Mutt

Temporary Intro

Name: Mutt

Age: 18

Pronouns: Anything but she/her

I am an alterhuman who is a paraphile, my paraphilias are FictoZoophilia (I am attracted to animals with human intelligence), AutoZoophilia, and Sadism. (I am Anti-contact)

I have a shit ton of animal/creature identities but my main ones are canines and horses.

I am an animal/creature on ALL levels. Do not refer to me in human terms.

I am plural and my plurality is connected to me being polykin. I experience my kintypes as non-autonomous shards of myself. A lot of my kintypes are associated with slightly differing traits and personality. Though the personality shifts are very small so it's near impossible to notice them from the outside. It's more of an internal feeling.

This blog is my main blog. It will contain NSFW and SFW content. I do not want minors following me.

Stances:

Pro-endogenic system, Pro-plurality of any kind, Pro-fiction, Pro-paraphilia, Pro-kink, Anti-radqueer, Anti-Censorship, Anti-contact, Anti-theist (I can never accept or respect any religion that believes in "one true god." I think it's cult-like and it makes me uncomfortable to be around religious people. Religion is a joke to me.)

(probably more stances, just ask.)

Question...So, what is it called when you have an attraction to something but it's not necessarily sexual?

Violence, fresh raw meat, and blood are very attractive and appealing to me. I could see myself being in a sexual situation associated with these things, but by themselves, i just feel a pull and a specific attraction to them. I also dont feel any groinal response as I would towards my other attractions. It could be because blood, meat, and violence have zero sexual traits while an animal has genitalia which would cause my body to natrually become aroused.

I dont have a good enough vocabulary to explain this feeling and i am horrible as identifying differences or similarities in levels of attractions. All I understand is that I absolutely LOVE blood, meat, and violence, but it's only sexually arousing when i put it in a sexual setting.

I genuinely am clueless about how attractions and sexuality work besides the basic stuff.

*An endogenic just casually existing*

Anti Endo: "YOU CANT HAVE DID WITHOUT TRUAMA, DIE DIE DIE, STOP INFILTRATING DID SPACES!!!!"

This is probably the most dense thing an Anti-endo can say. Nobody who is endo is saying they have DID, get a fucking grip.

Being Plural means to feel like you are MULTIPLE in some way, its inclusive for a reason. STFU and stop infiltrating PLURAL spaces with your "Cant have DID without trauma" BULLSHIT.

I fear not being able to comprehend fiction vs reality in terms of dark shipping is an intellectual problem...

Just left a comment on a tiktok defending paraphiles, im cooked. Trying to teach myself to defend what i believe in and i might have bitten off more than i can chew. The community on tiktok is very intense about this type of stuff.

The specific video was about someone calling another person out for openly being a zoo and calling them disgusting and telling everyone to basically harass and mass report them.

For those who are curious, this was the comment i left:

"z00philia is often a paraphilic disorder and an involuntary attraction. I have no problems with paraphiles as long as they are anti-contact and focus their attraction on purely fictional characters or scenarios. Since people cannot control their attractions, and conversion therapy is harmful and makes paraphilias worse/more likely to commit violence, the absolute best way to manage a paraphilic disorder is to go to therapy that teaches you not to feel ashamed or self-hatred for things you cannot control and to have a safe and healthy outlet for said attractions, such as expression through fiction or specific BDSM kinks with another consenting adult(s). Having a paraphilia and being a predator/abuser/r@pist are two different things, one is an involuntary attraction, the other is a consious choice. Yall can hate and report me for this but it's the truth, Idc."

I feel very lonely and online connection is not helping. I want to go out in the real world and meet real folks. But i feel like those folks wont have the same opinions I do or accept everything about me.

I do have one really good friend that i am so greatful for, but i cant help but feel like i need more. I need more connections. I need different types of connections.

I am very lonely and it feels awful.

I personally dont see myself (specifically my face) as unattractive, but I cant say the same about the rest of my body. I cant help but feel that others see me as nothing but disgusting and diseased.

I hate society for making these stupid and unnatural beauty standard. I hate society for making overweigt or fat folks feel so guilty and ashamed about being fat that they get fatter by comfort eating or being too depressed to even get out of bed. I hate society for making folks think crooked teeth are ugly. I hate society for making folks believe hair on female bodies is disgusting. I hate society for making folks believe that simply being ANIMAL is disgusting, dirty, and wrong. And I hate society the most for forcing those stupid standards into my mind and grooming me to believe them...

Fuck society.

Normalize and love the things they taught us to hate.

It's been a long time since I have interacted with the alterhuman community or even alterhumanity itself. I fear i dont know how to express my nonhumanity anymore. Or maybe i am too scared to? Idk..

we have to be very careful to avoid rq stuff since it's very triggering for our programming, but we also had a bunch of programmed headmates who were in those spaces recently (precisely because it's triggering for programming reasons). one of the things that helped them get out was being called "fakerad" over calling out the intersexism and transphobia in using ASAB language to mean anything more than the actual event of being assigned a gender at birth (ie, using it to refer to socially imposed gender, as shorthand for sets of sex characteristics, etc), and the realization of the sheer amount of intersexism specifically that was present. the understanding that triggering our programming so constantly was bad came later, but this specific group of headmates is luckily doing mostly okay now

I agree, it is VERY difficult finding beings who arent radqueer and support those things. I am happy we ran into eachother, my dms are always open for you!

Pretty recently i was interacting with the radqueer community, and on the surface they seem so kind, accepting, and supportive. The perfect community for somebeing who is desperate for acceptance and love by others. The perfect community for those desperate and mentally damaged folks to be groomed into believing harmful ideologies. Feeling as if no other option exists, convincing themselves radqueer is good so they can be ignorant to the harm to avoid leaving their loving, and supportive community.

It's sad to say i fell victim to it briefly. Until my good friend really made me think about what i was indulging in.

The radqueer community is not healthy at all. The whole time i was interacting with the community, teenagers were begging to be assaulted and groomed. Literally BEGGING for any predators to just hurt them so badly. It is awful. And you have to look the other way or you "Arent actually radqueer" and then you lose your "safe and loving" community.

There is so much wrong with that community that would take a whole 50 page essay to break down.

There are other options for love and acceptance. Radqueer is never the right option. They cannot be separated from their ties with harm.

I hate radnormals just as much as I hate radqueers. Sometimes you guys are just as bad as the folks you so violently oppose.

I love being nocturnal so much, but it's honestly no good for my mental health at all. So sad that something so affirming to me makes me feel like crap...

Please follow me if you are:

Alterhuman, Pro-Endogenic, Pro-Paraphilia, Pro-Kink, Pro-Fiction, Anti-Radqueer, and Anti-Contact.

Minors, do not follow. (Must be 18+)