#slightly vent

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Me:

"AFAB transgender teenage internet user found dead by hanging, even though she wrote no letter about her death, she was CLEARLY encouraged by the WOKE left on SOCIAL MEDIA"

and then they deadname me on my gravestone and put my body in a womanly feminine dress and grief my face with makeup because this whole country either fucking hates us or doesn't even want to acknowledge the existence of our already minimal rights they were forced to give us

Now, it’s one memory I cherish dearly and one that I don’t want to forget. I had such a great time with my friends, managed to become even closer with one of them, the activities we did together were so much fun. I had such a blast and only because I decided to go last minute. Definitely something I treasure in my heart. With Rui, it was just the same. He didn’t want to go, Tsukasa kindly pushed him to, and then he had unforgettable moments he’d never get to experience had he not gone to the trip.

Even the silly, non-impactful moments where it’s just Tsukasa and Rui doing shit together are important. It’s one of the rare times they get to do stuff outside of school, they were absolutely having the best time of their lives during that pillow fight on episode 8. You can see Rui laughing and having fun during all of those times.

Sometimes it’s the simple things we do that truly change us. Had he simply not gone, his life wouldn’t change. By going, he allowed himself to change. He let himself experience something new. He let himself have fun. Rui changed to become the best version of himself. Simply by going to this seemingly irrelevant, but once in a lifetime school trip.

I draw my teenage self

I would say it's somewhat a vent that I do have a very awful feeling of jealousy, not good for my brain and heart as well

Plus I got inspired by "the animal what I become" by three days grace while drawing this uUu

watching your source get worse n worse right in front of you

a source that did nothing but torment you daily since your kithood

n still missing it so so much