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i just realized everybody calls me by my username on here lmao yall just so you know my name's birdie <3 (no this wasn't meant to be a Nikolai reference but it kind of is now but not fully it's mostly smth else but it's complicated yk)
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i just realized everybody calls me by my username on here lmao yall just so you know my name's birdie <3 (no this wasn't meant to be a Nikolai reference but it kind of is now but not fully it's mostly smth else but it's complicated yk)

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A lot of "progressives" on this hellsite in particular would benefit from understanding that all oppression is ultimately economic in nature (that is, the primary axis is RICH versus POOR). Other forms of bigotry, including racism, sexism/misogyny and ableism exist to reinforce the division between rich and poor (and by "rich," I mean billionaires and CEOs, not surgeons, actors or anybody who simply owns a house). So when discussing any kind of bigotry, the first question has to be:
"How does this bigotry benefit the RICH?"
Racism initially existed to rationalize chattel slavery (free labour for the RICH), and today is also used to convince poor whites that non-whites receiving social benefits comes out of their pocket (the RICH deflecting their faults onto another party)
Ableism benefits the RICH because, to the RICH, a POOR person's only value is their labour, "productivity," and "usefulness." If you're not "useful," you're irrelevant to the system controlled by the RICH.
Misogyny exists because conditioning men to hate women sets them up to accept other forms of hatred (racism, ableism), and with it imperialism and authoritarianism. And conditioning women to hate themselves makes them believe the notion that their only purpose is childbirth. Capitalism benefits from producing as many workers as possible; that's the real reason people like Musk are so concerned about birth rates and shit
Trans women, men and enbies are oppressed because the RICH want to subject us to the above anti-male and anti-female prejudice. Note that the "anti-male" prejudice spoken of here is still (trans)misogyny because it's rooted in the idea that being feminine is contemptible, especially in those who aren't meant to be feminine in their eyes.
Bigotry stems from the bigot's perception of a person, regardless of what they really are. So if a misogynist sees their victim as a woman, it's misogyny, no matter if the victim is a cis woman, a feminine cis man, a trans woman, a trans man (whom Patriarchy sees as a woman), or enbies of any kind.
All propaganda to be racist, sexist/misogynist, ableist, etc. exists for the benefit of the RICH, and is spread by them to that end. No one, including those one might see as "privileged," is inherently, irredeemable evil. One is only "evil" vis-à-vis how they relate to the RICH/POOR axis.
i have a suggestion
has anybody read a fyolai fic that has the premise of circus performer nikolai x government state official fyodor, where fyodor comes by the circus every day cause he's some kind of collector, PLEASE IF U KNOW THE TITLE TELL ME, I swear I'm losing my mind trying to find this
I remember so much about the story but i don't remember the title. I EVEN HAVE SCREENSHOTS OF CERTAIN QUOTES FROM IT, I don't think I subscribed/bookmarked the fic for some reason... please help.. IT WAS WRITTEN SO BEAUTIFULLY THAT I STILL REMEMBER IT TO THIS DAY
I don't mind at all if the fic turns out to be deleted by the author, I would just like to know what the name is, because I swear it was the most amazing piece of fiction i have ever read, the characterization, the setting, like holy shit, god bless you author
fyodor anemia
sometimes i remember that non french speaking people don't know feldup and that makes me very sad for y'all

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Make yourself using this picrew and tag who you want!
@meadow-roses (Meadow!) @loftwingofcrimson (Lo!) @unknown-art-loverr (Lo friend!) You wanna join? :3
omg you look so cool @nccflame thank you for the tag!!!
I love the night sky so so much❤️🩹
tags!!: @imnotafraidtodisappear @the-aricher @talesofruby01 @waytoomarvelobsessed @wallyblack1925-offical + anyone who wants to do this its so good!!
thanks for the tag!
npt: @redwinesupanover @foundheaven013 @yourlocalchronicdaydreamer @i-love-my-gays @bumbylbee @sufferingfromsimp @qu4k33 :)
thanks for the tag! the markiplier bg is my favourite thing ever icl
@too-sapphic-to-function @stxrrstruckk @youngjusticerulez @yoursleepdemon @your-fav-idiot-lesbian @andimissmylovergirl @natalies-ghost + open tags
ty for the tag!!
tags: @eldest-daughter-syndrome @blackmercure @myosotis-elinora @corviddionysus777 @coquette-maul @suasidol @lOvelyly @prosperoisadiva @obsessive-procrastinator @redwinesupanover @thatfantasynerd @your-local-book-hoarder @genderenaissance @the-broken-stargazer @star-froggie @divyasoup
Ty for the tag hehe!!!
