen as something to be proud of in my culture to have extra weight, you look more healthy) but I never felt completely comfortable. At such a small age I could not fit into cute little outfits that I wanted, whenever trying on something I would be looking at the mirror and just feel down as they were not fitting how I wanted them to. Anyways I never hated my weight or who I was that much, it’s just more of like I wanna be skinnier and better. 

My first day at the gym TODAY! I did Cardio and Arms. 

So my birthday is just few days away, the 31st of January, and I want to make the last few days really count.I want to work hard, put in the work to see great results. So my goals are:

> Waking up at 5 am everyday

> Workout everyday

> No naps unless finished 80% of tasks

> Stick to 20:4 (Intermittent Fasting)

That’s the most attractive thing you can be. 

I myself need a reminder about this. I am different, I am not your “average” 21 year old that goes out, parties, drinks smoke etc. I have my own different taste in music for example and what I do is different than most people. I am not used to being around people and I tend to be kind, not being able to communicate proper with people and that’s just one of my weaknesses. I am who I am though and I am comfortable with it. 

Sometimes people say something that makes me feel like an outcast, as if I am not “cool enough” and it does get to me won’t lie, but at then end of the day I don’t ever wanna change who I am. I am different, I am me, and the best thing to do is freaken own it and accept it. 

Hey so I’ve been MIA from tumblr mostly. I won’t say it’s because I’m busy with whatever I’m doing with my life, but I just haven’t been feeling like posting or going on. So that’s that, but I do want to keep updated on here. I think it’s a great site to share your emotions as I doubt anyone that knows me follows me on here. It would also be cool to be able to look back at the memories I’ve shared on here, my little hiding spot where I sit in a corner and write. 

Anyways, I’m doing my last semester at college for this year and things are hectic. Tests after tests and just overall the work is different and quiet challenging. Nothing is impossible though right?Right. So my next test is on Wednesday (5 October 2016) and I have to prepare for that starting tomorrow. I’m a heavy procrastinator and I’m trying to stop that bad habit. Last test I wrote I got a B , and that was after I made changes towards me not doing things at last minute. So that’s motivation right there that if I completely study in advance I’ll have A’s flying around, really. 

My fitness has been lacking, but as I’m writing this I’m planning on starting proper tomorrow. I have a new “diet” I wrote up myself to follow. My Birthday is on the 31st of January and I really want to, for once, be comfortable in my own skin. I love myself the way I am, and I’m greatful for what my body has achieved thus far, but we gotta get healthy and be at a state where both of us are able to carry each other.