the worst is wanting to create and create and create but being trapped in a body that is so so so so tired

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the worst is wanting to create and create and create but being trapped in a body that is so so so so tired

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I’ve seen quite a few people making jokes about how Aziraphale’s playlist is all light and fun, and Crowley is just sobbing to “Take Me To Church” in the Bentley—which is hilarious and valid.
But there was a hopelessly angsty romance part of me from my teenage years that reawakened with a VENGEANCE when I saw “I Will Follow You Into the Dark” on Aziraphale’s playlist and I’ve not known peace since.
It’s also An Experience to see them next to each other, those songs. Crowley’s sinned devotion loud and blaring in “Take Me to Church” while Aziraphale’s is soft and solemn in “I Will Follow You Into the Dark.”
I’m not going to survive this season.
you know what gets me about lord of the rings? evil is defeated by people who choose to fight against it without possessing absolute, or even very much, conviction that they can actually win. all the converging story threads that lead to the happy ending are carried out by people who are far, far more convinced that they will fail than that they will succeed, who had only the frailest, most foolish hope, who had blind faith and frequently wavering hearts not peace or ease or certainty.
middle earth isn’t saved because no one faltered or came close to despairing or who sank to their knees in weary defeat. it’s not saved by pride or conviction or even strength. it’s saved because enough people do what they have to do even if they have to do it in the darkness. in the dust. with the ashes of hopelessness and bitterness in their mouths. because enough people took another step. Frodo, Sam, Gandalf, Aragorn, Theoden, Boromir, Faramir, Merry, Pippin. And many don’t. For every hero there is someone who gives into the “reasonableness” of despair—Saruman, Denethor, Grima, even Gollum—but enough. Enough people said “it doesn’t matter if we lose, I will keep fighting” and then they do.
And that GETS me. It is the most hopeful thing about the lord of the rings to me. There is so much that sums up its spirit, so many beautiful quotes and moments, but to me it’s never been the most famous of the quotes about hope and love that hit me hardest but a line from the films. Before the battle for minas tirith, one of the soldiers says “we cannot defeat the armies of Mordor” and Theoden answers “no. but we will meet them in battle nonetheless.”
And I—That is the spirit that leads to the conquering of evil when it comes down to it, when we’re talking about the part played by humanity alone in the fight against evil. Not the conviction you’re going to win, not farsightedness into a perfect future, not perfect inner peace or certainty. But acceptance of the real possibility of defeat, of that defeat being more the reality, the future, of your life than the victory, and then doing the damn thing anyway because goodness is worth fighting for even if you lose.
"We have no hope without Gandalf."
"Then we must do without hope."
‘don’t you want your favourite character to be happy???’ no? i want my favourite character to be interesting. i want me to be happy. which sometimes involves my favourite character being in exquisite agony
Jiang Cheng’s arrogance and pride are actually really important for him to have as a leader. Arrogance has a negative connotation, but in the martial arts world of ancient fantasy China it’s a show of strength that Jiang Cheng has to put up.
In MDZS the sects are family-based (thanks, Wen Mao!) and so their power is very much like noble families, where people are loyal to the main inner family because, well, they’re the direct descendants of the founder. There isn’t quite the same “divine right of kings” as you get in European countries, but there is the implication that by virtue of family/bloodline, they should be in charge. This tracks with principles of filial piety, too.
However, Jiang Cheng’s entire family was murdered. He presumably still has relatives through his mother’s side (MeishanYu) but Yu Ziyuan married out, so he doesn’t have the same claim there that he would have with the paternal family. Since all the Jiangs would stay with the Jiang sect, they’ve all been killed, so he doesn’t have support from paternal family, either. What this means is that all the people who naturally would have been his disciples, all those that would have been under his leadership just because of his birth, are gone. (Sure there might be a few still floating around, who hadn’t been at Lotus Pier at the time of the massacre, but certainly not enough for a whole sect!)
So Jiang Cheng has to rebuild the Jiang sect based on merit. He has to convince rogue cultivators to come together under his banner, to follow him as their leader. He has to have that arrogance and pride, because if he is wishy-washy at all, who is going to follow him? He has to draw that around himself as armor, he has to be prickly, he can’t show weakness - not if he is to rebuild his sect and get his revenge.
And he did that himself. He had already drawn people to his banner and was already calling himself the Jiang Sect Leader before they found WWX. Even if people then joined the Jiang sect due to WWX, WWX wasn’t teaching them. WWX refused to teach anyone demonic cultivation, so who was the person actually teaching and leading these recruits? Jiang Cheng.
And WWX leaves the Jiang sect, and WWX dies, and Jiang Cheng continues to build the Jiang sect up. He’s all alone, trying his best to maintain a connection with his last living family (Jin Ling), trying to keep the Jiang sect independent and strong. Of course he has that attitude, of course people say that you shouldn’t offend the Jiang sect and especially not Jiang Cheng! He has had to defend himself and his position in a way that no other sect leader has, because it’s not just “should you be the leader” it’s “should this sect even exist at all?”
I do think the arrogance and competitiveness is a defense mechanism and I do think that these are flaws that can be leveraged to take advantage of JC, but I also think that flaws and strengths are two sides of the same coin. Without the arrogance to think that he could resurrect his sect and become a leader, would he have done it? Sometimes you have to fake it ‘til you make it.
Yes so much to all of this!!! This is all so true. One of the reasons one of my favorite novel passages is:
the most laughable one was the YunmengJiang Sect, the people of which either had been killed or had scattered, leaving only Jiang Cheng, who was younger than even Lan XiChen and was still a child born yesterday, who had nobody in his hands but still dared call himself sect leader, holding up the banner of rebellion as he recruited new disciples.
– Ch. 61 of the ExR translation
This is why I don’t think at Guanyin Temple Jin Guangyao was actually being entirely facetious when says, “Sect Leader Jiang, you’re truly extraordinary, the youngest sect leader who rebuilt the YunmengJiang Sect on his own.” before taunting him about ‘golden elixirs’ and trying to take those accomplishments away from him. The whole reason JGY’s so effective at unbalancing him is because he starts out with the truth!

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Rose Cotton was born in the year 1384 by Shire Reckoning, the second child and first daughter of Tolman Cotton and Lily Brown. The Cotton family lived in a farm on the South Lane, which was fairly close to Bywater. Not much of her youth is known, except that she and her brothers frequently swam in the Bywater Pool with the children of the Gamgee family, to which the Cottons were close.
love is so insane, it makes me want to build things. someone i love could say they're tired & wanna sit & my first thought would be "ill learn woodworking so i can build them a chair"
yo it’s literally november 3rd. what’s next the 4th? and then. no it can’t be.
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#don’t say wife don’t say wife don’t say wife GENTLEMAN JACK, Season 2 (2019-)

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Wonder what they’re whisperin’ about
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Read lord of the rings, they said. it will be fun and entertaining, they said. you will attempt to learn four languages, memorize dozens of names mentioned only once, sacrifice much of your ability to appear normal in conversations, and become a conditional flat earther, they did not say
Dear Rusty Quill. Listen. I've been at this for just under two years (22 months to be exact) and I've not even finished four seasons' worth of hoops. I can't do another whole show. Mercy. I'm only human. But these have raised 10k dollars to charity, so that's awesome at least.
the little guys I’ve been working on
Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves:
– Odysseus (Troy, 2004)

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Enemies-to-lovers, but instead of featuring a villain redemption arc, the heroic one is getting progressively more corrupt, unhinged and fucked up, and the one who was originally the clear-cut villain out of the two is just like "well mark me down as scared and horny"