yeehaw

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

goodbye discord hello drinkting motor oil

i fucking hate being an adult with a slowly increasing number of responsibilities its like one day you wake up and youre like aw fuck when was the last time i descaled the coffee machine

"theres gonna be a power outage tomorrow welp i better boil some water in advance!" "oh gee looks like its time to vacuum the carpet!" GET REAL?????? YOU SOUND INSANE

someday youre gonna be out of baking soda when it matters most and its gonna destroy you

they should invent a way for me to do tasks without the mind torture

i think a very hard lesson for me in my twenties was to stop ruminating on one mistake or conflict as the catalyst to destroy a relationship i would look for that one moment that “ruined” a relationship with someone and obsess over how i would fix it how if i had just acted perfectly this person would still be there. the truth is that if one mistake destroys your relationship with someone that relationship is not built on solid ground. a loving partnership (of any kind) is built on trust and commitment and there is room for conflict. a healthy partnership sees conflict and works to resolve it - yes, there will be difficult conversations but humans make mistakes it is literally impossible to act like a perfect person all the time and you will kill yourself trying and the right people will not run away at conflict - they will work through it with you. people who run at the first sign of conflict or a mistake are oftentimes not ready for true intimacy and are looking for an easy out. even if you had done everything “right” something else would have made them not want to stay because the right people stay. the healthy love stays

you can think someone's an idiot and not hate them. anyone who doesn't understand this has never had a coworker

not if i doom the narrative first.

“youre so mean” if you guys werent fucking stupid i wouldnt have to be mean to you. change starts with you

having anxiety is like being given permanent unwanted custody of a halter arabian. like okay buddy is it panic time again. cool you probably need more exercise and an apple and then maybe you'll calm down.

thoroughly enjoying the notes on this post because it's equal parts people with anxiety going "yeah that's what it's like" and people with arabians going "yeah that's what they're like"

Some folks were asking about how it sounds so here's a video I posted to twitter!