chaos :)

So i wanted to do a do a thing w my mutuals where everyone says a fun fact about themselves. So I’ll go first.

I thought senpai from Friday night funkin was hot 💀

Fun fact about myself? I don't know... Oh, I got one!

I can solve a Rubik's cube in an average of 40 sec

Fun fact about myself… hmm

I’ve been dyeing my hair for almost 2 years and sometimes I forget that my hair is supposed to be blonde

I used to have a really bad dora-looking haircut as a kid, and since my hair is so dark one of my friends asked me if I liked berries and cream (y'know, for the memes?)

And me, being the clueless fool I was

Said 'yes' TTvTT

I have a bad hair day almost... everyday? But no one notices ;> (because hijab lololol) like, I usually brush my hair thoroughly once a week and other times just brush superficially XD

The only board game I've ever won (up until recently cause I just won another!!) Is one based around lying and after I won my dad didn't let us ply it for three years because he didn't appreciate how I won a game, based on lying, by a landslide

When I was like idk 12 I thought Ennard from fnaf was soooo sexy don't ask me why

My fun fact is that I've been electrocuted by lightning

@novastar-creations @awkward-jester @neonismyfavg @barnowlbookworm @faydoodlez @strawberryswirl4321 @pickledcarrotsandradish @graphoon @chickenclan @temva @yoru424 @snowbriar @littlebeesart

I have a first degree black belt in Taekwondo, and due to my experience in martial arts, I developed an interest in collecting weapons (except for guns oddly enough.)

I think my favorite fun fact is that my only two sisters are twins...and they were both born on my birthday :)

hmm lets see, fun fact about me I've been programming and making video games since I was 8 years old. I started by making Minecraft mods and little 2D apps in clickteam Fusion. I learned how to use Unity Game Engine when I was 11. Now Im a Software Dev Major ^^;

fun fact: i hate whimsy; i hate glitter, i hate slime, i hate those shiny small confetti (normal confetti is fine)

I ESPECIALLY HATE STICKERS IM SORRY GUYS... the sensory... i think it’s a bit of fear too because i try to avoid it as much as possible... (INVISIBLE PARTICLES ARE REAL, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES OF WASHING HANDS !!! may be some neurodivergent thing erm)

moots !! (no pressure)

I am also a agressive furry with rabbies that desires to infect everyone else into the furry fandom

I was a absolute freak of a kid. I picked up bugs. I poked a dead rat. I had a pet jumping spider. I wanted (and still want) a pet milipede.

@trashshouldnt @inevitable-pretty-chaos @urlocalwormtoday @we-are-the-multitude @koreanbibliophilegirl

one time, on halloween, I was being an idiot of a person and somehow managed to make one of those thick glow sticks explode in my face (and also directly into my eyes. 0/10 experience would not recommend 💔)

only if y'all are feeling up to it >:3 @honeyzee312 @bestiemirage @centipisde @koqaww @mars-paws @vallkary @noctivagant-corvid @nautls11 @your-new-favorite-mouse

I umm don't really know what to put , but —

I have a few

I am afraid of tall ceilings

I didn't know how to ride a bike until like this year

I like rock and heavy metal

And I am absolutely horrible at putting earplugs or airpods or anything that goes in your ear in lmao

And I also have to put up my hair every night otherwise it would be unbrushable in the morning . [ Becuz I have curly hair it gets knotted like it's NOTHIING ]

Ty for the tag btw !

