Many A Hungry Wish

I saw the best hockey players of my generation destroyed by hole, starving hysterical naked, dragging themselves through the Ottawan streets at dawn

“shane was trying to prove to himself that he was straight by dating rose” “no, he knew he was queer, he was just trying to prove to himself that he liked women” folks i gotta be honest i don’t think shane was thinking about his sexual identity when he dated rose, i think he was trying to prove to himself that he was Normal. like i don’t think shane was thinking of himself in terms of gay vs bisexual or even attracted to men vs attracted to women, i think he was thinking of himself in terms of Mistake I’ve Been Making With Rozanov vs Normal Acceptable Expected Behavior I Need To Get Serious About Performing. like his actual desire and attraction is so divorced from his understanding of what he’s supposed to be doing as a masculine professional athlete that he doesn’t even consider whether he’s attracted to rose when he dates her, or rather he avoids considering it until she forces him to. In My Opinion.

lost another game. locker room vibe is So Off.

if only there was Something I could do to Improve Morale

I have a suggestion

Wait if they’re filming does this mean Shane season 2 has a mustache??

my controversial late-night heated rivalry take is that in my heart of hearts I still think that shane’s securely attached and emotionally well adjusted. it’s fun to give him Issues in fic but I don’t think they get to the cottage if he isn’t a boy who was well loved and knows what it’s supposed to feel like

“IT WORKS” (8oz)

the thing is i do think ilya takes great pride in being a throat goat and i think he would make shane fuck his face a little bit sometimes just so he could show off

I think we should’ve gotten a scene in Role Model where Troy is pathetically jerking off imagining Harris hooking up with someone else. He can’t even let himself fantasize about him being the one to get beard burn on his thighs from Harris going down on him. Even in his own mind he has to put himself in the cuck chair

troy: hey as a fun team activity you guys could make me carry a wooden cross from toronto to ottawa and then crucify me at center ice

troy: sorry i know it’ll take longer than if you just tied me to it and set it alight but i think that would melt all the ice and i don’t want to be even more of an inconvenience yk

troy: hey as a fun team activity you guys could make me carry a wooden cross from toronto to ottawa and then crucify me at center ice

I don’t really care about real hockey but I think this is helpful when it comes to fic writing just so we know what we’re working with here. Sometimes I read something they’re they’re reading Tolstoy or quoting different philosophers and I love the optimism.

Luca finally brings the guy he’s been seeing to a Centaurs hang out & the guy has blonde curls & brown eyes & a small spattering of freckles & later Shane says to Ilya “Am I narcissistic for noticing that?” & Ilya is like Shane we have bigger fish to fry I think Luca pocketed the bones from the chicken wings we ate earlier