i'm not giving up on you…

you're going to do incredible things

you're going to do incredible things

OR ‘PEAKED’

BUT PIQUED

‘PIQUED MY INTEREST’

YOU ARE NOT ‘PHASED’. YOU ARE ‘FAZED.’

IF IT HAS BEEN A VERY LONG DAY, YOU ARE ‘WEARY’. IF SOMEONE IS ACTING IN A WAY THAT MAKES YOU SUSPICIOUS, YOU ARE ‘WARY’.

ALL IN ‘DUE’ TIME, NOT ‘DO’ TIME

‘PER SE’ NOT ‘PER SAY’

BREATH - THE NOUN FORM

THEY ARE NOT INTERCHANGEABLE

WANDER - TO WALK ABOUT AIMLESSLY

WONDER - TO THINK OF IN A DREAMLIKE AND/OR WISTFUL MANNER

BALL- A FUCKING BALL

Loose- untight

Their = belonging to them

can’t = a contraction for cannot

Me realising there are some things I didn’t already know:

TWO- 2, A NUMBER BETWEEN 1 AND 3

WORD, THE MUSIC IS TOO LOUD,

THE SHIRT IS TOO LOOSE.

ROGUE: CRIMINAL/REBEL/VAGRANT/ETC

ROUGE: RED MAKEUP

If he’s not moving, he’s STATIONARY.

If it’s someone ruling over people, it’s REIGN

If you’re telling someone they’re going to have to reconsider an opinion or course of action, then they have ANOTHER THINK COMING

It’s “voilà”, not “viola”

If you take off all yer clothes, you are BARING your Body.

If you emotionally unload on your bestie, you are BARING your Soul.

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Your car has BRAKES.

like for one, it's just nice to have someone touch averse in the cast (he's just like me fr).

on a character level, it is the direct manifestation of his trauma. ushio's trauma has changed him, so he has new skin. his trauma has impeded his ability to make connections, so the new skin is averse to touch. it serves not only as a metaphor for how he has been changed, but as a barometer of his emotional state, an indicator to the audience of how averse he is to forming relationships.

it's also interesting that ushio's coping mechanism of choice is reading yaoi. it comforts him to read about the sort of relationship he cannot have: the physically intimate kind.

we, as the audience, know that ushio is part of an otome game and is positively surrounded by cute guys (one of whom looks like his oshi cmon). like, of course he can have his cute, tropey yaoi relationship! he's got all of day2 to choose from! but of course, in his own head, he thinks this kind of connection is impossible, and so indulges in fantasy; reiou can be in love, even if he can't.

Foreword: Ushio often uses fandom slang or terminology. These have been appropriated to English-speaking fandom terms to the best of my ability. While his novel does not contain explicit spoilers for the main story, it reveals much-needed context for how he acts.

Content Warnings are present where necessary at the beginning of each chapter.

Track 1 | Chocolate Pudding Track 2 | Gâteau au Chocolat Track 3 | Chocolate Ganache Track 4 | Orangette Track 5 | Fondant au Chocolat