just given myself whatever degree burn

1st

how do i say "horror novels these days are too woke" without sounding like a right winger. what i mean is: this one is about a woman serial killer who kills Bad Men, that one is about ~anticapitalist activists~, this one is ~queer~, that one is about *spins wheel* someone dealing with the ghosts of their immigrant roots, all of them are about intergenerational traumaaaaa. okay. cool. but is it good though. is it fucking scary

something something, losing the ability to convey horror through abstraction, through metaphor, through symbolism, through allegory, through raw unexamined un-psychiatrized feeling. if the real horror is.... dun dun dun! the patriarchy then i just feel preached to. don't use fiction as a vehicle for Saying Something About Society. write with total vulnerability and then see what it says. it will be probably be far more interesting and horrifying than what if the monster was uhh my mom's abuse or whatever. this brand of new horror writers are all so terrified of actually disclosing anything about themselves. it's like if an instagram infographic performance was a mediocre contemporary novel

The main problem I have with Persona 4 is that it's cowardly. It goes out of its way to present these ideas about young people struggling with ideas about identity, sexuality, gender, etc., with the dawning realization that embracing these ideas may subject them to a life lived in the margins of society. And at first, there's a moment where it seems like that life lived as your true self is preferable, even if it does marginalize you in the end. But it ALWAYS backtracks. Kanji and Naoto are the most relevant for this example, but all the social link characters are like that. They all have justifiable reasons for feeling ostracized from society, resentful if its expectations, but every last one of these characters' stories ends up with them deciding that they were wrong and/or mistaken, that society's expectations are reasonable, if not aspirational, and confirming to them is good actually. That your parents know what's best for you, so you should take up the family business instead of moving away to live your own life and see what lies beyond your small town. That you're not queer or gender non-conforming, you're just confused, or trying to be something you aren't to be accepted taken seriously by your peers(??????). That lashing out to a world actively hostile to who you really are is wrong, because that's *not* who you really are. Your TRUE self wants to be an amenable, agreeable, upstanding member of society.

I would let her kill me for sport

i want freedom i want freedom i want freedom *is granted freedom* noooooo my attachments