Robertβs death had hurt them all in different ways, but they all moved on eventuallyβmoved forward, moved up.
He hadnβt really ever stopped thinking about Robert Robertson the Third, and he didnβt think he ever would.Β
There had been many lovers over the yearsβbad lovers, good lovers, great lovers, people Chad could see himself staying with for a long time. Once, there was even a fiancΓ©. But none of them lasted.Β
They all stood in the shadow of a man Chad had never even kissed.Β
Heβd wanted to. Fuck, heβd wanted to.Β
It had been a tiny sparkβbreathed into life that very first day when that deep voice on the comms had called him out on his bullshitβthat had grown into a healthy fire over the months he knew their dry, witty dispatcher.Β
It hadnβt even dimmed at the revelation that Robert was Mecha Man; even as angry and betrayed as Chad felt in that moment, there was a part of him underneath it all that preened at the knowledge that they had history, that Chad was special.Β
Once heβd gotten over the fallout, heβd made all kinds of plansβdaydreams honestlyβabout how he could get closer, how he could make Robert want to touch Chad as badly as Chad wanted to touch him.Β
He thought about all the different ways it could happen.Β
He pictured a fiery meeting of mouthsβhot and sharp and angryβand it made his blood rush.Β
He pictured the slick slide of a cool tongue in his mouth, a skinny but muscled thigh between his legs, and it made his dick ache.Β
He pictured the soft, sweet press of dry lips against his, and it made his face flush darker than any filthy daydream ever had.Β
Heβd decided on that last one. He swore to himself that that was the kiss heβd getβthat would be his first kiss with Robertβand he spent days thinking up the perfect words to use to invite Robert out for that dinner heβd hinted at before. Alice coached him through the script he wrote until he could get the whole thing out without any insults or jeers or stray sparks falling out of his mouth, and he felt pretty fucking optimistic about his chances.Β
In the end, it hadnβt mattered. Chad would never get to say it to Robert. He would never get that dinner, or that soft, sweet kiss he wanted so bad.Β
The only time their lips had touched had been when Chase, preoccupied with chest compressions, had barked, βSomebody give him some fucking rescue breaths!βΒ
Visiβhands soaked in Robertβs blood, trying to keep it in while staying out of Chaseβs wayβhad looked up at Chad with wide, frantic eyes, and Chad had dropped to his knees and tried to breathe life into Robertβs lungs.Β
He knew, even as he did it, that it was hopeless. Malevola, their best healer, had already sat back, her hands laying still in her lap as her yellow eyes stared blankly at Robertβs face.Β
He knew it was hopeless, but he didnβt care. The three of themβChase, Visi, and Chadβworked on Robert right up until the paramedics got on the scene and labelled him DOA. Dead On Arrival.Β
They found out later that the bullet had passed right through Robertβs heart. He was unconscious in seconds, dead in minutes. It happened really quickly.
As soon as Robert fell, what was left of the Red Ring had gone crazyβlike cornered animals that knew they would die soonβand most of the team was stuck fighting them on the ground. It had taken a little less than five minutes for both Chad and Malevola to get up onto the roof, and by then it was already too late.
Heβd been dead before Chad had even gotten to him.Β
The only people there with him when he went were Chaseβwho was too fast for any Red Ringer to catchβand Visiβwho had apparently been on the roof when Shroud fired. Too far to stop it, close enough to have to watch it happen.Β
(And there had been Beef, who had curled up against his owner's cold side and whined until the moment Robertβs body was bagged and taken away, when Chase picked Robert's dog up and squeezed him and they all stood around saying nothing for a long time.)
Everyone took it hard, but it hit the four of them the worstβthey were so, so close, and they still failed him.Β
Chase carried the weight of that failure with him until the day he died. He left Beefβjust as old and gray as Chase by that pointβto Chad. Theyβd become pretty good friends, by the end. Turns out they had a lot in common.Β
The biggest thing being that neither of them had ever moved on. Chase mourned Robert right up until his last breath, and Chad fully expected to do the same.Β
So itβs pretty fucking lucky that heβs in a really good spot to fix things right nowβyou know, being magically thrown thirteen years into the past and all.Β
In the chaos of the battle, Chad whirls around just in time to see Shroudβs mech suit plummet into the SDN building, and immediately lights up and rockets toward the roof himself, heart beating out of his chest.Β
This time, heβll do everything right.Β
This time, Robert will live.Β
And this timeβhe falters, still a little flustered at the idea, even all these years laterβmaybe Chad will get that kiss.