manhid daw ako

irl, i live alone. irl, i am disabled. irl, that intersection and my lack of interest in partnering actively makes life really hard. everything is expensive. i can't always cook when i want to or have fresh ingredients, because my symptoms don't care if I want to cut up vegetables and eat something homemade before they go bad. if I have a bad flareup and getting up is not in the cards, that's it. i have what's next to me. the lack of social support for single folks, for disabled folks, for folks whose family care is inadequate or damaging... it's impactful.

I talk about how i once visited a place with an ex partner. i mention how our relationship started because i was pressured into it, and i wasn't really into the level of seriousness and 'forever' she treated it with. everyone says it's weird that i agreed if i didn't want it to be serious. i remember being 16, saying no, and a chorus of people telling me i was stupid and immature, that her family was rich, that we would be cute and to listen to them, not my heart. my heart was saying nothing.

i look at my current age and life goals. for many of my peers, dating and marriage and eventual kids are common goals. i am watching my rights erode and trying to practice good mental hygeine. my five year goal is to be alive. my next major life milestone is a nebulous desire to find a life i can tolerate living.

being aromantic significantly impacts my day to day. i want to see aro people living their lives, and doing so with joy. i want to see aro adults making it, ones like me. i want aro people to thrive. i want to live, aromantically.

Like, if it's maybe a tad bit lighter? Okay. I usually let that slide. God knows my mobile and my monitor look completely different, solutions ineffective so far. Maybe you're still learning skin tone vs background. Okay. I don't get upset at that.

Visible difference, but, I can let slide with exceptions. ✅

MC is definitely depicted as someone who does not need romance in her life to be happy. It is literally mentioned multiple times that, if not for the wizard making her life into a romcom and forcing her into romantic situations (which is treated as the fucked up thing it is - MC spends the whole runtime avoiding romance at all costs and spiting the wizard), she would've continued romance-less her entire life.

The only people she had gotten crushes on before were videogame characters. She befriends the love interests pushed onto her and just genuinely leaves it at that. She's also a great friend and I would give examples but that's a bit too spoiler-y.

fuck racism, shoutout to romani people

romanian roma, romanichal (england)

cale roma (spain), domari (palestine)

kale (finland), romanian roma

domari (jordan), ruska roma (russia)

It's so fair that you feel like no one cares, we live under media conglomerates that preach anger and fear non stop.

I promise you there are people out there working as hard as they can to change things, and to help each other, and even though they don't get the attention that the evil and the hatred gets they are real and they are out there!

Refusing to stop caring is an act of rebellion. I'm sorry the world is so fucked. Things are awful and I'm scared too, but I absolutely refuse to let them convince me that there's no hope.

Like. Okay. Step one of allyship is "I don't have to understand it to respect it," yes. Step two is "I also don't have to tell everyone how much I don't understand it." You don't have to say "yes, these people are super weird and abnormal and foreign, but I still think we should be nice to them and support them." You can in fact just say "we should be nice to them and support them." That is in fact significantly better, because you're not spreading the idea that they're super strange and different from everyone else. Especially because, you know, they can hear you.