Alright all, this is gonna be the last post; posting it just to say that I am signing out of this account and do not plan to check it anymore. Iāll give 24hrs just to make sure I havenāt missed exchanging contact info with anyone who would like to do so, but then Iām outta here babey.
Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement. This yearās birthday has been leaps and bounds better. Thank you thank you thank you. š
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Alright all, this is gonna be the last post; posting it just to say that I am signing out of this account and do not plan to check it anymore. I'll give 24hrs just to make sure I haven't missed exchanging contact info with anyone who would like to do so, but then I'm outta here babey.
Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement. This year's birthday has been leaps and bounds better. Thank you thank you thank you. š
TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
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TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
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TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
TLDR: I learned recently that Iām still being stalked online by someone who used to be a close friend. They decided to end the friendship earlier this year, and have been monitoring my online presence closely since. I have tried everything I could think of to prevent them from having access to this blog, but it hasnāt worked. I might make a new tumblr, I might not. I might swap platforms altogether. I donāt know yet. But I wonāt be announcing where Iām going publicly or when. You are welcome to message this blog (off of anon) to ask where to find me in the future. Iām really sorry for all the inconvenience. Iām hoping this puts an end to it.Ā
This post will be queued for a while, so if you see it a bunch, sorry for the spammed info!Ā
I had a falling out with a very close friend and... To say that the result has been messy would be an understatement. Iām happy to have moved on, Iām considerably happier as a person, but the friend doesnāt seem content to let me be. Iāve asked them to respect my space and privacy, but I donāt think theyāre planning to any time soon. Which sucks, cuz I suspect that even after moving blogs theyāll still try to find me.Ā
Iāve blocked all the tumblrs I know were theirs at some point or another, all the handles I could think of that they might go to. (So if you got blocked by my for No Reason, that might be why--sorry!) Iāve also made it impossible to view my tumblr without logging in. So itās almost 100% a sure thing that theyāve made a new account entirely/a new identity/etc. I have no idea what it is, and have no way of finding out (tho tbh I donāt reallly want to know--I just want to have them blocked). But this means that itās very possible they could even be straight up following this blog.Ā
And if thatās the case, it doesnāt matter how many times I change my username, obscure my information, add layers of security, try to block all English visitors (sorry to anyone who mightāve gotten caught in that--I couldnāt figure out how to narrow it further so I ended up just chucking it out), etc etc. Theyāll still be able to find me and stalk me.Ā
So Iām starting over altogether. A new online presence, new blog, new email address, everything. It breaks my heart cuz this blog has functioned as a personal reprieve and journal for me through undergrad, law school, and serious life milestones. Iāve met a lot of wonderful people through this tumblr and I donāt want to lose them. (If youāre one of the people that talks to me regularly, please do reach out! I might reach out to you too, but it never hurts if weāre both on the ball, eh?) But I also donāt feel safe at this tumblr anymore. Iām scared that theyāll find things I post and interpret things to be about them, or find reason to lash out at me or our mutual friends. Iām scared that Iām not allowed to exist without being under constant surveillance.
When I started this blog, it was meant to be a way for me to voice my thoughts/opinions/reflections and feel like I was being seen/heard. It helped enormously and itās helped me grow a lot as a person. Iāll always be grateful for that. Right now, however, the last thing I want to be is seen or heard by someone who wishes me harm. And I think Iāve run out of online security measures.Ā
What all this means is that if you message me asking for information about how to contact me, I might ask you what your name is or for a selfie if I donāt remember who you are. I canāt risk just handing out my information to them directly. Thatād defeat the whole exodus. && I wonāt give any information at all to anons. Totally understandable if you donāt want to give that info, tho, and I encourage you to ask even if you think I donāt remember you. I promise I wonāt be upset. I just canāt think of any less of a ham-fisted way of making sure they canāt follow me wherever Iām going.
Iām also likely not going to give information about my new blog (if I even decide to make one--havenāt landed on a decision there) to any mutual friends I share with them. I donāt want them harassing anyone I know and love for my whereabouts, and I donāt want them meticulously going through their notes/reblogs to try and find me. Itās just not worth it. So if youāre one of those folks, Iām sorry. Iām not going to be reachable at all via social media for a while. You didnāt do anything wrong, and Iām not upset with you. Itās just a security measure that I canāt figure out a way to get around. (if you have ideas, Iām open to listening!)
