Actually I've never said this at all, but i'm pretty jealous of you. No. I'm really jealous of you. You probably are really surprised that i'm saying this, but don't be. I hate that you're so comfortable with yourself. You're so confident and don't care what other people think of you and your personality is amazing, and i just hate that i'm not that. Sometimes it comes across as you being full of yourself, but your personality makes it work. Sometimes I just wish I could tell you this, but then that's my breaking point. After spending a week bunking with you, I found that I may have developed stronger feelings towards you, but in the end I know its all in my head and I wont be able to do anything about it. There are just times where I wish a day would last more than 24 hours and things would just end up better. Another reason why I am somewhat jealous towards you is because of your sheer determination about your future. I really think that its great that you want to teach English and you're so passionate towards it. It's something I wish that would just come to me. Some days I sit and think what I want to do with my future, but I have no clue where to start. You've set yourself for where you want to be and I'm still over here probably going to end up stuck here while you leave and set off to go do what you know you want to do along with everyone else. I shouldn't be stressing about any of this, but at the same time, I know I have to think of these things before time runs out on me. I kind of went off topic, but i said what i needed to get off of my chest towards the beginning. Hopefully, one day, I'll get the guts to tell you this, but I know that even when I do, none of it will matter to you. So whats the point? Might as well just try to end things while it can be short and simple right?
