at the end of the day i still feel unwanted,

i still feel like she's the one you need,

she's the only one who makes you laugh like i always dreamed of,

she's the one you talk to all the time,

she's the one you prefer deep down.

if i died right now.

life's been too hard lately, it's been really complicated being sane with everything that's going on in my mind.

so many thoughts, so many wishes,

so many dreams of becoming someone healed, someone who doesn't need this much care,

someone who's not traumatized.

over and over and over again.

you're so patient,

but you don't deserve this.

now that i met someone who truly loves me,

i can't help but keep being so fucking stupid.

every mistake that i do,

i'm afraid you'll get tired of me,

of waiting on me to become

and base all my happiness in whatever they do with or to me.

why can't i function properly,