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luna !

used to be lunahollanova / ilyarozanova81

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EXACTLYYYYYY YOU GET ITTTT……..this is exactly how it is……ilya WAS the catalyst for the band breaking up bc he wanted to go solo and he was also the most popular member…..he was starting social media beefs and having to post public apologies for being seen smoking outside of an arena or getting in a fight at a bar that he’s wayy too young to be in……shane spends an entire night scrolling through r/ilyusha and reading abt ppl crashing out when he left the band

and like i think even shane struggles to really comprehend ilya’s level of fame until he’s like. seeing pictuers of ilya at the met gala or realising he can’t have a google alert set up for him because his phone will be ringing All Day

meanwhile shane is truly like wow that must be so hard…..poor ilya…..they made plushies of him when he was 16……anyway i can’t wait to visit my mom slash manager tonight and look over some of the trading cards they released of me when i was seventeen, which is totally normal and different in every way,

tapping into my mind palace for ths one……

overall the dynamic is very messy and codependent bc. svetlana and ilya have been best friends since they were kids and she was basically his touchstone through getting super famous, living in a fishbowl, everything with sasha (which is much more intense in this au bc. they were in a band that spent 5 years living on top of each other) and then eventually when he moved to the US he went to boston instead of NY or LA, bc that’s where svetlana is.

in my mind (and supplied by the beautiful @shanehollandergirl ) ilya actually knew rose before shane did, just by nature of the entertainment industry. they’re both super famous and have actually probably had their own unfounded dating rumours, which means after tunameltdown seeing her and shane together makes him Extra Crazy. he’s making a lot of vague, out-of-pocket comments on stage, etc.

but by the time they’ve gotten together officially everyone is more or less chill. rose is one of shane’s closest friends and someone he can actually talk about his sex life with, but also someone who understands ilya’s position better than he does (he’s Sports Famous, but ilya has multiple active stalkers and gets papped walking from the car to his apartment building)

cuz we know he's a massive bitch (affectionate) irl, but what's his archetype? the Sensitive One? very funny to think about him making soulful eyes at the camera and then rolling his eyes behind the scenes anytime Ilya has and Emotion

and what does he do post boy band fame?

oh yeah hes very much the sensitive one which is why so many ppl latched on to shipping him w ilya the #bad boy (while completely unaware that they were in fact hooking up reliably throughout their time in the bad.) one of the big rumours surrounding why ilya left the band and they disbanded so quickly was that he and ilya were caught by management, which wasn’t true but. yknow. we were all in the 1d fandom at some point

sasha was actually getting in very deep with drugs by the time the band came to an end and it was putting a big strain on his relationship with ilya (not bc he wasn’t also quite heavily using then but because ilya knew he was the most popular, knew he had american interest in his solo career, and knew that getting addicted to coke and flaming out would get in the way of his big plan to escape his family and live in the US)