Inside of my Brain

wait i just realised that maddie kept all of buck’s postcards at the hospital so she could store them forever in a way that was out of reach from doug. BUT!! she took the christmas one back home with her!! and it’s a canon fact that maddie love/d christmas! now thinking about maddie all alone during the christmas season with an abusive husband and getting that postcard from her litte brother and for a second she remembered why christmas was her favourite holiday. so she snuck it in her coat pocket, took it home and added it to the decorations.

tbh the funniest thing about terribly out of character seal!buck fics is the fact that 99% of authors never engage with the actually interesting premise of a far-fetched au (under which extreme circumstances would the character do this thing that goes explicitly against their textual characterisation // how much does changing this canon aspect change the core identity of the character) and instead just pivot towards "the rest of buck's history happened exactly as in canon but now his secret cool seal abilities/squad/history is suddenly important and he turns into a combat killer machine" at which point the fic is more of a winter soldier au than anything

one of my favorite things to do in limited perspective is write sentences about the things someone doesn't do. he doesn't open his eyes. he doesn't reach out. i LOVE sentences like that. if it's describing the narrator, it's a reflection of their desires, something they're holding themselves back from. there's a tension between urge and action. it makes you ask why they wanted or felt compelled to do that, and also why they ultimately didn't. and if it's describing someone else, it tells you about the narrator's expectations. how they perceive that other person or their relationship. what they thought the other person was going to do, or thought the other person should have done, but failed to. negative action sentences are everything.

⚠︎ ! your body has kept the score.

Many lgbt teenagers and young adults growing up on the internet today have socially conservative beliefs that they voice at all times that they got from their conservative parents which they’ve never challenged because they think the life experience of being gay or trans makes them politically progressive

This is why I hate it when people say something homophobic and then go “so you’re really accusing me, a whole ass lesbian, of being homophobic 🙄” like yeah

the situation with harry potter is kind of unprecedented in some ways imo because it is maybe the largest media franchise in history to be created & owned by a single person who still has direct creative control over it. who is also a billionaire with significant cultural/political influence. like the usual "no ethical consumption under capitalism" type excuses shatter on impact when the bigoted author in question is logging onto twitter every day saying explicitly that when you buy the tim hortons ravenclaw donut she is using your donut money to fund the genocide of trans people. like with big franchises usually there's at least a little more diffusion of responsibility than this

My woke take, as someone who has worked in both a public library and a school library, is that we desperately need both more books that are at a higher reading level but a less mature subject matter, and more books that are at a lower reading level but a more mature subject matter, because 8 year olds who are advanced readers are still 8 year olds and don't want to read about graphic violence and torture, and teens and adults who have learning difficulties or who are just later readers for whatever reason are still teens and adults and don't want to read about Billy the Bunny going to school or whatever the hell.

you're just mad because you're hungry and tired and your legs hurt and you head hurts and you're too hot and you have depression