down to self

-a peaceful revolution is possible if you control the power party.

-repeat mantras until you believe them. they don’t know anything. they’re all much more confused than I.

-I am totally content with walking at different speeds. it’s not stubbornness

-I can totally be sandra bullock.

-during peaks, provide yourself with the conditions to survive dips.

-just get started, what wasn’t done yesterday can be done now. or it can be not done. it may be forgotten. a dead spark. the decision is yours.

I’m facing adhd right now I think.

I can’t even remember what I was going to write.

My mom will be a good grandma.

But I don’t understand how to get to that point when I cannot stand to talk to her or hear from her.

I feel like the negative ideas and perceptions from others just tear me down and make me doubt my journey.

-the fifteen year anniversary conceptually, as a concept.

-that worldly catastrophic syndrome finds me differently; you can’t allow paralysis to consume you; to change the system, you must enter it

-the world seems too large a scale.

-I can recognize throughout history, I have always faced devastation.

-why was I always waiting for the moment it would end? the major devestating tragedy? why did I think the locked hotel room door was it? I definitely orchestrated that.

-every moment is not blank. everyday is not a fresh slate. you were in the middle of something. finish it.