mike✮

What bothers me is ASPD being reduced to "unfeeling tough murderer disorder" instead of the desperate understimulation that feels like you're behing crushed alive; the uncontrollable anger that feels like it's going to burst out of your chest; the ruining your body just to feel entertained for about a couple hours if you're lucky; the severe struggles with money because you can't control your spending to save your life; the loneliness because, not only does nobody wants to be close to a psychopath, but you also can't allow yourself to be vulnerable enough; on that line, the inability to form meaningful bonds even with those who are very close to you because your fondness is extremely muted and it vanishes as soon as you even begin to notice it; the possibility that you might end up in jail, maybe even die in there, one day; the childhood full of people who thought of you as nothing but a monster, and someone no parent would ever want to deal with; the inability to commit to things that you might otherwise enjoy because they inevitably stop being entertaining enough at some point...

The little dude in question:

here is my animal. i hate it when she looks at me like this cut it out.

We made our own because we felt the widely used one was... well, boring. We like the colors though so we just tweaked them a bit and gave them meanings!

Laurels relate back to the Greek origins of the word "Narcissist" while simultaneously representing victory, triumph, and glory; things many pwNPD strive for.

From top to bottom, the colors each represent different symptoms of the different subtypes of NPD, and their meanings are as follows:

Deep-red: the malignant subtype and it's symptoms

Red: the symptoms that are universal across the different subtypes; arrogance, entitlement and the need for attention

Orange-red: the high functioning subtype and it's symptoms

Orange: the grandiose subtype and it's symptoms

White: recovery

Light-grey: the vulnerable subtype and it's symptoms

Grey: the exhibitionistic subtype and it's symptoms

Deep-grey: the spectrum of empathy levels

Black: co-morbid disorders

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