your fave is problematic: evan hansen
never meant to make it such a mess
never thought that it would go this far
stands here, sorry, searching for something to say
there’s nothing he can say
thought he could be part of this
never had this kind of thing before
never had that perfect girl who somehow could see the good part of him
never had the dad who stuck it out
no corny jokes or baseball gloves
no mom who just was there cause mom was all that she had to be
that’s not a worthy explanation
nothing can make sense of all these things he’s done
there’s nothing he can say
except sometimes you see everything you wanted, and sometimes, you see everything you wish you had, and it’s right there, right there, right there, in front of you
and you want to believe it’s true
and you think, maybe, everybody wants it and needs it a little bit too
this was a just a sad invention
cause if he just believed
then he doesn’t have to see what’s really there
he would rather pretend he’s something better than those broken parts
pretend he’s something other than this mess that he is
cause then he doesn’t have to look at it
and no one gets to look it at it, no, no one can really see
cause he’s learned to slam on the brake
before he even turns the key
before he makes the mistake
before he leads with the worst of him
he never lets them see the worst of him
cause what if everyone saw
would they like what they saw
or would they hate it too
will he just keep on running away from what’s true
so how will he step, step into the sun
vaporwave
andulkaphoto
discoholicmusic
jacobvanloon