@sammylbir @mistyghostzzz @konxhk @maristarz @riikuuuu @cheese-lover222 @umaisho @heart-viruzz

Cyyber you poor thing.. 💔💔

I like fnaf.a lot. My favorites from each game are Chica, Withered Chica/Bonnie OR Marionette, Phantom BB, the little shit that killed his brother (Michael), Michael, and once again, Michael. Or Lefty. I love Lefty <3

@brain4stew @coffeesandal @itzcodythesilly @ariacore-xd @goobergobax2 @lucygoosey719

I am Chemistry student : ) especially Organic chemiStry

(also I don’t usually type like this lol it’s just a fun bit)

your teeth in my neck - kali uchis

champagne coast - blood orange

love me not - ravyn lenae

i don't know you - mannequin pussy

to Perth, before the border closes - julia jacklin

tumblr girls - g eazy LMAO

i could be the one - avicii

track 10 - charli xcx

bags (electric lady studios) - clairo

just a stranger - kali uchis

High and Dry by Radiohead

Pyramids by Frank Ocean

Mayonnaise by The Smashing Pumpkins

One Hundred Sleepless Nights by Pierce The Veil

Enter Sandman by Metallica

Magic Heart by Heart

Dreamboat Annie by Heart

Waltz #1 by Elliott Smith

That's What You Get by Paramore

Dreamboat Annie - Reprise by Heart

1. forgive me - catalyst…

2. 666 days - prettyheartbreak/lil tracy

3. weepin in da trench - black kray/pentagrvm

4. dirt - bones

5. waste of time - lil peep

6. IfYouHadAZuneIHateYou - bones

7. pictures 2 - mackned/lil peep/lil tracy

8. year without summer - throw me in the crater

9. IKnowImNotAHero - the virus and the antidote

10. DidYouHearTheRoadsAreClosed - xavier wulf/bones

1. this night has opened my eyes - the smiths

2. when the sun hits - slowdive

3. all i need - radiohead

4. so real - jeff buckley

5. i know it's over - the smiths

6. say yes - elliott smith

7. let down - radiohead

8. concorde - black country, new road

9. blue light - mazzy star

10. how to disappear completely - radiohead

1- Wrap Me in Plastic- CHROMANCE, Marcus Layton

2- Fortnight - Taylor Swift, Post Malone

3- Pobre Secretaria - Mariana Treviño version

4- What Is This Feeling? - Ariana Grande, Cynthia Erivo

5- HOLD ME TIGHT OR DONT - Fall Out Boy

6- Down Bad - Taylor Swift

7- Looking at Me - Sabrina Carpenter

8- Using you - Mars Argo

9- Nasty Dog - Sir Mix-A-Lot

10- Mary on a Cross - Ghost

1. Sakura Kiss - Chieko Kawabe

2. Don't Cha - The Pussycat Dolls

3. MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name) - Lil Nas X

4. Silent Cry - Stray Kids

5. Your Love Is My Drug - Kesha

6. Drown Me! - Junie & TheHutFriends

7. Wuthering Heights - Kate Bush

8. Shine On, Harvest Moon - Ruth Etting

9. Love In Portofino - Dalinda

10. Scott Street - Phoebe Bridgers

thank you for the tag!!

Dark Dance - Burn the Ballroom

Clutch (feat Trickle) - The Vanished People

Shinunoga E-Wa - Belle Sisoski cover

The Summoning - Sleep Token

Southbound - Artemas

Make Me Forget - Sub Urban

HUSH - Ari Abdul

All I Want For Christmas is You - From Ashes to New

Mellow Mellow Lily - Jimmy the Pastor

Cure for Breathing - VOILA

i used my largest playlist.. i think it has enough songs to count as my music taste??

missus piano - rio romeo

can't take my eyes off you - muse cover

goodbye weekend - mac demarco

i wait for you - alex g offline

all i think about now - pixies

sail to the moon - radiohead

lucky man - the verve

(do the) act like you never met me - tv girl

my own summer (shove it) - deftones

new low - novulent

(i dont have spotify premium so i just switched through my playlists🔥)

