I am so sorry it ended up like this

but I'm hearing there's a NSFW-friendly ko-fi alternative built on atproto that's actively in the works, and being vetted by lawyers right now. as torrent-princess (OP) says, you should be able to swap out payment processors while keeping your account intact. this matters since even if stripe removes support, you'll still have a shop and all of your links intact. (ATproto is an infrastructure that bsky is built on, but is far bigger than bsky with far more opportunities.)

additionally, the Free Speech Coalition is working on a credit union specifically for adult work (including kink art) - here's the link so you can add your interest & support. Since this will be built by sex workers, there'll be far less risk of being debanked for spurious and puritanical reasons.

on a domain TLD level, there's an initiative here for a .furry domain built from the ground up by seasoned furries; it's unclear whether they'll support NSFW, but it's yet another promising turn of events for a group that's been similarly affected by censorship.

and in the one hand, did i enjoy spending hours researching housing regulations in my state? not especially. drafting this email was stressful. but on the other hand, did i learn a lot by doing that research? yeah, i did. i’m more prepared for my current and future leases. i used some of that info to make decisions about a new renter’s insurance policy. i already told three different people about things i learned that are relevant to their leases that they didn’t know yet. (pro tip: see if you’re supposed to be getting annual interest payments on your security deposit! also look up what specific appliances your landlords must legally provide as of 2026.) i also got to reconnect with my cousin for a bit because her job gave her specific insight on part of the situation, and i’d much rather do that than have a chatbot make shit up for me.

also, i drafted that email with the power of friendship (friends angry on our behalf) and spite (from landlords telling me not to do my research). chatgpt could never.

like she's just ... fine? she is fine.

loose in a weird place and heavily pregnant? worried but fine. seeing strange person emerge from car nearby? fine. be captured by this person happily and allow them to put you places and do stuff to you? fine. be contained on a back porch alone much of the day where all your needs are met but there's not a lot of room to roam and people aren't there with you 24/7? fine. being leashed up and walked? fine. being put in a car and taken around to various locations? fine. getting her jabs at the shelter clinic? fine. having the shelter employees bring out another intact female pitbull to see how she would react (OH MY GOD WHY DID THEY DO THIS WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THIS? BUT--) somehow fine. see a loose cat walking around in the parking lot near you? fine. get an X-ray at the vet? fine. techs even remarked that she was unusually cooperative, like to a notable degree. jumpscared by a random malamute emerging from a room right in front of your nose? fine. see some kittens thru a glass window? fine. being left alone all night with just the radio on? fine. have people nearby when you have a REALLY good chew? fine. in fact actively wants to share.

like who is this dog. she immediately loves and trusts every human she meets. she gets worried about stuff but then she looks at her person and sees if they think it's a big deal or not and if they don't think it's a big deal she shakes it off. I opened an umbrella in front of her like people do for puppy temperament tests, and she just startled back a bit in surprise, glanced at Ship and at me, saw that we didn't think it was a threat, and dismissed it. she was just like "OH GOHS WHAT IS THAT, hey new friends what is that is it ok?" and we said "it's ok, I am familiar with this object and it is not a threat" and she said "oh okay phew thanks for telling me, now I know this object is safe :)"

^ translation of our nonverbal conversation translated into Human Words :)

I'm high and I'm just like thinking about how much I love talking to animals

Do I miss some foods I can't eat anymore without getting sick? Sure, but that's not what really bothers me. What bothers me is being excluded from a huge portion of human social life of which food is a crucial component. What bothers me is the stress and social stigma of trying to figure out what I can safely eat. What bothers me is the amount of extra work and cost that is required of me to identify, obtain, and prepare safe foods. What bothers me is people treating my needs like a nuisance, as though I chose to be like this - as though their brief inconvenience to check an ingredients list is unreasonable, when I deal with this every day of my life forever.

I don't miss the food that much. I miss not having to worry about what I eat. I miss freedom. I miss when trying new foods and new restaurants was fun instead of a minefield. I miss not having to plan my entire life around the need for safe foods.

us: WE DON'T KNOW. SHE SHOWED UP AT OUR HOUSE TWO DAYS AGO

the vet and techs were all really shocked by how sweet and stable she is and one was even like "she kind of acts like a service dog?" which I took to mean she was observing the same stuff that I was when I was thinking yesterday that she seems like she has received some positive reinforcement training. she's a very mysterious dog. she needed to take her Emotional Support Cow Ear with her to the x-ray, but she wasn't guard-y about it at all when the techs picked it up to give back to her if she dropped it etc.