I fear the future

–That is up to you.– he coos, his lips curled into a comforting smile.

Lee wouldn't describe it that way though. He sees through Gaara's mask and he knows what really is there behind those eyes. To Lee, it is nothing but a bare-faced manipulation. A knife dulled just enough to make the cut last longer.

It’s not a smile. It’s the slow parting of jaws before a bite. A grin that reeks of blood and patience — the kind predators give when they’re already full but still hungry for the sport.

There’s nothing warm behind Gaara’s eyes. Just cold observation. Like he’s already picturing what Lee would look like torn open.

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Like DAMN! i was cooking with gas for this excerpt. Like, its not perfect but it's pretty good. I'm very rarely proud of anything i do but this is kinda good

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🚧: I'd say that incest is still kind of a no no thing for me especially between parent/child except in very specific situations. Ig it's more the romantization that gives me the ick. Otherwise... Unless it super fetishized, nothing really irks me that much (that i can think of lol i searched for like lists of stuff and nothing really made me go "yeah that's a big nono")

Ivan and Till used to be friends as kids but then ivan got jealous over Till talking to other people so they had a really bad argument and Ivan was too proud to admit he qas wrong so they stopped being friends. As time went by Ivan became a jock and a fuckass bully towards Till and Till is rightfully pissed because "goddamit we used to be friends then you became an asshole out of nowhere!" Of course he can't easily forgive Ivan.

Ivan's feelings for Till never went away even though he tried. He thought that if he got away from Till and treated him like shit his deviant feelings would eventually stop (because he's a dumbass). They obvious didn't because that's not how homosexuality works, and Ivan came, somewhat, to terms with it by trying to excuse it with "Till is somewhat feminine so it's not that bad" so he tries to rebuild a relationship with Till in secret (because he knows it'd be social suicide to publicly become friends with the emo fag). Till obviously hates that idea because he doesn't want to be someone's dirty little secret but he also misses ivan so he kinda accepts it, but he often turns Ivan away with "Its almost time for practice, no? You wouldn't wanna be seen with the emo fag, would you?" And just kinda hurtful shit in general

Tl;dr

No escape au because that's my new obsession ig

You have to trust me on this one this was supposed to be fem ivan lol

Storyboard for the comic i made

Studies also for the comic lol

And werewolf Till getting railed but i got too lazy to draw ivan

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Hm I don't know. I haven't drawn Luka and Hyuna so logically they'd be the hardest ones to draw lol

Plus my difficulty lays more on certain body parts rather than a whole

But between the 4 i draw id say

Hardest: I'd day either Ivan or Till, mostly because their hair gives me headaches and I'm still not used to Drawing men even after almost 2 year's of mostly drawing men

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I'm sorry this took so long i was about to go to sleep but i had to write this so I'm sorry if this isn't very coherent

He has always just kinda like this. But it could've been prevented from getting this bad.

Ivan's home life was extremely dysfunctional, his father (Unsha) was Abusive (towards him and his mother) and his mother (his wife i forget if she ever had a name) had an incestuous attachment to him. They were poor and lived in a neighborhood where people appeared dead almost everyday, no one cared and the police did basically nothing.

Unsha was a killer himself and he forced 8/9yo Ivan to learn and watch, the same way he now does with Till. At first he had the normal reactions like vomiting, crying and refusing to partake in murder, but through punishments and "positive reinforcement" Ivan learned that the best he could do was follow Unsha's orders.

One night, Unsha was passed out drunk and Ivan's mother convinced him to kill Unsha. "It will be better once he's gone, baby! It'll be just you and me... Just us! Kill him and we'll be free!" She said. And Ivan, little 11yo Ivan, believed her and did what she told him to do.

After, Ivan started to feel a sort of hollowness he couldn't name, nor had time to try and process it because; "you're the man of this house now, Ivan. You're my man now. My beautiful man." She'd say. She started raping him.

Years went by where Ivan felt power against his mother until one day, not loong after his 16th birthday, she called him her "husband" and he snapped. He killed her, beheaded her and speared her head on the fence.

After he killed her, he felt the hollow go away. But then it came back. So he figured that killing equals not feeling hollow.

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Now, I'm gonna be honest. At first i didn't wanna write him to be a victim, i wanted him to be evil for the sake of it but i figured it'd be boring lol.

What's your No escape au about? I watched alien stage yesterday (or the day before) and now I am consuming all content. (I'm also intrigued by the Till torture you made art of).🫶🫶🫶🫶

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Oof there's a lot that comes to it. In THIS post theres basically the outline of the whole au (recommend you to go to the comments because i added info there) plus other posts in the no escape au tag.

But summarizing it:

Till was a stalker that ended up stalking the wrong guy (ivan) and breaking into his House just to become Ivan's prisoner and plaything. Ivan is a crazy guy who practices extreme torture on people and forces Till to do the same. Depending on how Till acts during the torture Ivan will either reward him with intimacy and love or punish him by torturing him (in less lethal ways because he doesn't want yo lose his little toy just yet). But even in the domestic moments Ivan still will be aggressive just to keep Till on edge.

Also a lot of vomit