#ocdsufferer

Does anyone else do a word repeating or word association with a current theme you’re battling with? This could be anything you’re trying to enjoy. Whether it’s sex with your partner, yourself, watching a tv show, playing music, reading a book, etc. Everything’s all fine and dandy then suddenly the intrusive/unwanted thought pops up as one word representing the theme and it tries super hard to make sure you don’t or didn’t enjoy that enjoyable thing you were doing.  

You ever have those days where you don’t know if you actually are progressing dealing with OCD or that you’re just numb? WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN AVOIDING AND NOT GIVING INTO COMPULSIONS?! Due to intrusive unwanted thoughts why am I now questioning every single thought or feeling as if I’m not sure of every single decision I’ve ever made and who I am. I always thought of myself as very intuitive, but now I fear that has just been OCD, what is fucking real and not real loool