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once they get back to montreal ilya loves to put shane on his knees and make him cock warm him during meetings. crucially this is Not under the table, they’re all on couches and everyone can see shane. 

this gets them both crazy turned on but ilyas always better at acting unaffected. ilyas running important meetings, while shane is completely undone at his feet. 

shane’s fully clothed but he has a vibrating plug in, this does make it look like shane’s just that needy for ilyas dick. if ilyas feeling nice he’ll put him in a cock cage, if he’s not shane has to use all his willpower to try and hold on cus ilya told him not to cum. either way shane is crying on it. 

ilya backhands him when he starts to make too much noise cus “i’m trying to run a meeting here zaika. they can’t hear me when you’re acting like such a slut”. there’s a water break and that means that shane can cum and be as loud as he wants until it’s over. 

this could also play really yummy with overstim. shane’s naked on his knees, dick out, plug in, and ilya has that think cranked all the way up. shane’s cum twice and has started sobbing. when he tries to pull away ilya drapes his legs over shane’s shoulders and puts his hand in his hair to push him back down onto his dick. ilya dismissed everyone after shane’s first orgasm cus only he’s aloud to see shane that undone (shane’s so out of it he doesn’t notice and does in fact think everyone’s still watching).  

ilya does get degrading with it. “baby if you hadn’t left me i wouldn’t have to do this to you. you used to do so much for me before. but not telling me what was going on proves that you’re to stupid to do anything but sit on your knees and look pretty. my little toy”. ilya 9/10 times isn’t calling him shane in front of others, he’s calling him zaika or igrushka (toy or plaything). 

this all makes everyone think shane’s just someone ilya keeps around to fuck. nobody trusts him after it comes out he was a mole, but they don’t fear or respect him either. he’s just ilyas slut. (many people are judging ilya for this, we could get you a hooker ilya (or you could fuck me if you had to - sasha probably)) 

then ilya stages his own kidnapping to test shane’s loyalty and shane goes fucking crazy getting ilya back. the few people who survived are scared fucking shitless of him and word spreads (the word about him being ilyas toy has already spread). but the next week he’s back on his knees in front of ilya. 

he starts to lead more assignments and it’s understood that ilya trusts shane implicitly. both the stories of shane on his knees and shane eviscerating everyone to get to ilya have spread and many people don’t believe it’s the same person. this does mean that nobody can look him in the eyes. it might be they’re too embarrassed or they’re scared shitless. either way this is great for shane’s autistic ass. no eye contact yappie!!

sometimes for special occasions when ilyas meeting with rival gangs he’ll dress shane up all sharp and pretty in an immaculately tailored suit with his vintage rolex, and put him on his knees in front of them all. he’s plugged and caged (not vibrating) and he’s so docile and sweet at ilyas feet. this is 1) because the possessiveness of ilya picking out his outfit and having everyone see shane like this gets them both hard and 2) a calculated effort to have people see shane only as slut so they underestimate him (everyone thinking this also gets them hard). 

shane’ll go and communicate with rival gangs that know him only as ilyas toy and he’s getting crazy intel cus nobody takes him seriously, they don’t know he’s ilyas right hand man. the one and only time someone tried to short change shane during a handoff shane shoots them. he let them live but when ilya finds out they not only tried to short change him they tried to hurt him too? ya the guy wishes shane had killed him. 

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when I tell you that I read this ask two days ago while sprawled in my college best friend's bed, half dead from new york city heat stroke, and it felt like I had recieved manna in the desert

Random bloke: Maybe if you walked more you wouldn’t be so fat

My sister stops dead, stares him in the eye and goes: Is everything alright at home?

I’ve never seen a man’s face turn to horror so fast

"No," I said. "That doesn't work for me. If you're unwilling to honor the deal we made, I'm not buying a car from you."

Well, they talk for a living. So they talked. Here I am, a young woman on my own, and these two men at the dealership are giving me all the reasons they couldn't possibly honor the deal we made yesterday.

So I sat. I didn't say a word. I just stared at them.

They kept talking, trying to get a reaction out of me. After about 10 seconds, they abandoned all pretense of logical arguments and started hammering pathos. They weren't even buying my old car from me for the dealership; it was a personal favor for which they were using their own hard-earned money to help this poor guy at church who just got out of rehab and his house burned down and his children exploded and his dog left him for another man, etc etc

I didn't say a word. I just stared at them.

They began falling apart. They continued trying to hustle me, but their confidence left them. I think they might have been sweating.

Friends, I was staring silently at someone while inwardly flailing desperately to come up with a response to something they’d said that wasn’t overly rude but also was holding my ground. In my mind, I was being hellishly awkward. I couldn’t summon any charm, I couldn’t figure out a sentence to string together. Silence spooled out horrifyingly between us as I got farther and farther away from being articulate and became more and more flustered by this failure to respond. From the outside, I guess, I just looked like a stone cold bitch waiting for them to get their shit together, lol.

heated rivalry gif meme

I imagine if BRIAN having an orgasm was interrupted by someone important and stressful from the non-Brian part of Shane’s life, Brian would be furious, would guilt him, would maybe give him the silent treatment to punish him?

Maybe this is one more way Shane will realize Brian is shit?

Love the latest update and Shane being pissed 🤩

(And to editorialize: Brian would have a leg to stand on IF he had been willing to set down ground rules in the first place!!!!)

I just read your entire Bratva AU. You are so brilliant, and I love your brain. You’re probably enjoying the Big Apple right now so absolutely no pressure to respond to my poorly thought out question.

How would Ilya react if he found out Shane was an undercover officer without the “faking his death” of it all? Perhaps he finds out about the extraction and prevents it?

Thank you for your consideration.

well great news I am home from the Big Apple which means we're back to regular programming!

I think there a couple ways this can shake out -- either Shane gets alerted to his extraction early and tells Ilya everything, or Ilya finds out that Shane is a cop while he's still undercover. I talked a lil about the "Shane spilling everything before his extraction" a few days ago, so I want to cook a little more on Ilya figuring things out on his own and how that would play out

There are many ways it could happen; Shane slips up and uses his real game, or says something contradictory to what he said before, or Ilya/another member of the family sees Shane meeting with one of his handlers. Either way, Ilya now knows Shane isn't who he says he is. He probably doesn't know the full details, and part of him wants to ignore it. But he knows it'll dig at him, and he values honesty too much to let it go. So h'es speed running the five stages of grief, knowing Shane is lying to him but he doesn't know exactly about what, or why, or how deep the lies go.

but of course, Ilya can bind his time. he can sit back and let Shane go about their daily domestic life, observe him in bed and at dinner and at family parties. He searches constantly for cracks in Shane's facade, anything that's different from the man he has known and treasured for years. it eats at him, this moving between paranoid and sadness and angry and desperate hope that he's wrong.

because Ilya is dramatic, and also because they're Them, my vision for him confronting Shane is when they're in bed, and Shane let Ilya tie him up or handcuff him like he had dozens of times before. He's whining and begging like every other time they've done this, so Ilya kisses the back of his neck and shushes him and tells him "it's alright, zaika, I will give you what you need" and then proceeds to open their bedside table, take out his gun and press right under Shane's jaw. Shane laughs nervously at first, thinks they're playing a game, just glances back and says "...Ilya?"

Ilya presses the gun harder into his skin and says "yes, that is my name. I'm not sure I know your. Why don't you tell me who you are."