To Be Mentally Ill

Hit or Miss

I’m pained to remember your memories The ones you couldn’t hold You’ll find the missing pieces In your head, in the cold And now I’m pushed out screaming Please Someone else go instead

Not easy.

When I was diagnosed bipolar, my mom said “I don’t think so.” When I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, my mom said “I hope you feel better.”

I’m pained to remember your memories The ones you couldn’t hold You’ll find the missing pieces In your head, in the cold And now I’m pushed out screaming Please Someone else go instead

Just One

in what i can remember of my life there is no happiness.

To be mentally ill and struggling with depression and generalized anxiety since i was thirteen has been a battle. Today I am 22 and I am finally one year clean of self injury in a long and constant battle of dealing with it for nine years. If you asked me when I was thirteen if i would make it to where i was today , I wouldn't have believed you for a second. I can say i am very proud of myself.

Just One

in what i can remember of my life there is no happiness.

I've suffered for too long and my mental illness feels like the only constant I have right now. I've been so attached to it that I never want to see myself recover.

I have everything. Everything. I’m an heiress to a million dollar company and I have friends and a happy family and a nice house. But I’ve been depressed for 6 years. And I don’t know if I’ll ever really be happy.

All I want is to have someone notice the hell I have in my head and help without me asking.

I haven’t heard from you in some time. Are you still alive? You used to cry, Imagining the end. I just want a friend To notice how I am not you Anymore. I think too often Of the end. I don’t wish For conclusion, But I wonder. I wish I were you Again.

I say I am heartless, but the real problem is I have too much heart and feel too deeply.