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Literally, Gooseworx hate goes like this: Indie animation is made by amateurs and Gooseworx makes beginner mistakes, so she's a bad creator and should stop creating

The internet really hates beginners… They don't want to see the process, they want everything to be perfect…

What the fuck do you expect from "Indie," that everyone will create perfect work? You're literally taking away the only medium beginners have because you're a bully no one loves

I criticize Thomas Asatruc because he's been creating for years and has been in the industry long enough to know what he's doing, but fucking indie animation? Have you really lost your minds?

when I see content of data sora and riku living in peoples gummiphones I imagine this

Hi, I decided to write this because I’ve seen the Digital Circus fandom turn into a huge war lately… and I wanted to put my thoughts somewhere about what I’ve been seeing.

I don’t want anyone to change their favorite character or “excuse” anyone’s mistakes, but I do want to maybe open people’s minds a little about REAL people…

I’m going to ignore arguments.

I genuinely just want people to think for a moment, so if this text reached you, I hope you always have amazing people in your life (:

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So… Gooseworx has said multiple times that Jax is kind of a self-insert for her, while also constantly calling him a “bad person,” insulting him, treating him like TRASH.

People usually ignore the first part (the self-insert part) and blindly embrace the second one (“trash,” “terrible,” etc).

But let’s talk as creators for a second...

A LOT of people write self-inserts not as “this is my idealized self 🥰” but as:

“this is the side of me I hate / fear / feel ashamed of.”

And Jax REALLY feels like that kind of character...

Because he’s annoying, cruel, avoids intimacy, mocks everything, runs away from vulnerability, provokes others before they can hurt him, acts like someone desperately trying to seem impossible to reach.

That is a VERY real defense mechanism. VERY real.

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And when Gooseworx calls him “trash,” “terrible,” etc… honestly, I don’t read that as “look how evil he is.” I read it more as: “this character represents parts of myself that deeply bother me.”

Especially because authors are usually MUCH crueler to characters that resemble themselves.

But let’s remember: this is how Gooseworx seems to see herself. That’s HER personal perception, and it may or may not be true.If Jax really carries parts of her emotionally, then when she calls him “trash,” she may also be talking about herself. And honestly… when your friends talk about themselves like that, lacking self-esteem and puting themselves down, are you really comfortable agreeing with them?

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There’s even that classic phenomenon:

favorite character → treated gently

emotional self-insert → thrown directly into the blender of suffering

Because writing becomes a way to externalize insecurity. And I think fandom culture makes this SO much worse.

Because when an author jokes that a character is trash… part of the fandom starts treating that as absolute truth.

Then it becomes: “oh so he deserves suffering,” “he’s irredeemably abusive,” “he’s a monster,” etc.

When sometimes the character is actually just emotionally broken.

And honestly? Jax never felt “evil evil” to me.

He feels deeply dysregulated. Almost all of his behavior feels like dissociation through humor, a need for control, and the need to provoke reactions because reaction = confirmation of existence.

He constantly avoids real vulnerability.

He reminds me A LOT of the kind of person who makes everyone laugh so nobody notices they’re drowning. Except in his case, he’d rather people simply hate him, and he’s okay with that... (maybe not toooo okay, but that's not the point here)

And that aligns VERY strongly with self-deprecating creator humor too.

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I’ve followed Gooseworx for a long time, and looking at everything she’s written, I can honestly feel traces of that in her too. And it’s honestly painful, because a lot of people use self-deprecation to cope with insecurity.

People have a habit of blindly accepting everything an author says without questioning ANYTHING, but words can carry completely different meanings depending on context and the feeling.

Gooseworx seems to have that kind of relationship of “I’m going to hit this character before anyone else can.”

That happens A LOT with insecure people. Speaking from experience.

“if I call him trash first, nobody can hurt me with it.”

And honestly? Sometimes creators use characters like that to explore ugly impulses without directly saying “I am literally like this.”

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Because human beings have ugly sides. Everyone does. Some people just turn those sides into art.

And I think it’s kind of sad when fandoms take “emotionally flawed character” and turn it into a “moral punching bag.”

Because Digital Circus itself talks a lot about broken people reacting badly to suffering. And Jax is practically the mascot of that idea.

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People love traumatized characters until they start acting traumatized.

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So in the end, this is not a “forgive him for hurting your favorite character” post. It’s more of a “let’s look beyond words and try to understand what a REAL PERSON might actually be feeling.”

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That’s what psychology is. That’s what human interaction is.

And just like Gooseworx uses Jax, there are many people using not only him, but also Ragatha, Pomni, Zooble, etc, to feel safer in their own skin.

