#varion system

We experience our headmates in a weird way. It's like they disappear once they have been identified, we can't access our headmates and when we hear someone they never know who they are, or if they should tell us. It's like we notice their existence to just be removed later. We have a collective sense of self, but we are also separate in our own ways. We have no clue how to identify each other anymore, we like different things, but we all say we like all of the things combined, just a little bit less or more whenever the front changes. We feel like a collective single identity, but multiple at the same time. We can't just express ourselves with "I'm a singlet" or "we are plural" for some reason It goes beyond that. We are both in our own unique way, and seeing others having identified headmates with different names and likes all figured out makes us... Desire the same. We have no clue of who we are talking with, but they exist here. We are a mix of a singlet and plural, both at the same time somehow, still have no clue what to call us. We have no headspace, it changes every time we try to create one, guess we have too many different ideas. We can't agree on any major life decisions, we want too many different things, and even when we try to mix them, there's someone that doesn't like it. We call ourselves plural, since it's a broad term, and we feel closer to being plural than a singlet, but it would be nice to know if there's some other plural that experiences the same!

Don't worry about putting more than one experience. It may be harder for me to read, but if it all comes together then it's no big deal :D

It's okay to not be very distinct!!! We ourselves sort of have the first bit depending on what flux of our plurality we're on!

I'll go ahead and mention that for a while my headmates were fine taking my name and going around with my pronouns, but now they really dislike it if I'm not out-- and whether or not that happens for you doesn't really change much about whether this is "actually plural". Fragments, facets, and even what could be considered a fully formed headmate can all just decide to not have separate identities or even just not share who or what they are.

-@broken-truth-system

Ohh we like this a bit!! It doesn't really apply to us as far as I can tell (we're more like a discord server, or stat pentagons in games, or lightbulbs), but yeah consciousness can get real complicated for some of us huh.

We're not sure of our consciousness type so it's kind of weird when talking about switching because we don't really get the whole many consciousnesses thing OR only one :') nobody explains clearly enough for us, and then add on the diversity in both...

its weird being median :/

like what do you mean social interaction with people i like made me less isolated and therefore my system adapted and i only have like 3 parts and we're never not blurry what

that moment when youre less isolated from people your own age becuase you see your friends everyday and so then theres less and less system activity and now youre just a few jumbled facets.....

being varion really is something

but if things go the way i think theyre going too some of us should resurface(?) after schools out and we're by ourself most of the time :P

her name is Seventeen and shes a transmasc lesbian which is very cool but very odd for our sys- at least in my opinion ig? idk

the sir chloe brainrot has caused her formation and who knows if she'll stick around