@idonthaveagoodideaforausername @leo-a-nb @imawritingzombiez @fluffypotatey @liliesareblooming @kyokoliveswithsayaka and anyone else i've forgotten/anyone who would like!!
Ty for the tag!!!
I haven't dyed my hair in a long time so it is just blonde
@astrophelthegremlin @moris-i-cant-move-it-anymore and whoever else wants to participate
Just got a new haircut
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Thanks for taggin’ me, Moris.
Thought I could stop using my persona in these for a while,, decided to just make— well, me.
(also, couldn’t forget the monster… 🫧)
yayaya!! tysm sumar!!
it's me!! n what I would wear!!!
IM A FREAKINF CHUD TS MADE ME LOOK SO NOT VERY FLILIPIPO (filipino)
This outfit was from when I was at a christmas party and some mfs mistook me for a teacher- 💥💥💥😠😠😠
Anyways here's like a one handful of moots..
@jaedyn-here @puppetthephighter @askthesonnellin0s @prime4vel-primat3 UHHH WHO ELSE DO I KNOW😨😨
I swear I'm not European guys IM NOT LEGIT IM A TAGALOG SPEAKING PINOY😭-
are you sureee,,,,…. /j
anywho take my idiot alien persona which is sort of inspired off of myself while still adding stuff that isnt from irl me lmao
at first i didnt wanna keep the eyelashes until i remembered i have ridiculously long princess eyelashes i dont fucking know man 😭😭 TAGS UNDER CUTTT
Hehehehe
yo aedyn we chose the same shirt lol
@gmtgab
ty for the tag:) super fun
hmmm @mattieandthescouts @jupitersaturnn @detectivelions @versussystem thats probably enough... + open tags ... /notforcing to anyone but its really fun lel
desert duo background is wildddddddddd
@cassandra41924 @dinkingmyoiter6 @dirac-equation WHAT HAPPENED TO MINERS CAT but we continue i’ll deal with that in a sec @corvidcrowned @luenacchiiii @trexzila @snowdinstars @tupiichees @dinkingmyoiter6 @arcturus-dreaming @min3rs-cat oh it works now ? @yourfriendslushi3 and open tags !
pleh
@harusukiihearts, @moumyu, @goldenrat3, @caurolla, @tamalestars4352 even tho I already know what u guys look like lmao ToT
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thanx so much for the tag, these are all so cute!
heres the link!
and heres me! ❤️ tag whoever
SHOUTOUTS JUKE thats one of me goats...
gullp...i lowk look like a chud but its ok...
@gabagooblin57 if u wanna 😼
WOAH HI GUYS
Really liked the bow tie option…
@disassociated24 @smeefy-smoofy
woah thanks for the tag!!
I tried to make it as close to irl me as possible
fun fact! I actually have a shirt and hoodie that look exactly like that! and beads!
@leninlennon @mike-the-star-collector @starisaloser @elkkgrrrl @earlymorningbluesandgreens
i didnt see the bg option so… yeah uh ok so my hair is super flat so this isnt ENTIRELY accurate but we ball!!! also i have more acne. booooo.
uhhh im gonna tag @ein-asahina @imperial1976 (though you dont have to - i’m just running out of people to tag) and uhh uh uhhh i dont know anybody else 🥹
thank you for the tag!! go my cat ears
@mysticlael @wetwater7n @a3dsunny
Maximum tuff aura
@nikolaitoeseporators @sillygoobr64
this is a jojo reference if you squint hard enough
@nikolaieatchildrensin-1983 @penelopeforprauge9 @nikiranz
Tehehehhh
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Im lazy to tagg peoples (≧ヘ≦ )
I was so geeked when i saw it had lemon demon stuff
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this was very fun to make!! i tried to do it as close to reality as possible :P idk if my moots imagined me this way, or if they imagined me at all haha
@lowkeykindahungry @sillyluxky @lowlifespender @meows3rz
tw : very bright colors
little fyolai animation i made. i can’t put music on it yet because i don’t have enough storage on my phone to reinstall capcut haha, we shall wait. i will though! eventually.
what are your thoughts ?
fun fact : the quote comes from a youtube video by feldup who’s in my opinion one of the best french youtubers ever. here’s the screenshot :
(it comes from his video on basilisk 2000 if anyone wants to check)
anyways yeah i’m doing a bit better, fyolai is cheering me up as always. i try not to go on the internet too much, at least not to interact with people since i watch a lot of videos, i just don’t wanna see hateful or condescending posts everywhere i go as i usually do, wouldn’t do wonders to my mental health i think.