Even though they’re fictional, the way people treat others who use fictional works for comfort says far more about the cruelty inside the person attacking others without empathy than it says about the fictional character, or the person identifying with them.

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Anyway, peace~

Jax is an interesting character because under better circumstances Jax could’ve become freer and happier and more in touch with himself. But because of the trauma and absolute SHAME that he felt, he lashed out and hurt multiple people in the process until his shame and self resentment swallowed him up too.

There’s this idea that when you transition or come out of the closet you just become a better person overnight. And that’s not reality. It might be freeing and you might see more self acceptance in the immediate… but decades of deeply ingrained misogyny and shame doesn’t just leave your body and mind in an instant. It’s a constant struggle to do better and make changes, and not everyone who transitions or comes out is going to be a perfect little cinnamon roll. It might take years or even more decades to truly wipe that shame and resentment from your soul.

That’s why Jax is such a unique character. We don’t often get to see this side of the queer community. We don’t see how this toxic misogyny and self hatred can manifest in queer people and then be outwardly violent and misogynistic towards other queer people.

I think it’s important to see this, though. Because it’s a lot more common than you may think. And seeing it in a controlled safe environment like a story or indie show, helps you identify it in real life.

This doesn’t mean we have to forgive Jax’s behavior. Even the show itself says that abstracting is what Jax deserves for his toxic and shitty actions. But I think understanding the how and why queer people would hurt and lash out at other queer people is a really important thing to explore. Especially now as attacks on the queer community increase in real life and more queer people are shoved back into the closet and shamed for being who they are.

Fuck repression.

What’s really depressing is seeing how negatively the TADC community has responded to this extremely personal insight into Goose’s past. Goose was vulnerable and showcased how toxic it is to be so deeply repressed. How messy and awful it is. And how it hurts other people around you.… And the community’s response has been to demonize her and crucifer her for not being perfect.

It’s like you guys are learning the wrong lesson.

Nobody is perfect. It takes a lot of effort and willpower to try to change and better yourself as a human being. We shouldn’t be demonizing this and we should instead be trying to look at how this happens, and what we can do to build support for fellow queers who are going through something similar as Jax. The theme of the show is to give people grace and an opportunity to change.

I know there’s probably plenty of reasons you can have to criticize Gooseworx, but I also can’t help but feel like this sudden tidal wave of hatred is just another manufactured moralizing panic targeting at an openly trans individual who was brave enough to showcase some of the unpleasant aspects of their life in an indie show. I’ve known people like Jax in real life. And I’ve known those same people after they’ve transitioned too. They’re better people, but it still takes time acclimating them to be more open and accepting and to disinfect the toxicity they’ve lived their whole lives with. It’s messy work.

Man, these cartoons have less negative impact than your X/tumblr/bluesky use on your mindset

Come on, even South Park was more harmful than many adult cartoons you hate right now

I'm impressed that so many adult indie cartoons have broken out of the Family Guy/South Park/Rick and Morty syndrome, in terms of animation and writing, and you don't even notice it

And people… Are you seriously shocked that cartoons for fucking adults have sexual references? Even my aroace is appalled by the level of purity culture in modern fandoms

Man, be glad that adult cartoons started to focus on more serious topics than "Family Comedies" and such… Seriously, you're just negative if you can't stand it

Seriously, you're not mature enough to even watch something that makes you think and doesn't have morals thrown at you every second… You might not be a fan of something, I don't like a lot of things either, but it gets weird when the reasons you have a problem with are the punchline of adult cartoons. They fucking know what kind of drama they're making them for, for adults, you know, people who have brains developed enough to handle a lot of topics… But it's clear that they's probably mistaken that modern adults can even do that. They should make adult cartoons like "Dora the Explorer" because you're too dumb to handle adult themes without getting the message every second that "The characters do bad things and are bad"

Seriously, you watch adult cartoons and then cry because they are "For adults and not morally correct like Bluey", that's what you look like

I'm tired of people who think they're experts on adult cartoons and call the creator "The Devil" because they understands adult cartoons better, which is not lecturing the adult viewer and just showing one thing… People are shit, that's the fucking truth

Life isn't sugar-coated, there's often no happy ending, there's no hero who saves the world, people are terrible in real life and do bad things, understand that, it's time to grow up and understand that the world isn't black and white, and everything else is complicated, good people do bad things, bad people do good things, you have to stop relying on your brain with an outdated evolutionary trait and finally reprogram it, because it only makes you do more harm than good, and your approach to adult animation only shows that you're not mature enough to consume it at all