Iāll still be on Discord, (and technically facebook, but god I hate that site so much pls dont make me use it) but Iām not gonna have any online content to follow. Itās just too risky. I know they can recognize my art, etc, so. I would just rather keep mutual friends out of the line of fire entirely. Theyāve been through enough, protected me enough, and already done more than any friend should ever feel the need to. Iām endlessly grateful.Ā
For those who are worried for me: donāt be. Iām much, much happier. I didnāt realize quite how bad the situation was until I was out of it. Hindsight is 20/20, no? The only remaining negative influence of it in my life is through their stalking. Hereās hoping that this marks the end of that saga.Ā
Iām also in the process of applying for both US and English restraining orders, for those concerned.Ā
And to the person stalking me: Please stop. You arenāt welcome in my spaces, and I donāt want you following me. I donāt want to share my life with you anymore. I want to be able to have my space just as Iām sure you cherish yours. I donāt wish you ill, and I donāt harbour any anger or hatred for all that happened. I wish you the best in your journey, but Iāve decided that I donāt want to be there for the ride. If you can find it within your heart to let go, please do. You wonāt find happiness here.Ā
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Tuca & Bertie is the sort of adult cartoon that feels like itās like other cartoons⦠except itās better. I can make a whole list but Iāll just note here that itās got that Bro feel minus misogyny and their Adult content isnāt raunchy.
I say that having watched BoJack Horseman. The difference is that BoJack is about mental health and cultural critique whereas Tuca & Bertie is about friendship and adulting. The former is cynical, the latter is indulgent. Both have merit. I just want more indulgence.
I will be as obnoxious as I need to be in order for more people to try this show because itās so diverse and brilliantly written. We need more adult cartoons like Tuca & Bertie.
Honestly, in my work as a therapist, Iām seeing this A Lot, and tbh I still donāt have a satisfactory approach to it. A heavy dose of Existentialist ācreate your own Purposeā tempered with āwhen the planeās going down, put your own oxygen mask on firstā, but⦠yeah, there is no ethical way to work on individual emotional distress without acknowledging the systemic socioeconomic, geopolitical fuckery going on at the moment, and the sheer grief that comes with it.
This is one of those areas where like on the one hand as a chronic moderate-severe depressive this shit hits me hard and on the other Iām watching people technically more mentally healthy than me struggle with the vast pointless mess of existence for the first time and itās a trip.
Some tips from the inside, in case they help:
- life has always been pointless. Or rather, we have always been unable to control the relative point-fulness of life. The factors involved in opening the possibilities of who can have a large scale impact where are so insanely complex that they can at best only be pieced together imperfectly in retrospect
- the only thing that has changed is your awareness of this fact. No, seriously. The sun will eventually swallow the planet; at any moment without our knowledge or control the sun could flare in weird ways that will kill us all; etc. There was geopolitical and socioeconomic fuckery as bad or worse going on before: you just didnāt see it. Promise.
- you do what you can with what you have. You do whatās in front of you. Humanity has survived all of this before; it may survive it again. It may not. You can only do what you can: take what lessons exist from the past and apply them.
- sometimes it is just that bad and they are totally out to get you. The question is, what do you do about it?
- almost without exception in human history the answer has been ābuild community; support the one you have; reach out to connect MORE and to make the world more kind and less hateful than before.ā
- recognize youāre trying to tackle god-level problems with a brain originally meant for keeping small proto-fish from being eaten. Treat that part of your brain like a very anxious toddler or rescue pitbull. Give it small measurable victories and successes even if you have to make them up. Make sure itās fed and watered and has enough rest. Medicate it if you have to - thereās nothing wrong with that. The opposite, in fact.
We are hairless plains apes living in a thin skin of atmosphere between spinning liquid superheated death and the void of absolute cold, sustained by the radiation of a supermassive explosion that will kill us at the slightest excuse. We have always been unlikely and implausible and probably doomed which means every moment we are able to live, thrive and help others do so is an incredible victory. Donāt quit now. ā¤ļø
Fix what is within your reach. Somedays, all you will accomplish is converting oxygen to carbon dioxide, and thereās a plant somewhere nearby that appreciates your efforts.
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one of my favourite poets (and one of tumblrās favourite poets - if youāve ever even looked at a ship graphic youāve probably read a stanza of his work and loved it), the incomparable Richard Sikenā, suffered a stroke in March. his publishers, Copper Canyon Press, set up a gofundme for his medical bills and living expenses. at this point they donāt know if heāll make a full recovery or be able to work again.Ā
we all owe this guy a decadeās worth of back-pay for using his poems as fic titles. if you can make a donation, please do.
you know what i donāt get? when like, people write romance stories where two characters are so in love w each other its all magnetism, but they? donāt even have fun together? or are even nice to each other sometimes?
āour love could level a thousand mountains and conquer a million citiesā
ok but⦠are you even⦠likeā¦.. friends????
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