does it look like i give a fuck?

everything is fucking racist and a hate crime against hudson but now that its been discovered that he was using racist slurs, making derogatory jokes about bottoming, walking around with a fucking SWASTIKA on his forehead and “aids” written on his neck, all of a sudden its crickets?

the man cosplays as a black woman, wears grills, uses aave and blaccent, uses a combination slur against black and chinese people on his finsta and yall have nothing to say? some of these fans knew about this since december 2025 and hid it?

come on i thought yall were social justice warriors who deeply care about racism and homophobia.

santos doesn’t have to accept langdons apology at all but asking him to go through a humiliation ritual of gathering the whole ER and telling them what he did feels more like projection of her own feelings. he humiliated her in front of other residents while in active addiction/withdrawal? now she’s going to ask him to do the same to “atone for his sins”. like im sorry but wanting an addict to go to jail feels a bit like cop behaviour lol

also langdon isn’t in denial his apology to louie showed that hes aware he committed a crime

like everyone in the hospital already knows why langdon was gone, and im pretty sure the hospital would’ve conducted some kind of investigation into a senior resident entering an addiction program. i would assume protocol would have them checking prescription history

both robby and santos are treating langdon the same exact way. robby because he doesn’t know how to process losing his protégé and the fact that langdon actually humbled himself, got help and actually came back. and santos because shes got very clear abuse related trauma and mental health issues. they’re both reacting the same way and parts of it does feel like projection.

whitaker knows what langdon did cuz he was the one calling in the opioids for louie, garcia knows cuz of her situationship with santos and being the first person santos told after langdon was sent home, dana and samira are aware and mckay is an addict herself and offers her support to him. which imo everyone else there is reacting in a normal semi detached way except robby and santos

and santos saying langdon came back from rehab and went back to being the golden boy when thats obviously false, and her telling garcia she feels like a pariah because she “snitched” on langdon and then being told shes a pariah because of her attitude and her wanting him to humiliate himself to make it up to her, like these aren’t rational responses and she’s clearly dealing with her own shit and not to forget we know that her best friend took her own life and shes dealt with sexual abuse as a child

santos is right in that langdon should have dealt with the repercussions of stealing drugs and she’s also wrong in some ways cuz addiction is a disease and there has never been good outcomes to drug related charges. rehabilitation is the way to go not prison. robby knew that too and its why langdons in a 5 year program.

robby making langdon second guess himself is one thing lol hes an attending but santos? my girl you dont even know enough to pull off a stunt like that 🫩 especially not when you just want to put in a chest tube for the thrill of it instead of paying attention to the patient needs

both garcia and al-hashimi trying to push her in the right direction of not getting testy with langdon but she just refused to take the hint lol

i also loved seeing the difference in langdons teaching style now that hes sober compared to last season cuz even though he was right he did berate santos horribly. writers and pball have done a great job showing langdons subtle changes in personality since he got clean.

if anything its mel who seems to have been left behind in some ways.

yet santos still feels like shes a pariah and imo garcia was right to call her out the way she did. she still doesn’t seem to take direction well and is visibly put off by al-hashimi agreeing with langdon. like my girl he is still a senior resident, he still does have things he can teach you and no you do not know better than him or your attendings proposed treatment plan for him.

it also does seem like a self fulfilling prophecy situation where santos is carrying a lot of guilt for what she did so shes pushed people away before they treat her like a snitch. but her attitude towards the other pittlings hasn’t changed much. im enjoying whatever this is and im going to enjoy the inevitable santos langdon scene where he has to apologise to her.

the intention was to address every single bit of shit the cast has dealt with and it truly isn’t a competition for who has it worse or whether they “deserve” to be upset by it or not.

hudson shouldn’t have to deal with racist hate and being called a “cross breed” or a queerbaiter the same way françois shouldn’t have to deal with a flood of comments calling him a pedophile and a groomer for allegedly dating an adult, his ex boyfriend shouldn’t be getting comments insulting the man hes on good terms with. connor shouldn’t have to deal with his sister and best friend getting comments encouraging connor to remain closeted and saying connor gets “passed around” by older men like a “toy” after getting outed by his ex.