1. tokyo ghetto - eve

2. hollow - alex g

3. my angel - adrianne lenker

4. apricot- iyowa

5. televangelisim - ethel cain

6. aruki waltz - COLTEMONIKHA

7. gretel - alex g

8. fake plastic trees - radiohead

9. ÅMARA - sasakure.uk

10. matryoshka - hachi

Nightcord at 25 - samsa

Hiroyuki sawano - lemonade

Hiroyuki sawano - a-z

Nightcord at 25 - D/N/A

Naqt vane - fallout

Stray kids - my pace

Hiroyuki sawano - ivory tower

Hiroyuki sawano - X.U

BTS - moon

Hoyomix - samudrartha

I just had a hyperfixation on Nightcord 25 and hiroyuki sawano recently...so yeah

Would You Fall In Love With Me Again- Epic the Musical

Impacto- Enjambre

my mind is a mountain- deftones

I don't want to be me- Type o Negative

forwards beckon rebound- Adrianne Lecker

shut me up- Mindless Self Indulgence

Angel- Massive Attack

Duvet- Bǒa

jigsaw falling into pieces- Radiohead

We Both Reached For The Gun- Chicago Musical

I Don’t Wanna Be Me - Type O Negative (twinsies)

Don’t Speak - No Doubt

Glitter Freeze - Gorillaz

Frances Garmer Will Have Her Revenge on Seattle - Nirvana

Even Flow - Pearl Jam

Rose of Flesh and Blood - Plastique Noir

Attracted to you - Pinkpantheress

This House is a Circus - Arctic Monkeys

Empire Ants - Gorillaz

Heart of Glass - Blondie

Bonus (bcs this is fun): Friend - Valley Palace

(I feel like this shows off how diverse my playlist can be but idk 😭)

Tags!!:

Harpy Hare – Yaelokre

Burn the Witch – Shawn James

Sun to Me – Zach Bryan

Abstract (Psychopomp) – Hozier

Tongues & Teeth – The Crane Wives

Skinny Love – Bon Iver

One Day – Imagine Dragons

Europe Skies – Alexander Rybak

Constellations – The Oh Hello’s

New Light – John Mayer

chess - slowed by joyful

it boy - bbno$

Smooth Operator - Sade

Hat Trick - JT Music

Outrunning Karma - Alec Benjamin

The Less I Know The Better - Tame Impala

FLINT AND STEEL - Epoch Music

Too Sweet - Hozier

Hidden In The Sand - Tally Hall

Clair De Lune - Claude Debussy @the-woodlandfaerie @sylki221b-of-the-shire @sunnyyy-daze

My heart will go on - Celine Dion

Forever Winter - Taylor Swift

Against All Odds - Phil Collins

Somebody to Someone - Natalie Jane

Older Than I Am - Lennon Stella

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart - Taylor Swift

Stargazing - Myles Smith

Toughest - Ed Sheeran

parallel universe - Lauren Spencer Smith

Salt Water - Ed Sheeran

Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na) - My Chemical Romance

Gorgeous - Taylor Swift

Aline - Therapie TAXI

IL DONNO DELLA VITA - Måneskin

You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison - My Chemical Romance

Я тебя люблю - Где Фантом?

You’re On Your Own, Kid - Taylor Swift

Brighter - Paramore

This Is What Makes Us Girls - Lana del Rey

All These Things That I’ve Done - The Killers

1. Muscle Memory - Lights

2. Reconnected - Vanguard Sound, Ghost Final

3. Flow (Child of Eden Mix) - Genki Rockets

4. Moonlight Shadow - SLSMusic

5. Temple of Time - Paintamelody

6. Cheering You On - For King & Country

7. Glare - Yuzo Koshiro

8. Escapade - Skrux

9. Vanilla Flavored Soda - Plum

10. The Anthem - Ephixa, Project 46, Varien

These are from my main playlist

1. A thousand years - Christina Perri

2. Cherry Hill - Russ

3. Cardigan - Taylor Swift

4. War of Hearts - Ruelle

5. Groupie - Cate

6. Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince - Taylor Swift

7. Love story - Indila

8. Hold the Applause - Mira Housey

9. Glimpse of us - Joji

10. Fight or Flight - Conan Gray

Alr this is my playlist :3 (most of them r alnst songs beware)

