Aurora's Adventures

It's true. I know this. It's not a lack of faith. He is with me and that is a comfort.

However I don't think that God wanted that to be a replacement for human relationship.

Anyway, I've been so lonely for so long that I genuinely can't remember the last time someone showed up on time to meet up with me. Can't remember the last time a hangout or meetup didn't get pushed back or canceled on me. Unless I'm spending money on someone, not even my own family shows up.

And I know everyone has reasons, and they're usually justified, but I'm so lonely. I wish I was a justified reason for doing anything. I wish I meant anything to the people around me without earning my keep.

Because that makes sense. Anyway, this poison would submit me to its well-known and much-feared symptom: "17 Day Paralysis" in which you're paralyzed for exactly 17 days and you only chance of survival is to be on full machine support for 17 days.

Just before the medical team intubated me I remembered I have a Zoom meeting with my academic advisor today (I actually do in real life) and I needed to email him to let him know I was the victim of a mass-poisoning and would need to reschedule.

I kept trying to type the "□" symbol in my dream but could not figure out how and gave up.

The other night I had a dream that I made a black hole in Anim8or with a functional gravitational lensing effect created with a Transparent class object. I did it in real life and it worked! Well... for the most part. If I can get rid of that shadow the "lens" is causing, I could potentially make something really cool with this idea.

For context, Anim8or is a quite rudimentary 3D software compared to Blender and paid programs. It doesn't even have physics or a particle engine.

Nonetheless, despite the things it can't do, and the fact that there are people out there on the internet who are genuinely offended enough that someone dares to use "outdated" 3D software that they'll actually take time out of their day to send me hate for it, it's still my favorite 3D modeler to use.

It's free, and it's so much easier to learn for beginners to 3D. If you're clever, you can make it do surprising things.

So I heard a few years ago that they've successfully grown tiny human brains in a lab that they call "brain organoids", which have consciousness and even rudimentary eyes.

And what did they decide to use them for? AI of course! Now people can "rent" these arrays of biological computers and use them for AI computing power.

Well, I just saw another video by the same person who has been talking about these organoids and reporting on the progress: Now they've restored brain function in donated cadaver brains, and are using it for research and drug testing. A step closer to "brains in a vat", and even uploaded consciousness.

That's when I came to this horrific realization: They have the technology to use human brains in AI arrays. They have the technology to resurrect or keep brains alive.

Imagine they get the ability to fully store brains and upload personality only to use us for AI data centers.