homophobia and racism are serious issues on a societal level, they’re intersectional too along with misogyny. and acting like hudson is the only person who is allowed to feel hurt here completely negates the fact that calling queer men groomers and pedophiles is a conservative christian nationalist tactic thats been around for centuries and is being revived by the current administration. bans on drag queens, trans athletes etc. are all done based on those accusations. those same names are being hurled at françois now under the guise of concern for his age, so yes including “ageist” in that statement was necessary. every word of that statement was needed.

ultimately no one in the cast are the villains different sections of this fan base have made them out to be. and they care more about each other than any of these deranged fans claim to care about them individually. the françois that saw a racist troll in his comment section against hudson and made a statement immediately is the same man who, months ago, defended connor and hudson against jordan firstman and co pushing them to come out. hes never co-signed a racist hate train against his own friend.

hudson also is the man who genuinely cares about his friends and the harassment they’re receiving in his name and is more than willing to address it in the hopes that himself and everyone he cares about can be left alone in peace.

yall need to catch on that these men are very wealthy and very unprincipled lol politics is beneath them because it doesn’t affect them. they just dont care. they’re all just charmed that the PRESIDENT is talking to THEM.

dont attach yourself to displays of “woke” behaviour from them cuz yes the hughes brothers can talk about inclusion in hockey, can talk about caring about pride nights, can celebrate their mothers legacy and involvement in the womens team and then turn around feel audibly giddy about daddy trump sending them a jet to come meet him, can absolutely go shave their entire bodies to get cozy with a pedo president and his little sidekick, can casually go and celebrate with the womens team they just laughed at.

these men have no principles ‼️ austons the first latino captain to win a gold medal? his mother was also celebrating with christina marleau about voting for trump this past election. boldy can play for minnesota and still be tone deaf about the politics and ICE killings in the state and celebrate that he hung out with the director of the fbi. i saw someone upset that brock faber (?) isn’t their “woke king” anymore LIKE SNAP OUTKABDJDHDH

watching hr and having a lot in common with scott and kip.

the amount of loathing skip has been on the receiving end of has grated on me a lot since the episode came out. but like nevermind people are allowed to dislike a trope or a storyline and feel like they want more of shane and ilya. (even though imo having rewatched it, the six episodes work together very well).

what did piss me off is seeing takes about how episode 3 panders to straight people, particularly straight men, because the sex isn’t as explicit or the trope is like a het romcom and that kip is a kept woman, staying home and cooking for her man, like a majority of the blonde nhl wags are, so of course men who watch the show love that episode.

maybe im not wording this right but i dont like the implications of these takes. im not saying people aren’t allowed to dislike episode 3 but the reason behind it is what im looking at. cuz skips storyline is a lot more realistic than people want to acknowledge 🤷🏽 and there are queer people who see themselves in the peaks and troughs of their arc

idk just seeing that experience diminished as pandering to straights and giving them something “palatable” bothers me a lot. because neither scott nor kip were jerking off on demand before mouthing at the others crotch on all fours.

while gepetto creates pinocchio out of grief for the son he lost, the creatures entire existence is just collateral damage in victors quest to cheat death. one feels like a story rooted in love about an imperfect father and an imperfect son and the other is a son paying the price for his fathers crimes.

victor makes the creature out of grief for his mother and to stick it to his abusive father and his failure to save her life. the proprietary feeling he had over his mother and the need to “share” her with his own father and her husband 🫩 victor has romantic feelings for a woman that looks exactly like his mother, tortures the creature for receiving care and understanding from her that he feels like hes deserving of and cannot bear to “share” her with the creature thats technically his son. (not to mention his penchant for drinking milk. freud would’ve had a field day with this mf).

it reads like a role reversal. where victor has become his father and elizabeth is stepping into the shoes of victors mother only that the emotional bond isn’t with victor, its with the creature instead and he cant stand that.

the creature forgives his father and embraces his humanity by accepting life but the fact doesn’t change that victor doomed the creature to eternity alone and being perceived as a monster. victor would rather perpetuate the cycle of grief by killing elizabeth and inflicting the pain of losing the understanding and almost (maternal) love that she had, on the creature.

i’ve been rotating sullivan in my head like a microwave for like 2 days now. imo, he’s easily one of the best portrayals of repression and how masculinity and queerness butt heads especially in a hyper-masculine environment like the military.