so yeah !! little cute fyolai animation !! yay !
imagine caring about someone so much that you feel like the only way you can get rid of your feelings for that person is by ending their life. And people have the audacity to pretend nikolai isn’t queercoded
[talking about my favorite characters] okay so THESE two come in a bonded pair and if i think about them too hard i start taking poison damage
Nikolai Character Analysis: How Nikolai is a metaphor of humans interpretation of morality and good vs evil
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Nikolai has a lot of elements in a character who has a very small portion of screen time/manga panels, yet he's conveyed in such an excellent way that gives so much insight on his character from his words in the manga in a matter of minutes, and how much he contributes to our world as a whole.
Today for now, I'll dive into one of the many aspects of Nikolai's character, and that will be how he is a metaphor of human beings perception of good vs evil in a black and white lens with his conversation with Atsushi.
For starters, a quick establishment on the idea of what I mean with humans having a understanding of good vs evil and what plays into the morality of humanity:
There is a term for the saying "Black and white lens", that being dichotomous thinking or polarized thinking. It is a term used to think in extreme ways and not able to consider or see through the "grey areas" of a person or a thing, hence the saying "Black and White lens".
"People with black-and-white thinking may also struggle with compromise. Rigid thinking or insisting that there’s only one “right” way to think or act in a situation."
While dichotomous thinking is a cognitive condition, I think it's rather normal or common to have this perspective. By normal I mean a lot of us have a "Black and White" thinking for everything or something specific.
An example can be used to associate someone or something from a group or community and how they present themselves as an individual instead of what their labels are. A bad experience from something or someone can leave an impact in you to conclude if that person will impact your view on a whole community or not
This is what dichotomous thinking is. You see a person or things either fully "black" (fully evil or corrupted) or fully "White" (all good and cannot do anything wrong) while some situations like a black or white thinking can work for individuals who commit to disgusting actions, there are situations where a "Black and White lens" cannot work.
With what I have established, I'll use Nikolai as an example of dichotomous thinking with his conversation with Atsushi:
Nikolai is established to be a member of the decay of angels; A terrorist organization that serves to destroy Yokohama entirely and bring chaos.
In the manga, Nikolai describes the Decay of Angels as divin figures who will bring Yokohama and the Ada to ruins, but when shown tied up in front of the Ada, he acknowledges and admires the Ada's determination and persistence of wanting justice and righteousness, but says he chooses the Decay of Angels because it's "more fun!"
I think this highlights Nikolai is a subtle way of conveying he's a morally grey character who can acknowledge what is good and evil but still has his own morals and idea of free will.
The scene with atsushi and Nikolai helps us understand the idea of a human with a person who is in a view of black and white lens. Humans make bad decisions and even despicable ones as shown from Nikolai's actions throughout the manga, but they are humans at the end of the day.
Nikolai has murdered numerous people before and has committed acts of terrorism. Atsushi ask nikolai why he kills and he gives atsushi two answers; he finds it "fun" and calls himself a monster who has no humanity or remorse. He dehumanizes himself to atsushi so he does not feel sympathy when he dies. However, he gives atsushi another answer; "I am completely sane. I understand the evil of murder. I feel a sense of guilt like other people."
I think the reason why we are so quick to dehumanize bad people (whether their actions are small or big) and say they are "not human" is to believe they are nothing like us. Humans cannot do bad things but monsters do. It's the easiest way for the brain to understand something simple, rather than to conflict itself with what humans are capable of doing, which is exactly what nikolai is aiming for. He is doing what no "normal" human would do. Commiting acts that only a monster would do from a Humans eyes. He wants people to show what he is capable of; to open their eyes at his "freedom."
Nikolai is also a good example of not knowing if the people in your life are secretly bad people or have flaws of their own behind closed doors. We believe that nobody we know has flaws, which results in infantilized ideas of people and humans to be something perfect. In this situation, Atsushi is us seeing a monster who acts like a "human," when that is far from that when looking at Nikolai's character.
Nikolai breaks that perspective of bad people who do bad things as humans who can be normal and sane. Someone who has flaws that are all presented on the surface and exaggerated in order to delude others of the idea of what humans really are, this way from Nikolai is almost a mercy from making them go mad or even more blinded just like him.
