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"And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in."

I’ve started viewing my goals and daily habits as promises to myself. Whenever I consider not doing something (working out, doing my skincare, etc) I view it through the lens of someone making a promise to me and not keeping it. I think about how pissed I would be if my boyfriend or friend would constantly make promises to me and break them. Why do I give myself grace to be inconsistent that I do not give others? Eventually, if someone keeps breaking promises to you, you learn not to trust their word and not rely on them for anything. Is that the kind of relationship you want to foster with yourself? Who can you count on, if not you?

Don’t ever put your happiness in someone else’s hands. They’ll drop it. They’ll drop it everytime.