clocking cameron the second he laid eyes on him lmao talk about a gaydar. his approach with mentoring/toughening cameron up was interesting, he seemed like a plain self-hating closet case when he directly says its his mission to take the weeds out , “if there are no f_____s in my platoon then why are you still here?”. then the moment by the trash cans felt like him realising his method had backfired a bit since cope felt like he didn’t belong. the encouragement to not “let some asshole run him out” and to claim his place revealed his intentions. some levity at the shooting range with how happy he was about camerons attempts. and how satisfied he was when jones gets his shit rocked during hand to hand combat.

i’m still curious about how much the “every man for himself” mindset impacts sullivan and if he saw cameron using ray and jones as crutches and thats why he kept trying to isolate him almost and fight for himself like he’d need to learn to do.

also gives a small window into what sullivans own experience as an 18 year old in boot camp must’ve felt like and what he was absorbing about how he should be since he evidently sees himself in cameron. the tidbit about being underweight and wanting to come back tougher to enlist only to have his recruiter cheat the system to fulfil his quota. his idealism on what the marines stand for and needing to make things right in the end shattering a bit 😮‍💨

and then wilkinson. i hate hate that i could perfectly explain every single thing sullivan did, right from maitra cornering him about the rumours and the optics of him spending time with wilkinson and then to him running away. not realising that his attempt at holding off maitras suspicions directly led to his lover being investigated and arrested.

finding out that maitra was the one who reported him based off of what sullivan told him during the wedding and all of it being after he leaves guam. so he goes back to parris island and just loses his shit. the guilt and his mess of emotions had me laying flat on the floor. it felt suffocating and him being unable to accept fajardos help just screams guilt, wilkinson didn’t have any help so does he deserve it? its all his fault anyway.

sullivans definitely an alcoholic or heading down that path quick. and the fact that he hears about aarons arrest and then drunkenly telling the recruits their ine true love will always be their responsibility as marines lowkey killed me. then the bar fight, the moment of hesitation before he swings the glass and how fast fajardo caught on that he’d rather face dishonourable discharge and jail time for attempted murder than have it anywhere on his military record that he’s gay. just kill me it’d hurt less.

this show isn’t like rue in euphoria levels of addiction and ruin. langdon hasn’t hit rock bottom that way and i doubt he will. as much as id have liked to see more of his storyline in the finale, im liking that we didn’t get it cuz thats actually what his character is going through.

cuz fuck knows how long hes been stealing from the hospital. all he knows is over the course of one shift, his entire life has blown up. he doesn’t believe he has an issue, but we also know being a doctor is more important than anything else and therefore he will go into treatment somewhat grudgingly and come to a different conclusion himself.

the clip that aired of him lashing out at robbie has taken a very “kick him out with the trash” tone that i hate. he got caught mere hours ago and his entire life’s about to get blown up yall expect him to be rational and just leave when he hasn’t even processed shit yet? and with the kind of personality he has too? be fr

maybe its solely a twitter thing or whatever but the utter lack of nuance in some very popular takes is annoying the living fuck out of me. the speed at which discourse turned into perfect child of god santos vs stinky junkie white man langdon is surprising.

and i love both of those characters because yes actually santos does have problems with authority, whether its past trauma or her personality itself, her level of abrasiveness and individualism isn’t actually good for an environment like a emergency room in a hospital and her being a resident who’s still learning.

and maybe no dont advocate for her to risk killing another patient just cuz you like a complex woc character? in that regard langdon was right in his assessment of her.

now coming to langdon, he absolutely should not be having this kind of beef with santos and robby calling him out for it was great. but its not that hard to see that he’s like an older version of santos, more accomplished and self assured but he’s just like her and he doesn’t know what to do when hes looking in a mirror his entire shift.

langdon is also a very high functioning addict and his behaviour and life outside of being a doctor is suffering due to his addiction. whether its being reactive with coworkers or impulsive at home and somewhat neglectful of his marriage, its a very good depiction of a certain type of substance abuse that often flies under the radar, the kind where people have a trouble with pain management and have a high tolerance to drugs and who dont show obvious signs.

he’s not wrong that involving police does make it harder to break through with certain patients but he also was freaking out alerting authorities that david might be the shooter and then was so relieved when he wasn’t and the blame wouldn’t come on him the guy in charge for not taking action.