forgive me for a slightly venty slightly out of kink post, but i think a part of the allure of this kink for me is the simplicity it would grant me in my interpersonal affairs. being a trans woman who is primarily attracted to men is a fucking nightmare.
post-transition, pretty much every even slightly romantic relationship iâve had with a man has been a disaster; either theyâre the chaser creep final boss, or they donât know iâm trans at first and when they find out they lose romantic interest in me (they rarely lose sexual interest, though), or itâs just a constant back and forth âsituationshipâ type thing. i have cut off men who i knew had crushes on me because iâm always scared they wonât like me anymore if they find out iâm not a cis woman.
if i was just a gay man, it wouldnât be such a goddamn hassle. iâd just be a gay man, looking for other gay men, and not have to look for the maybe 1-5% of the male population that actually wants to have a long-term relationship with a trans woman. canât go for gay men because i donât even look much like a man anymore, canât go for straight men because of the whole âi have a penisâ thing, so i have to go for bisexual men who may or may not even want to date a trans woman. it is a fucking nightmare.
anyway. rant over, back to your regularly scheduled programming