Nikolai can represent the aspect of Humans perspective on the concept of "good vs evil" through a black and white lens. Humans want to be right about something, it's a natural instinct to do. To die from a "monster" who's not human gives you a sense of closure, that you were right about something. While with the idea that you could have been killed by a human just like yourself, you delude yourself to thinking they're not, but the uncertainty haunts the back of your head. Never knowing if you were right or not. Wondering what humans actually are. What they are capable of?
Nikolai portrays himself as this emotionless being, a monster who's lost all his sanity and gone mad, a demon inside of a Humans body. It's the most human thing he can give to someone to not crush their disillusion. But he's not an insane man, he's aware of everything around him and others and feels guilty for his actions. As mentioned before, he is human.

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hey uh I’ve been feeling the angst and the dread a lot while going on tumblr for a few days now. idk why.
i kinda feel off and want to disappear and start stuff over but i can’t and i hate that.
posting on this website really helped me feeling better about myself but i feel like i’m getting back into the old negative stupid thoughts i used to have about myself and into this weird spiral of guilt and self inflicted punishment i posted about like a year ago (posts that i suppressed because i got hate on them and i couldn’t handle it at all at that time). i am kinda worried about my future too, like i’m really clueless about what to do and it stresses me out. it’s the summer holidays too btw and i feel guilty for not working even though i hate schoolwork and i don’t have any currently. i also don’t really feel any empathy towards my family members anymore, i just really don’t appreciate them and they annoy me more than anything, and i feel guilty for it too. i tried to focus on writing and it always comes off as something i wanna spit on and step on and tear apart with my teeth. not only my creative writings but just random stuff like this post.
i feel stupid and dumb and like i hate everyone even though i don’t. i hate myself for having interests and enjoying things (again! haven’t felt that in so long haha). i just really feel like i need someone to understand what i feel but i CAN’T EXPLAIN IT WELL WITH WORDS AND IT PISSES ME OFF SO FUCKING MUCH !!!!! because NO ONE GIVES A FUCK IN MY SURROUNDINGS !! i don’t enjoy anything anymore really. and don’t tell me to talk about it to my therapist, i’ve been doing that for two years.
so yeah i don’t know and i can’t handle staying with my family anymore too and why do people YELL all the time for no reason when they KNOW i can’t HANDLE yelling nor loud noises due to autism. i feel like i need stuff to get OUT but NOTHING IS ENOUGH TO GET THE STUFF OUT AND I HATE THIS FEELING OF HATE AND DREAD AND GUILT I WISH I COULD JUST STOP FEELING ANYTHING OMFG i can’t continue doing that
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BSD reblog game! your blog name/username is now your ability - describe it :3
I think mine would be something related to emotions - being able to make them void or warp them in a way - eh I'm kinda out of ideas rn but I can get back to it later ig
get creative cause some of yall's usernames will need a bit of thinking
@dazaisbaldspot @ryuwantsrevenge @spiralingbackintime @sincerelykomi @cmd-shift4 @dazai0s4mukun @dazaistealingchuuyashat @ayanes--doll--mine--expo + open tags
FUCK this is hard..okay Komi means communication and it was based off the show Komi Cant Communicate so I think it’ll make my victims silent and unable to speak for a certain period MUZHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH EVIL ME
@dazai0s4mukun @elisemarionette @nikolaieatchildrensin-1983 @h0ll0wgast @schizomollys @jiraihoshi @malacemizerhater + open tags
:)
ill become a urban myth tehe
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It’s self explanatory.
I’m going to become Kirby and vacuum the whole world up.
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vivisection…
self-explanatory, cutting people up while they’re still alive. HOWEVER if we wanna make this a bit deeper, uhh… maybe being able to delve into their selves, "dissect" their thoughts or feelings for a limited period of time ? it should rly have a limited use of some sort or it’ll be too powerful in battles but i am not inspired lmao.
Tags : @meows3rz @lowlifespender @oscars-fear-of-everyone @liamas2tine + open tags !!

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Damn really called her out huh?
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and so what if I DO.
i messed around with my other nicknames because i wanted to see how long it'd take for the generator to repeat a prompt
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I had to Google what a jeroba is, but even the mere thought that I'd hesitate to pet this is sacrilege or smth like tha-
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Lol here are all my names 💔💔💔
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Thank you so much for the tag!!
I'm not even sure that's a headcanon, i think it's just canon 🤔
No pressure tags!: @funnythingsidk, @n1n1n1k0lai, @lowkeykindahungry and everyone else that wants to do this!!
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UHMMMMMM. I have never seen any head cannon more accurate that this, what is this black magic...
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are we sure about that
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