Ruler of my heart- BL8M, Rubyeye

Cure- Both Mizisua and Ivantill ver

Heart- C!nah

Paratise- Park Byeong Hoon (sorry if the spelling is wrong)

Killshot

Railway- Skz Bangchan

Red lights - Hyunjin, Bangchan

Lonely is the muse- Halsey

Arsonist- Halsey

Oh my Clematis- Rubyeye, C!nah

Wiege- BL8M, 6FU

Karma- Rubyeye, C!nah

Bring me back to life- Chris Grey

Burning in Desire- Chris Grey

Obsessed- Zandros Limi

Wine pon you

Coltemonikha アリクイワルツ (Arikui Waltz)

That's.. enough songs for now! TAG TIMEEE

But...

villain by Nightcord at 25:00

can't die. by Usagi 3 and Kagamine Len

Oblivion by Grimes

D/N/A by Azari

Wiege by BL8M and 6FU;

Cure by AKUGETSU and PARK BYEONG HOON

Cut Me Open by Um Jennifer?

Heat Abnormal by Nightcord at 25:00

Kyu Kurarin by Iyowa

Becoming Potatoes by Wonderlands x Showtime

TAG TIME!

Wake Me up When September Ends - Green Day

Shots - Broiler Remix - Imagine Dragons, Broiler

King of Anything - Sara Bareilles

Silhouettes - Swimming With Dolphins

Father's Lament - Poor Man’s Poison

Slow Down - Poor Man’s Poison

Victorious - Panic! At The Disco

Children of the Sky (a Starfield song) - Imagine Dragons

I Live Alone - Sky Sailing

Getting Started - Jazon Mraz

Closest match: Grammodes stolida genome assembly, chromosome: 26 Common name: The Geometrician

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Cause I have both, and got a thing where an image or a scene come all rendered out, like 3D Blender animation, you know? All in my mind, with colors and shades and like details, and if I'm imagining a scene, it gets really interesting to imagine it, because to me, I don't even need to close my eyes, I just render that picture in my mind. It's both a blessing and a curse as a creative writer, because I can actually see the scenes I'm making, even if in my mind, but also hard - because I know how I want them to be, and translating that to paper is difficult.

But that's also the thing why I can't meditate the way most people do: cause my brain doesn't do words or thoughts I need to clear out, it does renditions, so achieving quiet mind requires any and all thought process to stop - which, as you could guess, is largely impossible. The solution? Meditation in movement, because if my brain is too busy processing the 3D of the world outside, it can't load the picture inside the mind 👌one task at a time, brain said

That is SO wild bruh

I get similar things- like if I turn off one level, another will start up, or a different image or memory will get in the way, but it’s not 3D images, it’s more like … awareness of distance and depth with no images included, or pictures that are only as detailed as I’m able to draw, with blank spaces where I don’t fully remember

For ME, I meditate by finding a comfortable place to sit and following each line of thought until there’s nothing left to think about. If I have an upsetting thought, I follow it and unpack it until there’s nothing more to unpack- and when I can’t think of anything else to think about, focus on the physical sensations in my body starting at the top of my head and working my way out to my hands and feet. Then it’s all kind of… I don’t know, non-linear? Like if I can hear music playing somewhere, I can’t really recognize the song, or it takes a while to notice it IS music, because in each instant it’s just one sound existing at a time independent of the next. No previous, no next, only “now”.

Feels good. Feels like taking a shower you didn’t realize you needed.

How would you describe your process? Meditation through movement isn’t something I’d heard of or considered before and I’m curious of how it works for you! And what frame of mind to you aim to achieve ? My own goal is usually just to de-clutter or manage overstimulation. And do you ever “run out” of images? How do you meditate without losing focus?

Hit me upppppp

”I sit in quiet and keep thinking till I run out of stuff” is an unfathomable concept to me like. Um. How The Fuck do you run out? What about The Dread. Does your brain not start the Stories or perhaps The Character????????? What happens to the internal narration???