Violet

I can't do this anymore chat. I'm unable to cope with my daily life stress. I use all the coping mechanisms at my disposal but it doesn't work. And in the back of my mind it's always there and I'm always thinking about it.

I love my obsessed bf 😍

Always thinking about it in the back of my mind.

I was clean for SO LONG. And now I'm seeing someone and I have to hide it from him which is dishonest, but I don't want to talk about it. He's gonna see my covering and ask about it and I'll have to lie. I feel like shit. I feel like such a bad person.

I relapsed for no reason everything was going so good my life is perfect right now what's wrong with me

Things are going so well. We're seeing each other like at least twice a week, going out, doing stuff, eating together. He drives me everywhere. He pays for everything, gets all the doors for me, holds my hand everywhere. He's absolutely obsessed with me and I'm obsessed with him, but we're still taking things slow and learning about each other. He texts me whenever he has any free time. He reminds me to take care of myself and I remind him to take care of himself. I'm so fucking lucky.

Sorry for the worry everyone, I'm doing really well, I was just having a moment last time I posted. I've been really busy going on dates and hanging out with the guy I'm seeing 💜

He got too close so now I'm splitting! Time to day drink!!! Now I can't take my sleeping meds tn bc it'll literally kill me!!!! I love sabotaging my life!!!! It feels so good!!!!