Ecstasy Of Grief

see I really want a motorbike (they are sexy and cool and fast) but the thing is I really enjoy being alive and I feel like a motorbike might get in the way of the whole “being alive” thing

the phm team seeing grace everywhere. carl seeing a yellow jacket in a crowd, wincing. lokken arguing with a colleague or a spirited researcher. she’ll probably die a decade before she finds out if her centrifuge worked as intended. dimitri drinking alone on the vatt. grace’s place at the bar empty. his lab station and little supply closet office abandoned. his apartment mouldering. marrissa and carl making eye contact at the diner he frequented, both there for grace, never realizing who the other is. did he ever tell marrissa where he went? did he ever tell carl about his friend of over fifteen years? carl moving to california after the launch- did he grow up there? or did he move there chasing grace’s ghost. stratt in jail, still getting his emails, his mail. junk coupons from san francisco getting forwarded across the ocean to a french prison so she can look at his name on the cheap shiny paper. she could probably tell someone to sort through it and only send along anything important. she doesnt. a rainbow shines over the baikonur cosmodrome. no ones there to see it. 

My child, who spends their entire life being transfered from home to car to school and back, and is not allowed to leave the house or talk to anyone and can only in their wildest dreams imagine a life free from constant surveillance, is very sad. Obviously they're dumb and lazy, like all kids these days.

kind of a tangent but i recently went to a bowling alley with my friend i'm 19 he's 18 and the woman at the door didn't want to let us in because there was a sign saying under-18s needed adult supervision. everything got cleared up and we were able to go bowl, but i'm still so mad about the fact that kids need adult supervision to go to a bowling alley and arcade. like okay maybe young kids should have supervision but what do you mean middle and high schoolers need to hold mommy's hand while they play video games. kids aren't just addicted to their phones because phones are addicting, we're addicted to our phones because there's nothing else to fucking do

I'm sure banning kids from online spaces while simultaneously not ensuring that they have access to offline spaces to socialize in (without having to rely on their parents who already don't have time for them) will help them feel better & less alienated from society.

i would recognize that season of television by haircut alone

complimented a womans clear raincoat this morning and she said Well i feel like a sandwich

I would have said clit if I was her

you keep your clitoris in a plastic bag?

i wouldn't even care if i got eaten. i'd be nutritious as fuck

didn't even mean to post this on vore day. that was just fate at work

I don't understand how cis people obsessed with gender norms think trans people are the weird ones. they're going around believing that your name has to correlate to your genitals. your fashion has to correlate to your genitals. your behaviours have to correlate to your genitals. your hobbies have to correlate to your genitals. who you date has to correlate to your genitals. whether you can put sparkles on your eyelids or not has to correlate to your genitals. and then people like me go "hmm. I might not do that. maybe I'll just do what feels fun and okay instead" and they LOSE their MINDS

in the age of ozempic, take my hands...its okay to gain weight and to want to be fatter. Normalize talking about gaining weight for no reason other than you want to. Heal your relationship with your body and with food. Its okay to want to be fatter.

vampire avoidant about hunting and drinking blood but not because of moral qualms. they have arfid and it didn't go away with the vampirism so they have to find ppl who have safe food vibes. who remind them of mashed potatoes or tamales or something. for whatever reason.

vampire just gagging on blood like "hold on a minute I need to remember my CBT steps and do box breathing" and their victim is like "by all means, I wouldn't want this to be uncomfortable for you."

The amount of slavery in Ancient Rome was legitimately terrifying tbh

Y’all know that I’m into ancient Roman history and I do a lot of research on it but even though I should be used to it by now sometimes I read an anecdote about how an individual slave was treated and I’m hit with the realization that like a third of the population was living like that and I just need to put my head in my hands for a second

When you study ancient history you’re reminded that slavery has never once been kind or justified. It just takes on different forms of evil in every time and place that it infects.