It's funny writing this again because last time I gave an update I was talking about me getting married, navigating this new life that I was excited for. But it turns out life had other plans.

We got divorced last year around April I think. She became an alcoholic and it pretty much affected everything in our lives. From finances, spiritual life, personal life and so on. I spent months just rebuilding myself, my confidence, my spiritual life, my mindset, pretty much everything. I had my own crap that affected the marriage so don't get me wrong, it wasn't just her.

Regardless of what happened, I still wish her the best, nothing but health, wealth, love and happiness...

So where am I now?

Moved back with my mom, been here since last year. I'm making progress in my career (I'm actually taking my last exam to become an investment broker, I'm super excited for it). I also found someone new and we've been in love since January.

We met through hinge (shocker I know lol). But from the moment we laid eyes on each other, we've been obsessed with each other. I asked her to be my girlfriend two months into dating and have been together ever since.

She loves my family, I love hers. And we're actually talking about marriage in the near future

It's crazy because we both didn't plan on this happening, especially us falling in live so quickly and deeply. But it happened organically.

Where to now?

Marriage, Family, Growing my business, Traveling. So many things

All I know is that I'm thankful for all the things that have happened because they have led me here.

If, you've made it this far, thank you! Who knows, I might not wait another three years for another update. I might actually treat it as a blog. It's therapeutic

Today's Vibe

A little frazzled. A little sentimental. The kind of day that reminded me that joy doesn't have to be loud.

Currently

The power decided to disappear from 4:00 a.m. until 4:00 p.m., which completely threw my day off. As someone with Type 1 diabetes, being without power isn't just inconvenient...it knocks my whole routine sideways. By the time everything came back on, I felt physically and mentally out of sync.

To make dinner easy, I ordered McDonald's for the boys… except the delivery forgot all of the fries and the dipping sauces. Somewhere out there is a very confused bag of fries wondering where its family went.

Even with all that, today still managed to be beautiful.

Rowan sat at the piano playing Clair de Lune, and I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing it drift through the house.

Killian looks so incredibly handsome with his glasses. It's one of those little changes that somehow makes him look even more like himself.

Elliott was perfectly content just hanging out with me, and I hope he never knows what a gift that is.

I found myself thinking about all the things that make life feel like home:

Sunflowers. Cherry blossom trees. Porch swings. Stuffed crust pizza (thank you, Kansas). Banana Slurpees from 7-Eleven. Van Gogh paintings that somehow make ordinary things feel extraordinary.

I realized something today.

I don't love those things because they're impressive.

I love them because they make me slow down.

Because they remind me that beauty isn't reserved for milestones. Sometimes it's a piano melody from another room. Sometimes it's a child in new glasses. Sometimes it's a porch swing, a painting, or the first sip of a ridiculously good Slurpee.

And the funny part?

My first instinct after noticing all of it was, I have to tell him.

That may be my favorite feeling of all...finding little pieces of happiness throughout the day and wanting to share every single one with someone I love.

Oh...and I also remembered I fell asleep halfway through The Life List on Netflix, so I should probably finish that tonight.

Tiny Win

Despite the power outage, the forgotten fries, and feeling completely out of sorts, I still found myself noticing the beautiful things.

I really do love being their mom.

For me, I can only truly enjoy a series when my mind is clear, and right now life is pretty busy. After finishing my master's degree in Sweden, I moved to the Netherlands and I'm currently trying to build a new life here. There are still so many things I need to take care of before everything settles down.

Mom and dad said I have pretty eyes and a guy I used to be friends also said that a year ago so I guess I have pretty eyes lol