Sunflower petals

1) it’s in character for me given Santos’ history. That doesn’t mean she’s right or wrong, I just think it follows her code of ethics and the person we’ve learnt she is

2) it’s the first real emotion we see in Langdon that’s not the perfect rehearsed apologies he’s clearly practiced. it makes sense that he would be nervous and practice his apologies, that’s human BUT it’s nice to see his “I want an A in rehab” facade crack a bit

santos doesn’t have to accept langdons apology at all but asking him to go through a humiliation ritual of gathering the whole ER and telling them what he did feels more like projection of her own feelings. he humiliated her in front of other residents while in active addiction/withdrawal? now she’s going to ask him to do the same to “atone for his sins”. like im sorry but wanting an addict to go to jail feels a bit like cop behaviour lol

also langdon isn’t in denial his apology to louie showed that hes aware he committed a crime

like everyone in the hospital already knows why langdon was gone, and im pretty sure the hospital would’ve conducted some kind of investigation into a senior resident entering an addiction program. i would assume protocol would have them checking prescription history

both robby and santos are treating langdon the same exact way. robby because he doesn’t know how to process losing his protégé and the fact that langdon actually humbled himself, got help and actually came back. and santos because shes got very clear abuse related trauma and mental health issues. they’re both reacting the same way and parts of it does feel like projection.

whitaker knows what langdon did cuz he was the one calling in the opioids for louie, garcia knows cuz of her situationship with santos and being the first person santos told after langdon was sent home, dana and samira are aware and mckay is an addict herself and offers her support to him. which imo everyone else there is reacting in a normal semi detached way except robby and santos

and santos saying langdon came back from rehab and went back to being the golden boy when thats obviously false, and her telling garcia she feels like a pariah because she “snitched” on langdon and then being told shes a pariah because of her attitude and her wanting him to humiliate himself to make it up to her, like these aren’t rational responses and she’s clearly dealing with her own shit and not to forget we know that her best friend took her own life and shes dealt with sexual abuse as a child

santos is right in that langdon should have dealt with the repercussions of stealing drugs and she’s also wrong in some ways cuz addiction is a disease and there has never been good outcomes to drug related charges. rehabilitation is the way to go not prison. robby knew that too and its why langdons in a 5 year program.

Sam, 4x14: You're too busy sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. Whining about all the souls you tortured in hell. Boo hoo.

-> he's never shown talking about Hell again on screen

Bobby, 4x22: You stupid, stupid son of a bitch! Well, boo hoo, I am so sorry your feelings are hurt, princess! Are you under the impression that family's supposed to make you feel good?! Bake you an apple pie, maybe? They're supposed to make you miserable! That's why they're family!

-> he never tells anyone about how Sam betrays him after that

Sam, 7x13: Look, man, she was not yours. Not really.

It's okay if it takes a little longer than you thought.

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