#ocdawareness

something that i am INCREDIBLY infuriated at is how OCD is presented and shown in media.

they will make people saying that they need to turn a light on and off 12 times to prevent their family from dying as a funny skit for people to laugh at, when in actuality that’s how it feels and seems to that person. it is so real to that person.

and also, they only seem to present OCD in an afraid of germs way, and the turning the light on and off way, when once again, in actuality, it is pretty damn common that OCD isn’t even obvious, and also looks much more like avoiding things in a very much less obvious way.

and like yes, OCD can also be being afraid of germs, and having obvious compulsions, but that’s not the only way it can be seen, and i don’t think i’ve ever seen representation of OCD that’s in another way, one that’s more like MY OCD.

i want more COMMON depictions of OCD that AREN’T used as FUNNY LITTLE SKITS.

and it’s infuriating and frustrating that how literally SO MANY PEOPLE don’t ACTUALLY know what OCD is! they think it’s liking things organized, liking things clean, and etc. and SIMPLY that.

they don’t realize it involves INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS that are unwanted and are highly distressful and don’t leave us alone most of the time/when severe.

and on top of that, they don’t fucking know the difference between intrusive thoughts and impulsive thoughts.

impulsive thoughts is “oh i just cut off all my hair cuz i felt like it” and intrusive thoughts is “i had the sudden image of jabbing these scissors into my skull”

intrusive thoughts are not fucking fun, and ALL those with OCD struggle have them, pretty much daily, and usually have a deep core belief that they are a bad person (depending on the intrusive thoughts) because of them their WHOLE LIVES, whether they know they have OCD or not, whether they’ve been in therapy for it or not.

i am fucking TIRED of people not knowing what OCD is, not knowing what intrusive thoughts are, and the misinterpretation/one interpretation of it in media.

every time i see a misinterpretation or misinformation about it, i become absolutely livid.

if i had clearer representation of OCD growing up, i honestly would’ve known that i didn’t have all these horrible subconscious wishes, and that i wasn’t the worst person on the planet for my intrusive thoughts.

there’s a war beneath my skin— not seen, not heard, only felt in the hollow ache of every restless night.

the needles of anxiety prick, sharp and endless, while depression drags me into pits without bottom.

i wear my scars like armor, but they don’t protect— they remind me of battles fought in silence, in dark corners where no one visits.

sometimes, i want to rip my own skin to feel something real, to drown the chaos with pain i can control.

but it’s not just the cutting— it’s the constant tug of rituals, the endless need to fix what isn’t broken, the crushing perfectionism that crushes me whole.

this isn’t a choice. this is survival, a twisted language my mind learned too well.

To love and accept myself I have to accept the role OCD has played on me and my life.

This quote came from a video I made titled OCD Hiding, Acceptance and Self Compassion

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OCD Hiding , Acceptance and Self Compassion (youtube.com)

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(The reason I’m making this is bc today my OCD has been extra annoying and I’m tired of people not taking OCD seriously)

OCD stands for “Obsessive Compulsive Disorder”. It’s uncontrollable reoccurring thoughts (also called intrusive thoughts) and/or behaviors (compulsions) that the person who has OCD feels the urge to repeat over and over.

OCD can significantly impact a person life. It can interrupt social interactions, it can cause a person to avoid certain situations, people, things, and etc. OCD can also make the person feel disgusted, fear, anger, and sadness. The severity of OCD varies between person.

Mental disorders like anxiety can worsen OCD (since OCD is an anxiety related disorder) For example, the higher the persons anxiety level is the more likely chance their OCD can trigger and how often it does.

OCD is an incurable mental disorder but it can be treated with medication and/or different types of therapy to help lower the severity.

The rarity of OCD is a controversial subject, some say it’s common and others think it’s rare. Though there are studies that suggest that around 3% of the human population has OCD.

“Well everyone has a little bit of OCD” no, there’s a difference between “Wait did I lock the door?” then you check to see if you locked it then resume to your normal activities, THEN there’s “Wait did I locked the door?” then you go and check but that’s not enough, the intrusive thoughts gets so stressful to the point where your brain creates a certain ritual/routine in order to relieve that stress even if it’s a short period of time. Also there’s a difference between OCD and a pet peeve, just because you can’t stand to see a painting crooked or something is out of place doesn’t mean that you have OCD.

The cause of is still unknown, researchers are still trying to figure it out, but some strongly believe that genetics and/or events that have happened has to do with it.